Wednesday, December 30, 2015

Why I Like the Internet/ Future Times

So I don't quite know how to explain or give reason to the spiritual understandings that I've been picking up on. But luckily the internet has some people like me that are picking up on the same truths -affirming my understandings where otherwise they would be left alone to doubt themselves. 

Basically the world is getting darker AND lighter. Those who are "dark" or "negative" will get worse in the coming years and those who are "light" or "positive" will become more so. It will be easier and easier to distinguish light from dark and therefore Heaven from Hell. The two will not be confused as they have been in the past.

For instance, it was once called an act of Heaven/God t burn gay men alive -as it is still in some countries. Today we call that darkness by it's name: Murder. We do not confuse burning people alive (as demons would lead humans suffer in Hell the same way) an act of Heaven (a place of light and grace and mercy).

I've sided with light, which is good news for me because it means Spiritual Abilities will increase in strength and become easier to implement in a more physical than metaphysical sense. God and divine beings of Heaven will also be able to come through more. 

Those of light will undoubtedly unite in solidarity -praying grace and preserving life where they can. They will be the shepherds. 

Those in darkness will inevitably have to face their own demons literally as the transparency of spirituality (or the "Piercing of the Veil" as I like to call it) becomes more obvious. 

I am not alone in this understanding. And you can feel it happening. Marriages that are genuine will succeed and last more easily. That which is genuine, pure, honest, true, light, and full of grace will Succeed. 

I was also excited to realize that 2016 = 2 + 0 + 1 + 6 = 9. Nine of course being my number. I call the number 9: "God in All Things". Meaning in this year people will see the Divinity within themselves more clearly. As well as the Divinity in all forms of life. 

Friday, November 27, 2015

Heaven's like a Airport

After I had my dream, I thought about Heaven and became troubled and worried as I often am over the prospect of my own death. 

As if by grace, I then flashed to my recent experience of going to the airport alone for the first time. It was then I understood the similarities between the two. 

When you first arrive at the airport, there are immediately people there to help you out. you walk right up to the kiask and tell them your name and what flight you seek to be on. They then hand you a Ticket and take away your Bag. You hand over your suite case like you do your body -without hesitation or fear -knowing you no longer need to hold onto it. 

The Ticket becomes the Truth you learn on your way into Heaven. Because before you have enter through the gate, you have to go through the TSA system. There are rules on the plane so that everyone can be protected. Those rules say you cannot enter with a Weapon and you cannot enter with Violent Intent. Heaven is the same. In this place called Purgatory -where your darknesses are purged from you -the Hatreds and Violent Tendencies you had in this life are sorted through and let go of by you. In this way, Heaven maintains its Peace. 

Once cleared of the TSA -only taking with you that which you need most -you then pass through the gate and into the Heavens. From the there the journey is no longer your worry. The flight itself is in someone else's hands. And there is no need to rush, because this flight is for your vacation trip. It is meant to be Enjoyed. As is the destination -where you might choose it to be in that infinite place. 

But what hit me the most and what I found most assuring was that you are NEVER alone in any of that process. There's always someone there to guide you to the place you belong. 

I Dreamed A Revelation

I had asked God and the Holy Spirit over a couple times of the course of the past couple weeks to help me with something specific. I found that when I thought of going to Heaven one of the issues I had was this overwhelming Fear that when there at some point I would be presented with Too Much information and Truth that I couldn't handle. I know there are many many things to learn of in this universe and was worried that I might be overwhelmed by the magnitude of the Truths I would then find in Heaven. So I asked God and in particular the Holy Spirit to bring me Ease and to insight Clarity about that situation. 

Last night I had a dream I was in a place I later found was Heaven. I was in these golden, immaculate woods wandering through in perfect peace. There was a man or something similar to an old wise man in a robe leading me and another man. The man who wandered beside me was large and had a dark demeanor. I got the sense he would punch you in the face if you said something he didn't like. 

The wise man who lead us took us to a waterfall. At the base of the waterfall -which wasn't very big -was a flat rock like a giant skipping stone you could stand on. It was clear a person was meant to stand on the stone, so the negative man who stood beside me pretty quickly moved to stand upon the stone. 

The stone did NOT move. The wise man said that he was not READY for the experience and that he would experience nothing. It was not said as an insult or as a judgement, but rather an acknowledgement from patience. 

Then I stepped upon the stone and it ROSE and moved to the top of the waterfall. At the top of the waterfall was a tall water trough. It was clear you were meant to place your head into the water in the trough to see whatever Truth was being presented. So I did. 

