No Crowds -Clearing Out

 Finally figured out what's going on a little bit more. Since November the energy around has "died". It feels like that energy is just falling through below the ground. Typically this means things are being cleared out so Heaven can be poured in. But it's now hit in places where Heaven was strongly founded. I'm not sure, but Heaven might be being cleared out there, leaving a place of neutrality. But it still feels just like "clearing" so, maybe not. 

I did figure out why Thanksgiving and Christmas feel so hollow and devoid though. The Zodiac influence is being cleared out. The planetary and spiritual energy that comes through each month is being cleared/ended as of November. It's just gone. Normally the start of December is a burst of energy, taking projects on, warmth, and leading with heart. Nope. I imagine it will be the same at the beginning of Capricorn season at the end of December. No energy. You can't connect to or draw from the energy around -it's all just falling through, devoid, and clearing out. 

On the plus side this also means Zodiac influences will fall out too. No more vices or virtues or impulses. More consistency in the beings of people. 

On top of that past life and future life influences are bleeding into a single ONE person now. Since everything is becoming purely spiritual, like being in a dream, time will end and cease as a concept. With that everything that was will become everything that is and the same with everything that would be. 

If you've made peace with your past and past lives, this should be great because you'd be held back by nothing. the past was pain and is now healed and the future is great and endless possibility. It will be interesting to see how people evolve from this. 

To aid in this process and the fact that people can still bleed into the influences of other people -we basically overlap with one another like semi-transparent holograms- crowds are being diminished so there's less external influence for people to spiritually content with. Things may shutdown, places may be closed, of, travel will decrease, and large gatherings of people will be fewer at this time. 

Forgotten Epiphany

I had a lightbulb go off the other night before bed and immediately thought, "I should blog this" but then forgot by the next morning. 

I did want to mention I'm disassociating less, connecting more, and having the greatest "elderly mind moments" where I forget within minutes of something negative happening. Something bad will happen, I'll feel angry and frustrated and then I'll forget what it was over and then I'll get of the emotions associated. Like a child throwing a tantrum and not letting go of something they're clinging to only to get distracted and drop the item. This is why I entrust my soul to divine guidance. 

In other news, I'm being led to be less materialistic. This season -even Thanksgiving -feels nothing like the holidays. Christmas doesn't feel like Christmas -it's just dead, vacant, and empty. There's a hollowness. So instead of feeling particularly giving and spiritual I just kind of wanted to get the gift-giving over with. I mailed the packages and finished the shipments within the first week of December. Done. 

And I feel nothing. I felt generous giving things I genuinely thought people would like, but from there it's all apathy. And things/items/objects in general are just surroundings. 

I still want things, like a new house and car in particular, but it's more like I want an upgrade in life and more space and less issues rather than things. 

I also had a day of complaint. One full day of listing off everything in life I'm sick and tired of, which I new was crying from the wound to have it healed. The next day I felt relieved and lifted like all of that was being taken care of. 

In other news,

Being dissatisfied with the state of people is pointless. When evil reigned, people were evil. When the soil is contaminated the plant is contaminated. When Heaven reigns people will be lighter. All will follow suite without trying or having to be taught anything. It'll just happen. So there is a knowing that eventually everyone will have knowing. No more painful ignorance. No more tolerating the intolerable from people's ideologies. Things just flow and no one needs to be told how. 

In other news, creativity is flourishing. It pours from me. I can't stop it and it's most of what I end up doing at work now. I keep getting graphic design projects and contributing to wall art and photos. Most of the time doing creative things is just a small part of my job, but lately it's taken over like my creativity has in general. 

I heard a whisper of the word interior designer or art designer. But I thought, "Nahhhhh... I'm not sure about that. I don't just want to decorate surroundings all my life, I'm too spiritual." But then again it's what I do on the spiritual front. I'm far more concerned with improving the surrounding environment, community, area behind the scenes spiritually than anything else. I'm an interior designer spiritually. 

I redesign my interior landscape as well as that of others. 

It'll be interesting to see how things pan out and where things lead. 

In other news, 

The evils of Hollywood keep coming. Netflix is coming to light right now given its affiliation with Zuckerberg and the Metaverse. Interesting... 

And I watched a teen vampire drama show out of boredom the other day and remembered when I had first watched it the depressing and dark energy affiliated, but from a place of greater indifference watched again but still felt it. It's actually pretty incredible because I tried dissecting it and figuring out where it came from. 

