Today I was ToastMastress. 40% of everyone canceled on me or couldn't make it to the meeting. Luckily the awesome that is my brain stepped in and helped me figure out a solution to our only 1 speaker and 45 minutes to fill after TableTopics. I called random people up to ask a question of their choice to the other person. It went well. The meeting was a little lower in energy than what I would have liked, but people were still waking up and I don't have the skills to Command the Audience.
Then I've been doing work filing papers, but today they weren't sure if there was more work to be done. I was so bad ass at filing that by the end of the day yesterday I had everything filed and sorted into boxes with labels on them and everything. They were surprised I got it done so fast.
Then I thought dad would have work for me today, but he doesn't. Now I'm just kind of like, "What do I do with myself?" I feel like my own babysitter. I want work. It's weird. I liked filing. A lot. It gave me a sense of accomplishment and something to continuously strive for. I liked making headway inch by inch. Yah there were times when I needed a break but wouldn't take one and my frustration started to grow into something kind of ugly, but I just kept plugging away knowing how great it would feel when I was done.
Why can't I have that kind of motivation at WFG? Driven, dedicated, eager, unyielding... Instead I dread calling people and scheduling appointments. I wouldn't mind the actual appointment, but trying to convince people to hear me out is more challenging than I thought it would be. People keep reacting to me like I'm going to push products on them and not shut up about the company. It's frustrating too because the information is stuff everyone should already know but our education system and government don't put the info out there in the public. Instead it's catered to the wealthy.
I don't know. I'm tired. And bored. And kind of hungry. I'm addicted to avocados lately... I'm weirdly awesome like that.
HOW ARE YOU BORED AND YOU KNOW ME????
ReplyDeleteAnyway, Jessica, you're only going to succeed with something that has two qualities:
1. What you enjoy
2. What you're good at
No surprise to me that you like filing and you're not blowing away the world in WFG. Interesting how you can analyze everything but yourself. It's obvious to me that you're more comfortable filing than you are a saleswoman, and you're still 75% mystery to me!
Sounds to me as if some times of soul-searching will take place with you in time. I hope you choose to do exactly what you want to do and be, not what you want yourself to do and be.
There is a difference.
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Your days oF boredom will last until around December 25th. Time to get rid of that boring X-box (geared to musclehead males between the ages of 18-30) and get a system that also happens to cater to the artistic female:
ReplyDeleteTHE PS3. IT'S COMING SOON.
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I hope you choose to do exactly what you want to do and be, not what you want yourself to do and be.
ReplyDeleteI want to learn to succeed at WFG. I shouldn't limit my potential for growth by sticking with what I know i can do well. I want to gain new skills and become more of a leader. It will take time and change, but I genuinely want to do well and succeed in this. The business works and it's something good, I just need to improve and change so I can make the business my own. These places Need more people like me in them. I want to contribute my unique qualities as a leader.
*shrug* Alright. Then you better give it your 100%. Time is short.
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