As I saw under the water there was a tablet with pictures that were clear. On the left of the tablet there were five faces placed in vertical order and numbers beside them. Each face represented a spiritual age. Like you may have the face of an infant then the face above it a teenager and the face above and adult to show Physical age differences -this one showed Spiritual Ages. In the Middle I found my face -meaning in my life I have presumed myself to be an Elder soul but by Universal Spiritual Comparison my soul is actually still pretty young given ALL there is to know, understand, and BE in life. 

On the right of the tablet there were several symbols representing several significant Spiritual Truths that a person can learn on earth. For instance there was one symbol that represented Architectural and Geographical Locations that hold Great Spiritual energy and significance -kind of like Stonehenge for example. 

The most interesting symbol I was was how God sets aside various ways for people to gain wealth on earth if they choose. 

The first way of wealth listed that in the bottom of the ocean there was found to be OIL -which is of great value to people on earth. Now in the previous centuries, before oil was discovered in the ocean, it would have seemed like a ridiculous notion to suggest it could be found there. And yet it was there waiting to be discovered. Most of these Financial Opportunities manifest themselves as DISCOVERIES. 

Now even if oil hadn't been discovered yet in the ocean, if God had told it could be found there, I never would have pursued it myself. I don't know anything about retrieving oil, manufacturing oil, and most importantly I have NO interest in it. Even if it meant earning millions. 

But there was another symbol for wealth I did see. The symbol represented a pre-existing form of ARTISTRY from recent decades that could be adopted and reinvented. I'd been contemplating making my own version of an adult coloring book since they have become so popular and believe that is what the symbol was alluding to. 

At the end of viewing the tablet I was kind of dismayed because I found the truths shown were truths I already knew and acknowledged. Then a little while later, back at home in Heaven, I ran into a man in a social gathering who was quickly writing down as much as he could in an old journal he was carrying. 

He handed the journal to me and openly wrote the words, "I love you. I hope this brings you more understanding." on the back of the last page in the journal. Though I'd never met him before I was overcome by the feeling I cared about him and wished I could spend more time with him. I then took the journal, which I instinctually understood had more Truths and Revelations I sought to understand written in it. 

I attempted to hide the journal under my arm as a sea of friends and family talked around me. I escaped to an office space where I desperately searched for a pen to write down a few words in the journal. I only found red sharpie pens and knew they would bleed through. The pages themselves were covered in scribbled handwriting as was. I also can't recall the words I did managed to write down which were very specific words like "v********" or "w******" but I can only remember the first letter. I also knew as I was writing the words that I NEEDED to remember them as if subconsciously I knew I would awake and no longer recall the words. 

Then a man came to me -a good man who approached as a friend  -and he came to offer me help. So he proceeded to SHOW me his youth and the Truth and Understanding he had gained from it. 

He was born disfigured and unexpected. His father didn't know what to do with him since he was strange looking, so he took a knife and attempted the cut the boys throat so he would die. But he could only manage to cut partially through before his conscious kicked in and led him to stop. Because of this cutting the boy grew up mute and unable to speak. 

But his father was his constant companion and guardian. The father -in spite of his initial reactions -was a wise, older soul and looked after the young boy who was a younger soul. He watched out for him and made sure he never found himself in harms way. 

Then one day the boy's mother died and the father didn't know how to tell his son and was in too deep a grief to explain it. So instead, through a writing, he told his son, "I am sorry for what I did to you when you were born. I love you more than anything. Please forgive me." The son, who had never bore his father any resentment, simply wrote back, "I've always loved you. Do not worry." 

The son was weightless in that moment. While heavy waves of sadness overwhelmed the father, the son had none. The man who was telling me his story then wrote for me on his own page:

"It was then I learned that I could have Joy in suffering. I can have Joy in loss. I can have Joy in chaos. I can ALWAYS rejoice in the Unconditional Love I have in spite of whatever circumstances I may find myself in." 

And with that I came to the understanding of how one receives great spiritual truths in Heaven: 

1. When you are ready as a soul to hear and carry a "Bigger Picture" Truth within yourself you will be lead to it. 

2. You will NEVER be alone in this journey to finding the Truth.

3. You will have the opportunity to read the truth on your own, but if you find it too hard to comprehend, someone in Heaven -usually another soul -will SHOW you the truth as they found it in their lives. 

Tuesday, November 24, 2015

World Peace?

People often say, "Well since World Peace hasn't happened by now it never will."

I thought about it, and I disagree. I say, no one ever WANTED World Peace before and that's why it was never achieved. Since people strive for it now, it may very well be achieved in the coming years. 