The filter of the show is darker physically when you watch it. Not exactly bright pastel colors. The content of the show is dark -teen drama mixed with vampires murdering people. But none of that is the energy emanated. There is something else. As you watch it the energy just comes through. It's heavy, dark and what I would call mal-intended, evil, demonicish. I'm not sure how they do it. 

And yet if I watch something similar in theme and design it isn't the same energy coming through. Not sure what Netflix is up to on that one. 

In the grand sphere and scope of this, there is what I call "Disney" influence and what I call "Universal Studios" influence. Both are awesome in terms of the movies they've created, but one is clearly darker in nature than the other with what gets produced. And so it is with Disney+ and Netflix. 

Disney is dark behind the scenes and the former VP likely had affiliations with Epstein, but with what they make and put out there, it's light. 

Netflix is just dark. It's docuseries on serial killers, dramas, and shows like Hannibal. At the same time, the darkness isn't inherently bad depending on how you watch it and for what reasons. Same with Universal Studios. 

And so you have balance. You go to Disneyland and ride on Avatar/Pandora or you go to Universal and it's Harry Potter. You don't have to choose, they reflect one another -just in the opposite way. But you do have to keep an eye out: 

Where is there evil in something that presents itself as dark to begin with. 

Where is the evil in something that only presents itself as good. 

You have to look out for Chucky the Doll and Mickey Mouse. 

Weather Alert

 Last year when I wrote the list of likely issues that would come in 2020, including debating things like disease spreading and economic collapse, then one that registered most strongly that I'd had the most dreams about was weird weather phenomenon. Now it's definitely coming up a lot and is something that's definitely coming. 

There is a blizzard in Hawaii right now. A blizzard. Meanwhile Colorado ski reason is bone dry. It's only snowed twice here and it feel like autumn has been extended 3 months. 

But beyond polarized weather conditions that can possibly be written off as climate change related, there's what's happening in La Palma. The gridwork of earthquakes and the volcanic activity are eye opening. 

Whether what's happening is being directly orchestrated by negative influences -which is highly likely at this point -or it's just the result of mankind's abuse and negligence towards nature; I think it's safe to say things will get very interesting very quickly here. 

And as for why ultimately it's because things are being transmuted and closed out. In order for darkness to end it has to be brought to light and then denounced. 

As I've stated before there were 3 main beings responsible for the oversight of Hell and its influence. (Possibly a 4th behind ALL of it, but definitely the 3). The 3 had conflicting goals that clashed with one another, making them distinct from one another. 

1) Death. Mass death, usually through war and plague. No torture or prolonged suffering, but massive amounts of life being taken at once to achieve power and dominance. This reached its end with World War 1&2. Inspite of North Korea, there has not been and will not be a WW3. We've evaded it. The last war of that size -involving the World -ended.

2) Violence & Sadism. Prolonged anguish and torture, enslavement, manipulation, and pain. This is most vastly represented in Human Trafficking -something we are globally just starting to recognize and refute at that scale. It's also more subtly present in poverty -something else being brought to question. 

3) Natural Disasters. The indifferent death brought about through storms and eruptions. This is the one I thought we were past because of the years between 2010 to 2015 when we had every kind of disaster ranging across the globe on an almost daily basis. Apparently that wasn't it. 

We will see it soon. It will be strange and well marked as something dark and out of the ordinary. But then that will be the end of that. 

12/01/2021: Heaven Has Landed

This is just probably true for my region of Colorado and not necessarily the world, but the dial has turned. Heaven is officially here, we are officially living in a dream instead of a nightmare. We're still in the "matrix" and the illusion, but it's lighter now and more is possible. 

Something big is still going to happen though. On the spiritual plane, on and before December 1st there was a heaviness like something dying/collapsing/falling away. It was the "old world". So it stands that the same might happen 'physically' at some point. Buildings or systems falling down. Not sure. 

But I look to January 2022 and it just doesn't feel "real". People within our company are talking about big expansive visions they have for it, and it feels like it can finally be achieved -but simultaneously it feels like it's empty and nothing will progress because everything will end or change entirely. 

I don't know whether I'm going to die or move or if everything will just collapse. The image of the Phoenix keeps coming through a lot. That's hopeful. 

Everything is good, just impossible to predict. 

I also have the instinct to "batten down the hatches" and dig deep into stillness so I won't be moved when everything shifts around me. 

We'll see what happens soon. 

Frustration with the Stagnant

 I follow numerous intuitives online and listen to those I'm drawn to and take from what readings they give for the ones that resonate with me. One said recently, "You're frustrated a lot these days, but you're meant to be. You'll learn something from this frustration and it's part of your journey. Don't worry it won't last forever". 

