Frustration with the Stagnant

 I follow numerous intuitives online and listen to those I'm drawn to and take from what readings they give for the ones that resonate with me. One said recently, "You're frustrated a lot these days, but you're meant to be. You'll learn something from this frustration and it's part of your journey. Don't worry it won't last forever". 

I have times of being frustrated. It's hard to tell why. The main reason is usually things from the past repeating that I thought my life had grew out of. Everything repeats and is cyclical. 

Other times I think it's because things get stagnant and nothing changes or goes anywhere and I want to escape to somewhere else. 

Then the other day while waiting in a sea of no change for some big change, our company got extended a HUGE loan of money. They immediately put it towards equipment for things needed next year. And a longggg list of improvements I've wanted for the company but we could never afford suddenly all got taken care of in a week's time. And although I was infinitely happy this was finally being accomplished all at once on multiple fronts, I realized, "Hey... wasn't I supposed to have something like that happen to me in my life?" 

And I remembered I dedicate most of my energy into my work: Into a company and a cause, the bigger picture of the lives of people, a surrounding mountain community, and the mountain space in general being contributed to. Something great is still coming my way, but the fastest and most immediate area hit was in the place I work. 

So I guess frustration is teaching its patience. 

There was also another mass shooting today. Not too surprising for the U.S., there've been 2 in the last 2 weeks. But as I looked around the room, I was grateful to be held in a box. The cage I'm impatient to break out of is also protection. 

God's timing is best. 

The Present Moment

Huge shifts are occurring now -but still not physically. I realized I kept thinking something surprising and BIG would happen on the physical front. I was confused when nothing did. Then I realized, the "physical" front is being dissolved, everything is spiritual now. Everyday it feels more like I'm waking up IN a dream. Sometimes a darker illusion that I'm slow moving in and other and places it feels more like Heaven. 

And then there are places I am FULLY awake in and everything is crystal clear, there is no vail, and everything is as it is. 

But I disassociate fairly frequently still. Sometimes I consciously want to. I realized I disassociate for 2 reasons: 

1) Because after abuse/trauma/spiritual wounding you retreat from the world in that way instinctually and it becomes a default and a shell you're then led to break out of 

2) Because it's nice to say "screw this" to the boredom and the pain and numb yourself to being present in it 

But I'm becoming more conscious now. Basically I told Heaven to wake me up when the world got around to finally concerning itself with pedophilia and human trafficking. Until the world became conscious of it and decided to care about it, finally registering it, no change would occur. It would only be an ongoing wound to hear about with nothing done about. 

And here we are. After the dominos have continued to fall, we're entering into the final stage of rape and sexual violence against women being heard -now including incest and family abuses -and with that will come Women fully acknowledging the issue with no excuses given and a good portion of men seeing that and following suite. Then when enough men and women are on the same page, men and women can look into child sexual abuse issues and human trafficking. 

Alongside that, the economic imbalances will continue to be looked at. 

I actually had a recent epiphany with that one. If I owned a home, 90% of whatever I made at a job wouldn't go to rent. I could afford to work less -as could anyone. Most of what we're working towards is shelter. If everyone had that, work wouldn't be as needed. People could work less, potentially get paid more, and have more freedom. 

More money isn't what we need. We need housing. 

And then from there we need medical, legal, and water/food-related industries that are necessity to stop being for-profit. 

Other things going on in the world...

Evil is up to some interesting things. 

The secrets of Hollywood are coming to light. 

I saw Squid Game for the first time yesterday and when it got to the VIPs I said, "Let me guess they'll be some reference to "snakes" or snake people and/or some reference to animal print or animal/people." 

We got ALL of that. And some wealthy, obscene white men that were sexually abusive as well. The veil is thin my friends... 

The greatest mystery of Hollywood's influence is to what extent actors and musicians know they're under Hollywood's influence... I saw R. Kelly named as a person of interest in the Maxwell trafficking trial. Obviously some are less of a mystery than others. 

Then there are other Evils going on I could only allude to. Somedays I feel more indifferent knowing light/neutrality will ultimately overcome and other days I genuinely feel fear and concern. 

I think slipping dimensions/planes/realities being more at play now and having multiple reasons why it might happen is interesting/frightening.  

But today I'm hopeful. 

I feel more and more that there are layers to living. This present moment, the past, the future, different dimensions, oblivion bled into beyond it all -occurring simultaneously. But the past/darkness is being moved on from, or rather the light side of life is being shown now that darkness has been known. We only have good to look forward to and then nothing/harmony/balance/oblivion. 

The Now -Dominoes Continue

 I was mostly certain of the falling of dominoes and the order and have listed several times in serval blogs -including the reasons behind them. 

We are currently in Black Women being heard in particular and Women in general re-iterating and affirming what abuse has consisted of at the hands of patriarchal systems and the call for an End to it. 

Overlapping with this is a continuation of Indigenous voices, but in addition there is a now greater emphasis on Native Women & Children going "missing". 

Denouncing capitalism and economic abuses mixed with corporate greed is still ongoing. 