Back int he 15th century a book called Utopia was written. It was one of the first times noted times that anyone had widely conceived that the ENTIRE planet -not just a specific country or people -could exist in peace and harmony. Though the book was widely received at the time in Europe, Europe itself was lost to violence, religious discourse, and bogited hatreds. 

More importantly, Europe didn't KNOW the world. It sought to concur a lot of the world, but had no honest connection to or understanding of the world at large. 

TODAY is different. We KNOW Russia here in America. Brazil KNOWS Australia. China KNOWS Canada. You can just about watch the countries in action as is right now on Youtube. 

In other words, for the first time ever we are capable of seeing what's going on in other countries and form SOLIDARITY across nations. 

When Paris was attacked, people in America and other parts of the world knew as it was happening. And a couple days later the world was reminded these atrocities are occurring in other parts of the world as well simultaneously -and other issues as well like Hurricanes and Earthquakes. Our compassion and unity are being stretched to vast regions and what were once a "foreign" people.

The beginnings of World Peace are already being seen. Our connection to humanity is becoming more and more plain. 

There are still small groups of people who are Adverse to this new path. They seek DIVISION and Destruction instead. And as it has always been these groups will die in time. They will fade out and end. 

10 Grapes

Christians and other groups have been posting this, so I wanted to put this Theory to the test:

If you have a group of people (10 grapes) and a small handful of people within that group were harmful to others (2 poisoned grapes) -then by this quotes insistence we should avoid and/or reject that whole group.

That implies the following:

Women should avoid/reject men since some are rapists.

Children should avoid teachers and adults since some are pedophiles.

Black people should avoid white people since some are members of the KKK.

All people should avoid Christians since some are murderers. 

All people who own guns should be feared because some have been mass murderers and terrorists. 

And yet what did Christ Himself teach on this issue?

Jesus befriended Peter who was trying to murder Him and had killed off many of his followers by burning them alive.

Jesus embraced and befriended Judas even though He knew Judas would betray Him. 

He spoke in front of large groups of people in spite of their many attempts to kill Him after He spoke. 

And ultimately God chose to come to earth and teach love to humanity even though He knew humanity itself would take His life. 

So in conclusion, some people Love Jesus -that is true -but they kind of suck when it comes to FOLLOWING His teachings and fearlessly and indiscriminately caring for people as He did. Because the truth is the way Christ loved and the way He lived cost Him death. And most people don't have the courage to live a better life in that way because they know it may cost them something they care about as well.  

Also, just for the record, Jesus told us to love our enemies as ourselves. 

Friday, November 13, 2015

Dear Ben Carson

Dear Ben Carson... got your email!

First off, you make it too easy to dislike you sir. 

Secondly: You can be pro-life all you want. Nobody is Against people being pro-life. It is when they are "pro" Taking the Rights of Women away that we run into issues. 

My stance is: If you're pro-life then find POSITIVE ways to Encourage women to keep their children. For example, one of the main reasons women abort is they cannot AFFORD to have a baby financially. Why not get some of your campaign money together and start a non-profit that gives financial aid to women who can't afford to have their children??? 

Another issues is the social stigma of calling women who have children out of wedlock "whores". Maybe you can start another non-profit that works as a Support Group for women who are unexpectedly pregnant so they aren't left so alone in this world. 

Another issue is Women are (or according to you "should be") forced to have children, but the MEN who contributed to that life existing hold no responsibility to the infant whatsoever. Maybe placing more emphasis on Male contribution to the Female you are trying to force to have the child might help. 

Thirdly: No one is against Straight People being married. "Traditional marriage" as you call it is fine... you know expect for where issues of domestic violence are concerned. 

No one is bringing any harm to straight marriage or attempting to end it. You can be in favor of straight marriage all you want -no one will take it from you. 

Gay Marriage (and gay people in general) on the other hand has struggled for a while. Gay marriage is at risk of being taken away. 

If these 2 kinds of marriages were animals, Straight Marriage would be a dog at home safe with a family and Gay Marriage would be a rhino wandering the African plains about to be shot. 

Saying you are Against Gay Marriage is essentially saying you do NOT Support Gay Relationships which IS saying you are Against Gay People which does in fact make you Homophobic or Anti-Gay. Duh. 

The people who are always against "Political Correctness" are always Racist, Misogynistic, Bigoted, Homophobic, Hateful, Ignorant people who want to say Racist, Misogynistic, Bigoted, Homophobic, Hateful, Ignorant things without being held ACCOUNTABLE. 

As a President you HAVE to represent and support THE PEOPLE of the country you serve. 

The President can't be Against people of other Races. He has to represent them and uphold their rights and freedoms. 

The President can't be Against Women. He has to represent them and uphold their rights and freedoms. 