I have times of being frustrated. It's hard to tell why. The main reason is usually things from the past repeating that I thought my life had grew out of. Everything repeats and is cyclical. 

Other times I think it's because things get stagnant and nothing changes or goes anywhere and I want to escape to somewhere else. 

Then the other day while waiting in a sea of no change for some big change, our company got extended a HUGE loan of money. They immediately put it towards equipment for things needed next year. And a longggg list of improvements I've wanted for the company but we could never afford suddenly all got taken care of in a week's time. And although I was infinitely happy this was finally being accomplished all at once on multiple fronts, I realized, "Hey... wasn't I supposed to have something like that happen to me in my life?" 

And I remembered I dedicate most of my energy into my work: Into a company and a cause, the bigger picture of the lives of people, a surrounding mountain community, and the mountain space in general being contributed to. Something great is still coming my way, but the fastest and most immediate area hit was in the place I work. 

So I guess frustration is teaching its patience. 

There was also another mass shooting today. Not too surprising for the U.S., there've been 2 in the last 2 weeks. But as I looked around the room, I was grateful to be held in a box. The cage I'm impatient to break out of is also protection. 

God's timing is best. 

The Present Moment

Huge shifts are occurring now -but still not physically. I realized I kept thinking something surprising and BIG would happen on the physical front. I was confused when nothing did. Then I realized, the "physical" front is being dissolved, everything is spiritual now. Everyday it feels more like I'm waking up IN a dream. Sometimes a darker illusion that I'm slow moving in and other and places it feels more like Heaven. 

And then there are places I am FULLY awake in and everything is crystal clear, there is no vail, and everything is as it is. 

But I disassociate fairly frequently still. Sometimes I consciously want to. I realized I disassociate for 2 reasons: 

1) Because after abuse/trauma/spiritual wounding you retreat from the world in that way instinctually and it becomes a default and a shell you're then led to break out of 

2) Because it's nice to say "screw this" to the boredom and the pain and numb yourself to being present in it 

But I'm becoming more conscious now. Basically I told Heaven to wake me up when the world got around to finally concerning itself with pedophilia and human trafficking. Until the world became conscious of it and decided to care about it, finally registering it, no change would occur. It would only be an ongoing wound to hear about with nothing done about. 

And here we are. After the dominos have continued to fall, we're entering into the final stage of rape and sexual violence against women being heard -now including incest and family abuses -and with that will come Women fully acknowledging the issue with no excuses given and a good portion of men seeing that and following suite. Then when enough men and women are on the same page, men and women can look into child sexual abuse issues and human trafficking. 

Alongside that, the economic imbalances will continue to be looked at. 

I actually had a recent epiphany with that one. If I owned a home, 90% of whatever I made at a job wouldn't go to rent. I could afford to work less -as could anyone. Most of what we're working towards is shelter. If everyone had that, work wouldn't be as needed. People could work less, potentially get paid more, and have more freedom. 

More money isn't what we need. We need housing. 

And then from there we need medical, legal, and water/food-related industries that are necessity to stop being for-profit. 

Other things going on in the world...

Evil is up to some interesting things. 

The secrets of Hollywood are coming to light. 

I saw Squid Game for the first time yesterday and when it got to the VIPs I said, "Let me guess they'll be some reference to "snakes" or snake people and/or some reference to animal print or animal/people." 

We got ALL of that. And some wealthy, obscene white men that were sexually abusive as well. The veil is thin my friends... 

The greatest mystery of Hollywood's influence is to what extent actors and musicians know they're under Hollywood's influence... I saw R. Kelly named as a person of interest in the Maxwell trafficking trial. Obviously some are less of a mystery than others. 

Then there are other Evils going on I could only allude to. Somedays I feel more indifferent knowing light/neutrality will ultimately overcome and other days I genuinely feel fear and concern. 

I think slipping dimensions/planes/realities being more at play now and having multiple reasons why it might happen is interesting/frightening.  

But today I'm hopeful. 

I feel more and more that there are layers to living. This present moment, the past, the future, different dimensions, oblivion bled into beyond it all -occurring simultaneously. But the past/darkness is being moved on from, or rather the light side of life is being shown now that darkness has been known. We only have good to look forward to and then nothing/harmony/balance/oblivion. 

The Now -Dominoes Continue

 I was mostly certain of the falling of dominoes and the order and have listed several times in serval blogs -including the reasons behind them. 

We are currently in Black Women being heard in particular and Women in general re-iterating and affirming what abuse has consisted of at the hands of patriarchal systems and the call for an End to it. 