What I thought would follow was finally veering into Child Abuse and Trafficking, especially since abuses against women of color and indigenous women combine with trafficking & poverty. 

That hasn't happened yet. It's still a whisper. 

Instead family abuses are coming to light more and people are also looking into mental health as it pertains to being neuro-divergent and having autism/ADHD. 

Currently the evils of Hollywood are coming to light more -particularly satanic influence and cult power. You can say it's a conspiracy with the Illuminati, but at this point, it's just reality. There is dark and overt influence behind the scenes and most in the business are aware of it. The general population just hasn't been. 

On the spiritual front: 

The divides between Atheist v. Christian and Dark Occultist v. Love & Light has subsided. People just kind of see where people are at and with what. 

Christianity as an institutional cult following of Jesus is still being denounced in general -and will for a long time given the level of destruction it's caused and in what ways -particularly Catholicism. But the passion behind denouncing it has gotten old and is already well known to most. 

"Beliefs" are falling to the waste side. 

They're too hard to explain for people not in the loop. 

There's too much loop to be in on entirely by anyone. 

If you know, then you know and as far as what there is to know... it's Complicated. 

So for now, we exist and yet we don't -like a Hologram. 

And we abide in what we abide in, though we "aren't". 

We're in a Matrix. 

We're in God's Dream. 

We're Made Up. 

And yet we can influence "Reality". 

So we Exist. 

And yet we Exist as an illusion because of we are a piece pure Perception that mistakenly thinks of "itself". 

And everyone around us is Us and we are within everyone. 

So yah... 

The Future -The Flood

I haven't written much in a while and for a lot of great reasons. For the record, going back through my older blogs, between the font being inconsistent and my thoughts being scattered I wish I could redo and revamp the whole thing but I'm pretty sure it would be in vain. 

I've been going through "ascension systems". You climb the mountain by 3 feet, fall back two, climb up 5, fall back three... You see the peak of where you're at but still get drug back by what darkness hasn't been cleared out. It's painful and draining. The shadow is heavy. 

But the future is why I'm here today. There will be a flood. My guess off-hand is many years from now, maybe even a decade. 

In 2019 I wrote a blog stating very matter-of-factly that there was a great problem heading our way. http://lookingbacktowardthefuture.blogspot.com/2019/10/spiritual-updates.html

I listed out the possibilities which included horrible weather, economic collapse, and a new disease. Under the issue of "plague" I had written of a very vivid dream I had where everyone suddenly got sick around me and I suddenly got wings and was somehow immune. 

In the blog I had also written of severed winter weather -which I'm pretty sure is actually going to hit this winter 2021 in Colorado where I live. I also mentioned a flood being possible. 

The flood issue is why I'm writing -having gotten greater clarity with it. Where we've been navigated and diverted from other disasters, including nuclear war in the past, with the aid of our friends from above -now they've accepted this fate for us. We won't be veered from it. 

Most of the West coast will be gone. Some of the East coast will fall under as well. 

My concern for my own future is Colorado -which will be interesting. 

I've written in the past about not going further into the Rocky Mountains past Georgetown and having it made spiritually clear that there is danger that way, the map of future flooding I've seen does seem to cover that region of the mountains.

Which brings me to the spiritual layout of Colorado:

The way this state lays out -Left Half covered (and in the case of flood, protected from western coastline flooding) by Rocky Mountains. The Right half, flat land and prarie planes. Half and Half a Yin/Yang scenario. If you look closely you can also see that the way the roads layout is like a Cross. The Cross is laid over the State. 

This place is spiritually compelling -you have spiritual healers/New Agers, devout Christians, the influence of Celestial Begins/UFOs that are synonymous, the Denver International Airport which heads major Airflight travel and is also heavily protected by Celestials. You also have regions that had "Grecian God" influence with massive mansions sloped on mountainsides. But all co-existing in harmony, especially now. 

There was also the Ute and Native People's spiritual influence. My guess, and more than guess, is some lands are in fact cursed. If you told me the Native People cursed the lands west of the Rocky Mountains to white colonizers I'd say, "Yah." But the Native influence in the mountains is also marked by places that are still watched over and looked after. 

There's also the fact the land is affiliated with Healing. Manny came to be treated for their tuberculosis -the main purpose of Stanley Hotel originally being built. Clear air, mountains and nature, and then space. 

The only anomaly I see that's confusing spiritually is whenever I come down from the mountains and see the statue of Jesus from the Mother Cabrini Shrine (which from a distance looks like Mary and I refer to as Mary because that's what it is intended to be). The statue genuinely looks like a lighthouse overlooking the sea. And the view over the distant cityscape appears with a blue hue like an ocean. And it makes me wonder whether that's there because in ancient times Denver was under the ocean and it was all sea and then beachland, or whether it's because it may get hit harder than expected by a future flood. 

Either way, Colorado is a paradox: It will get hit and be wounded, but simultaneously remain free and unharmed. 

Right now I'm being led to hunker down. It is understood that here is where I'm most protected and by the most diverse collective of beings that are benevolent and that I align with.