The President can't be Against people of other Religions. He has to represent them and uphold their rights and freedoms. 

The President can't be Against people of other Orientations and Sexual Identities. He has to represent them and uphold their rights and freedoms. 

The President can't be Against people of other financial standings -especially the Poor. He has to represent them and uphold their rights and freedoms. 

In conclusion: Ben Carson is NOT a president and never could be because he does not seem to respect of care for the people he would be seeking to represent. You can't just represent the people you like in a country. 

KINGS tried that. Kings paid favor to only the wealthy in power and you know what happened? The STARVING POOR rebelled and went away to start a new nation founded on principles assuring their Civil Liberties would be upheld by their chosen leader. 

Saturday, October 24, 2015

Cyber Violence Towards Women

My friend Addi posted this on Facebook in response to the woman who collected 10 years of violent threats and messages from many many men:

When I was in Tokyo, I had a blog to keep my family up to date on my life. Halfway through the year, an anonymous user started commenting frequently, starting with things like smiley emojis, to passive-aggressive messages, and after a while it escalated to full-blown, terrifying remarks with language I dare not repeat here. Every time I blacklisted their username or their IP address, they came back, and their comments became more and more violent.
A year later, after coming back to the states and my blog quieted, by bizarre coincidence a friend had stumbled upon a blog that was solely dedicated to hating me. There was just a single post, with a photo that was likely taken from my blog, and a ton of really awful things said about me. I cried a lot, then reported the blog, and it was taken down. To this day, I don't know who that commenter was or the blog owner, but I imagine they are the same person based on the language they used. I'm also positive they are the same person who began stalking me when I worked at Eastridge (side note: Eastridge Security has the nicest people).
My point is, the Internet is a scary place, but it's an especially scary place for women. If a woman in your life tells you about something that is frightening her, do not gaslight her and tell her "it's probably not that bad" and "they're just trolls". Every woman who has an internet presence has experienced messages like the ones this woman has collected, and having an internet presence does NOT equal consent to receive such vile comments.

Commenter on Addi's Post: The Internet: where "no thank you" can escalate to "I will rape and kill your whole family" in under a minute.
This is why we can't have nice things.

Sunday, October 18, 2015

Deodorant Issues

So I just found out the other day that #1 The main ingredient in 

deodorant is ALUMINUM??? WHYSSSSSSS? Did not notice that 

before. Noticed it now because #2 it leads to Breast Cancer???!!! 

WHYSSSSS! I hate products. I just hate them. Because then I 

went to get some NON-Cancer causing deodorant that was 

Aluminum-free and guess what -NO LUCK. WHYYYYSSSSS?!!!

It just frustrates me that #1 a company could make a product with 

aluminum in it that people put on their skin and not think, "Gee 

maybe this might have negative health effects on consumers" and 

#2 As a consumer YOU have to be the one to keep an eye out for 

products slowly trying to kill you.

You know what frustrates me most. I said NO McDonald's french 

fries yesterday. I realized as an intelligent, well-informed human

that McDonald's fries will lead to cancer if I eat too many too often.

And even though it was only going to be that one time that I eat the

fries, I still thought, "No. It isn't healthy and is bad enough to cause

cancer in the first place." Then I find out my deodorant is trying to

kill me. WHYYYYYYYY! Why can I not get a break. 

If the french fries don't get you the deodorant will. 

A Queer Day

I watched Rocky Horror Picture Show for the first time yesterday. I had multiple opportunities to see it before, and I understood it was a "cult hit", but was never really int he mood for it. I always figured it just "wasn't time" yet. 

God works in interesting ways. And I think He aligned various events to converge as He often does. So shortly after watching the film, a friend of mine posted this article on his Facebook and said, "Leave it to humans to make life complicated":

The article is about various sexual identities other than Straight, Gay, and Bisexual. Other people then commented on his post saying that it was all made up bullsh*t and a waste of time. I was the only one to comment to the contrary:

I know it's not a popular opinion, but I like this new found attempt

to understand different identities because it opens people's eyes to

the fact that we don't all love/find attraction in the same way -not

just based on female/male gender but the way attraction itself 

works and the many forms it can take.

And so in the full interest in transparency I will attempt to explain my "sexual identity" and what I learned form watching Rocky Horror. 

Firstly let me say I acknowledge Tim Curry is in touch with a very dark-side understanding of well... darkness. He's played the evil clown in IT. He played Satan in Legend. And in this movie he plays someone who is hyper-sexual and in some instances violent. 

The movie was made during a time when transvestites were first openly being acknowledged and were openly feared. So the movie was kind of poking fun at "clean, white bread" people who act pure and innocent being just as stereotyped into that lie as people who are transvestite. Since trans people were being treated as monsters, Dr. Frank (Tim Curry) was essentially a take on Victor Frankenstein. There was also some reference to being space aliens. 

Basically the film argued, what people fear as homosexuals and transexuals "being different" is really just a fear of sexuality itself -which people ultimately don't fear, but instead secretly desire. They can thus be "converted" into "monsters" themselves. 

Anyways, sub-plot to the side, the thing that got me most was how impressed I was with Tim Curry's CONFIDENCE. He never coward, or flinched, or gave any kind of notion that he did not "own" his entire existence. The main "couple" in the movie was riddled with insecurity, but Tim was constant in confidence until the end when you find out that all he really wants is LOVE and to not be so alone in the world. 

As for my "identity" I'd first have to lay the groundwork for a few other identites first.

1. Sex = What you were physically born as -Male or Female

2. Gender = How you identity your self as a sex Internally and with intentions of it being mirrored Externally -Meaning someone could be born as a Boy but identify as a Girl. 

3. Heterosexuality = Attracted to someone Physically of the opposite sex

4. Homosexuality = Being attracted to someone Physically of the same sex

5. Bisexuality = Being attracted to someone Physically of Either sex

6. Pansexual = Being attracted to someone Emotionally/Physically of ANY Sex or Gender

So really what you have are 2 MAIN identities that need to be distinguished. What is your GENDER identity and what is your ATTRACTION identity. 

My Gender Identity is: I was born female, but am not very Feminine. I don't carry that much about my physical appearance in general. I don't usually wear dresses, I hate high heels, and the color pink can go screw itself. I have stronger leanings towards Masculinity -but mostly in Thought Process. I don't dress like a guy, I'm not a "macho man", I hate male ego, but I identify more "masculine" than feminine in personality. I'm more or less balanced, with masculine leanings in terms of Gender. 

My Attraction Identity is a little more complicated: 

I acknowledge that I am attracted to some men physically and some women physically -but not ALL. I'm usually attracted to Personality, Empathy, Spirituality, and Honesty -which are present in Both genders and sexes. 

I do not desire to have sex with a man. I actually find the concept kind of a turn off. If I was to have sex I would rather it be with a woman. But I do NOT desire sex in general and never really have. Society seems to want me to lust more than I actually do. Just not that interested. 

I would rather be married to a single person for 30 years with no sex at all. That would be a great relationship for me. 

As far as "types" go: 

I am not attracted to people who are "high maintenance" and overtly sexual. I am not attracted to Channing Tatum, Ashton Kutcher, Megan Fox, Kim Kardashian... I am actually UNNATRACTED to these people. 

Keira Knightley, Jennifer Aniston, Milo Ventimiglia, Jonathan Scott... More empathetic, mindful, caring people. 

I do acknowledge physicality and Physical Attributes to account for some amount of attraction. But nothing KILLS attraction for me like EGO, conceit, vanity, arrogance, disdain, and bigotry. Beliefs and attitudes towards others as well as spiritual presence resonate more with me when it comes to romantic attraction. 

So what does this make me? I'm sort of Bi-Sexual but also sort of A-sexual. I acknowledge I can lust, but have No interest in it and even less interest on acting on it with another. I want long-term committed relationship of meaning and quality and I don't honestly care if it's with a man or a woman. 

For people who are simply straight, life is uncomplicated. But for those who's life isn't as cut and paste, it is important to acknowledge Who you are and What you want in a relationship -if you want one at all. And unfortunately the only "identities" being represented right now are Hetero, Homo, Bi, and quite recently Trans. But there is an entire SPECTUM here. 

It's like ignoring the existence of a rainbow in preference of only the colors you "like". I only acknowledge Blue, Purple, Green, and Red. You say "Orange exists" and I say "I don't care because I don't need orange or want orange". These identities aren't being mentioned because they serve you in particular, they are being mentioned because they EXIST. 

The best comparison I can make is an overt one. Since these identities are internal, let's compare to one that's external because the fact is this phenomenon of ignoring identities exists within Race as well. 

Black people exist. White people exist. Sometimes White/Black mixed people exist. And that's it. 

Except that it ISN'T. Sometimes White/Black/Hispanic people exist. A Tri-Race person can exist. 3 equally prevalent ethnic identities. These people are a Minority within a Minority. Because the minority itself is generally ignored, those within a sub-minority are even more INVISIBLE. And they EXIST. 

The bottom line is that it matters to see the INVISIBLE. It matters to see the full SPECTRUM. To acknowledge all the Truth there is within our lives and the lives of those around us. 

Saturday, October 17, 2015

Hey Skinny Girl

My sister posted this on Facebook: 

"Hey, skinny girl." I look up. Of course they're talking to me. I 

wear baggy clothes but people can still tell I'm 30 lbs underweight. 

Oh no, please do come over and flirt at me. I'm not intimidated by 3

 guys surrounding me by my car and invading my personal bubble 

at all. In fact, let me date all of you, one each day or maybe all at 

once to save time? I'm a terribly efficient person. Ah, yes, my cane.

 To you it says,"weak person" to me it says,"weapon of choice as 

my limbs are perfectly healthy and I've got a lot of pent up 

aggression. So go ahead and try something. Make My Day" But 

fine, leave. Walk away. Nice chat, I guess.

I responded: Pepper spray + a cane = DEATH. Stay armed.

She responded: I don't always beat creeps to a pulp, but when I do 

use Pepper spray and a cane. Stay dangerous my friends.

Strange Encounter

Nina my new friend and her new friend Adam wanted to go the mall on a Friday. Great idea, the mall is undoubtedly crowded and I'm trying to save money not spend it. But I decide to go along anyway just to hangout and because I've been cooped inside all day. 

Nina and Adam are "young". Technically they're both 18 which explains why, but then again age does not speak anything to experience. 

Nina is sort of spiritual in that she's had spiritual experiences, but other than that she's naive when it comes to spirituality and expert when it comes to practicality. Adam is just young, fun, and full of energy. I almost accidentally spelled "fool of energy", which is an interesting slip up... 

We made it to the mall, one we'd been to before about 4 times in spite of only being in Colorado about a month. Adam was in the back seat, I was co-piloting the front, and Nina was driving. As we were driving along I suddenly felt/heard myself saying in my head, "I call on Michael. My he give peace and protection to us on this journey." It's kind of random that without thinking my mind would take that kind of action on its own. But I figured since the angel Michael is who I turn to most for protection, there might be some bigger reason I was calling without planning on it, so then I consciously called to him and asked him to protect all 3 of us. 

When we were trying to find a parking spot, Adam kept looking at people passing by and started saying "Ball sack!" really loud inside the car -which made Nina laugh. He was just being random and amusing. But then as a young guy in a white tank top and white shorts started to walk past, Adam took it a step further and rolled down the window yelling, "BALL SACK!!!" really fast as we drove past the guy. 

The guy immediately turned around and yelled, "What the f*ck did you just say to me?!!!" 

Adam turned to Nina and yelled, "Drive drive drive!" 

Nina sped off. Then she called Adam stupid for pissing the guy off. As Nina went to turn down another row of cars she saw the guy walking down the aisle towards her. Not wanting a possible confrontation, she then went down the next aisle. 

She found a spot and went to park the car, but then saw the guy sitting in front of the mall entrance on his phone. (I suspect he was calling for backup because he was PISSED). Nina said, "Great now we can't go in the mall because he'll beat us up." 

Adam said, "Hey let's just drive past the guy, I'll roll down my window and apologize." I told Adam, "He probably won't care. He's realllly angry. I doubt an apology will do anything." 

But Nina backed up and made her way towards the front of the mall. Adam rolled his window down and cowardly said, "Hey man I was just playing, no hate!" The guy then stood up like he was going to head towards the car and started to say something but the Nina bolted. She said, "Yah he still seems kind of pissed..." 

Nina then attempted to park on the other side of the mall. When we got out of the car, we looked around and suddenly saw the guy on a skateboard going up and down each car aisle looking for us. Nina and Adam decided to hide behind a nearby car. I officially got tired of the situation and walked away from both of them and towards the mall entrance. I figured I would be safer inside the building around people then outside hiding behind cars. 

Made my way in and watched out the window thinking Nina and Adam would come in after me. 5 minutes later I saw them drive past. I immediately started trying to text them. We agreed to meet in front of the original mall entrance and I would quickly hop in so we could drive off. 

We decided from there to go to another mall. Adam kept saying that the guy was a "troubled child" and that if it had come to blows Adam would have kicked his ass. 

I was just thankful Michael had guided me because I did feel protected in that situation in spite of the circumstances. I think he helped out. 

The second mall we went to was a new one. We ended up going into a spiritual store called "Earthbound". As I was admiring the Buddhist and Christian motifs and figures, Nina and Adam called to me from the other side of the store. They were checking out Hookas and wanted to get one. 

This is kind of my point. It's really sad/annoying that you can hold such a reverence and appreciation for a spiritual store like that and then other people just come in and say, "Hey take a picture of me in this cool tribal mask so I can post it on Facebook." Which also happened in the store. 

The sacred and the divine are all around us. The more we open our minds to these things, the more our soul will pick up on them as well. 

Tuesday, October 6, 2015

Thoughts on Gun Violence

I asked God and the Holy Spirit for greater understanding and clarity with regards to mass shootings since they have increased in number, but our ability to prevent them remains unchanged. 

Several Main Points then became clear: 

1. You don't have to take guns away from people to make guns safer. BACKGROUND CHECKS should be mandatory and thorough. Most of the mass shooters given guns wouldn't have been if their past history of violence and/or mental illness had been noted before guns were sold. 

More importantly, it should be established that if a person at some point during the ownership of their gun then is then charged with acts of violence (especially domestic violence) and/or mental illness their license should be revoked and their guns taken away.  

It's not a guarantee that ALL mass shooters will be weeded out this way, but the majority would. You can't kill people in mass with just a knife. And bombs are complicated and faulty -meaning most shooters would rather rely on the convenience of a gun instead. I'd rather make them go out of their way to attempt a gun illegally -which they may not succeed in doing -than guarantee them a gun legally. 

2. Mass Shooters are TERRORISTS

When you approach the issue of a mass shooter, you are not dealing with a typical person. Sometimes the person is NOT mentally ill, but instead is acting on a violent belief system. You can argue psychological issues, but not mental illness. It's not like they're schizophrenic or hearing voices in every case. 

Most people think terrorists are Foreign and are acting on Religion. These are Domestic Terrorists with varying agendas, targets, and rationalities. They need to be acknowledged as such. The approach you then take towards them is completely different.

3. Domestic Terrorism -although horrific -is in the minority of gun-related acts of violence in this country. 

The majority of Gun abuses are for SUICIDE. The second being Domestic Violence/ Homicide. 

We can focus only on MASS Shootings because they are public and many people die all at once. Or we can focus on the larger scale of deaths by suicide and the all TOO frequent condition of: 

A Husband shot his wife, his children, and then himself -which occurs WEEKLY in the USA. 

There's a broader picture of issues that need to be viewed here. 

4. The VAST majority of gun violence is by MEN. 

Women make up 50% of the population. And yet in 62 cases of mass shooters, only 1 was a woman. From an unbiased, alien's looking down on earth at the species known as human -perspective: It is VERY strange that only 1 gender of the 2 gender is committing 95% of the violent crimes affiliated with guns. 

The underlying issue of GENDER and why men seem more prone to violence than woman should be studied and a solution should be sought. 

Personally I think it's because girls are kept on a tighter leash than boys in society in general. "Don't do that..." Girls are taught, especially by male authority, to behave in certain ways they are then more prone to obey. Boys on the other hand aren't as "reigned in" and impressed upon in a young age as girls. Also men's relations with other men suck. They don't talk openly about things and when they do they're called "gay" and punched in the arm.

5. What is being asked and expected of society now that mass shootings are happening so frequently?

The social and educational implications of mass shooters is now effecting the way schools function and children are "trained". Time is being taken out of teaching to lead kindergarten to high school kids through gun-evasive routines. What will the ripple effect of teaching kids to hide from gunman under desks be on the confidence children then have towards the world and themselves. "Cower. You will be shot if you do not hide."

1/11/2016: Update on Present Stance with Regard to Gun Rights:

Basically I compare gun ownership to the legalization of alcohol. Both have the potential to be harmful, but neither are harmful outright. It is only when they are abused that lives get destroyed. However unlike Alcoholism which can lead to the often slow destruction and demise of a human life, gun abuse is far more swift and fatal. 

But ultimately, just as illegalizing alcohol during the prohibition failed miserably because people rose up against it, any attempt to make guns illegal will end in a similar failure. Unless the majority of people in this country consent to guns being banned, they will never fully be taken away. I think in time God will find a way to alleviate the issues surrounding gun violence and lead people to let go of their attachment to guns.

Refugee Crisis

What’s that? A group of traumatized people are seeking refuge from the horrific religious/governmental abuses of their land they have NO control over by going to a land of religious tolerance. Who does that sound like America/ Europe? At least their not raping, shooting, and enslaving the native population when they arrive.

Personally I think the refugee crisis in Europe is a historical opportunity for Europe to right past wrongs and make peace with grievances made against God and innocent people.

We’ll see how they end up interpreting things and acting…

Especially since the majority of these refugees are children.

Monday, October 5, 2015

Religious Cycles of Pain and Peace

It seems most of religions -especially the largest ones -go through this cycle. Ultimately All arrive at Peace. 

When Judaism first began its followers were greatly persecuted. At one point its majority was enslaved.

Then as time when on Judaism gained followers and power. It established vast institutions. 

Then Christianity began in its humble state as Judaism had. Christians were then persecuted -mostly by Jews for a good period of time. 

Then as time went on Christianity gained followers and power. It established vast institutions. 

Then Islam began in its humble state as Christianity had. Muslims were then persecuted by Christians. 

And so it went with one group taking turn at destroying the other. And within ALL 3 religions were then mass killings, slayings, rapes, murders, enslavement, torture, burning... of their own Followers. 

At one point in Europe when Christianity had its strong hold, Jews were actually segregated and treated as an "other" people. When Hitler rose to power he acted upon this founded hatred and brought it to fruition. Hitler, Mussolini, and Stalin were all raised Catholic, but were at best Agnostic and resented that religion. Either way, Christianity had NEGATIVELY influenced their actions by breading their hatreds in society and their own minds in the first place. 

Then the abuses of the Catholic Church raping children came to light only a couple of decades ago. Still the church would do nothing, until recent years -even avoiding the subject in open acknowledgement and Hiding pedophiles from the public. 

But after the Holocaust something happened: Christianity STOPPED hating on Jews. At least for the most part. The error of their ways was learned from the blood of children stained on the hands of that religion. 

I'm not entirely certain what Judaism's historical turn was when they too Stopped harming Christians as they had before during its early years, but Peace now reigns between these religions. 

And so it is Islams turn. As they have persecuted and destroyed the lives of their own Followers, so do they also seek to now destroy the lives of other religions -Christianity in particular. 

And History and GOD has shown: Peace is the way. They WILL find their way to peace and make peace with those around them. As it took Christians and Jews centuries to do, pray it takes them far less time. As Christians once persecuted so now will they be persecuted by this sick cycle religion tends to follow. 

And when the blood of children is on the hands of ALL religions may NO person on this earth seek to judge or condemn any other religion for doing as it will. We are not fit to judge, we are not made to judge. We are made for peace and compassion. One day ALL humans will learn this. 

Satanism follows suite as well. There have been Satanists in centuries past that killed children and Christians. But then there have also been Christians that have killed non-Satanists claimed as Satanists in the name of religion. So the blood of the innocent is on both hands of these 2 religions as well. 

I'm not as certain of the Eastern Religions. I know that Hinduism started humbly enough, but then abused its own people with the Caste System. And Buddhism started humbly as well, but there have been monks who have burned innocent people alive. 

To date, I have not heard of any 1 religion that has not been used as an excuse to abuse and/or kill human beings. 

Religions should always be exercised with caution as you would fire. They can be used to give light and warmth, but can also be used to destroy and burn. 

God never justifies Killing or Abuse. God Loves an Cares for humanity -His creations. ALL will come to know this peace in the end. 

Saturday, October 3, 2015

Funny Twitter Convo

My friend LOVES Iron Man...

Me: The power of Iron Man in your hands...

Alex: You're telling me my knitted gloves aren't good enough?

Me: Those are pretty special. It'd be awesome if they were red and gold. ;)

Alex: Hehe yeah, I guess the person I bought them from were doing the War Machine gloves

Me: Here u go...


Me: Now you know what to ask for for Christmas :)

Alex: Doe can I get some knitted Iron Man gloves for Christmas?

Me: I'll put in a good word with the elves.

Alex: Dang you got connections

Me: You eat enough Keebler cookies and Rice Krispies you make an impression on some people...

Alex: You know I never knew those were elves!!! Whaaaaaat...too bad their creation only tasted good 
with a heap of sugar...

Me: It tasted fine on its own. Although sugar + Cheerios = Amazing.

Alex: Honey nut cheerios was like kids crack! (Horrible analogy but,hey) So addicting!

Me: I liked Lucky Charms. But the leprechaun never gave me a cent of his pot of gold. Jerk...

Alex: So you got connections to the elves but not to leprechauns? O.o What gives? Explanation please.

Me: Leprechauns are hoarders. Elves are employed to give to others, but leprechauns only live for themselves and their gold.

Alex: Ah so you've no desire to get to know leprechauns I see. That explains it all.

Me: It's a 2 way street. They avoid people. They're paranoid people will take all their gold. It's kind of like brefriending Smaug. Only less perilous.

Alex: Your Smaug/Leprechaun comparison is stimulating my brain!!!! Well at least that leprechaun liberally distributes cereal.

Me: Yes he doesn't skimp on the Hearts, Stars, Horeshoes, Clovers, and Balloons...

Alex: Please tell me you looked that up and didn't have that memorized from youth

Me: It was a catchy tune...

Alex: lol stay cute Doe!

Me: I try :)