Overlapping with this is a continuation of Indigenous voices, but in addition there is a now greater emphasis on Native Women & Children going "missing". 

Denouncing capitalism and economic abuses mixed with corporate greed is still ongoing. 

What I thought would follow was finally veering into Child Abuse and Trafficking, especially since abuses against women of color and indigenous women combine with trafficking & poverty. 

That hasn't happened yet. It's still a whisper. 

Instead family abuses are coming to light more and people are also looking into mental health as it pertains to being neuro-divergent and having autism/ADHD. 

Currently the evils of Hollywood are coming to light more -particularly satanic influence and cult power. You can say it's a conspiracy with the Illuminati, but at this point, it's just reality. There is dark and overt influence behind the scenes and most in the business are aware of it. The general population just hasn't been. 

On the spiritual front: 

The divides between Atheist v. Christian and Dark Occultist v. Love & Light has subsided. People just kind of see where people are at and with what. 

Christianity as an institutional cult following of Jesus is still being denounced in general -and will for a long time given the level of destruction it's caused and in what ways -particularly Catholicism. But the passion behind denouncing it has gotten old and is already well known to most. 

"Beliefs" are falling to the waste side. 

They're too hard to explain for people not in the loop. 

There's too much loop to be in on entirely by anyone. 

If you know, then you know and as far as what there is to know... it's Complicated. 

So for now, we exist and yet we don't -like a Hologram. 

And we abide in what we abide in, though we "aren't". 

We're in a Matrix. 

We're in God's Dream. 

We're Made Up. 

And yet we can influence "Reality". 

So we Exist. 

And yet we Exist as an illusion because of we are a piece pure Perception that mistakenly thinks of "itself". 

And everyone around us is Us and we are within everyone. 

So yah... 

The Future -The Flood

I haven't written much in a while and for a lot of great reasons. For the record, going back through my older blogs, between the font being inconsistent and my thoughts being scattered I wish I could redo and revamp the whole thing but I'm pretty sure it would be in vain. 

I've been going through "ascension systems". You climb the mountain by 3 feet, fall back two, climb up 5, fall back three... You see the peak of where you're at but still get drug back by what darkness hasn't been cleared out. It's painful and draining. The shadow is heavy. 

But the future is why I'm here today. There will be a flood. My guess off-hand is many years from now, maybe even a decade. 

In 2019 I wrote a blog stating very matter-of-factly that there was a great problem heading our way. http://lookingbacktowardthefuture.blogspot.com/2019/10/spiritual-updates.html

I listed out the possibilities which included horrible weather, economic collapse, and a new disease. Under the issue of "plague" I had written of a very vivid dream I had where everyone suddenly got sick around me and I suddenly got wings and was somehow immune. 

In the blog I had also written of severed winter weather -which I'm pretty sure is actually going to hit this winter 2021 in Colorado where I live. I also mentioned a flood being possible. 

The flood issue is why I'm writing -having gotten greater clarity with it. Where we've been navigated and diverted from other disasters, including nuclear war in the past, with the aid of our friends from above -now they've accepted this fate for us. We won't be veered from it. 

Most of the West coast will be gone. Some of the East coast will fall under as well. 

My concern for my own future is Colorado -which will be interesting. 

I've written in the past about not going further into the Rocky Mountains past Georgetown and having it made spiritually clear that there is danger that way, the map of future flooding I've seen does seem to cover that region of the mountains.

Which brings me to the spiritual layout of Colorado:

The way this state lays out -Left Half covered (and in the case of flood, protected from western coastline flooding) by Rocky Mountains. The Right half, flat land and prarie planes. Half and Half a Yin/Yang scenario. If you look closely you can also see that the way the roads layout is like a Cross. The Cross is laid over the State. 

This place is spiritually compelling -you have spiritual healers/New Agers, devout Christians, the influence of Celestial Begins/UFOs that are synonymous, the Denver International Airport which heads major Airflight travel and is also heavily protected by Celestials. You also have regions that had "Grecian God" influence with massive mansions sloped on mountainsides. But all co-existing in harmony, especially now. 

There was also the Ute and Native People's spiritual influence. My guess, and more than guess, is some lands are in fact cursed. If you told me the Native People cursed the lands west of the Rocky Mountains to white colonizers I'd say, "Yah." But the Native influence in the mountains is also marked by places that are still watched over and looked after. 

There's also the fact the land is affiliated with Healing. Manny came to be treated for their tuberculosis -the main purpose of Stanley Hotel originally being built. Clear air, mountains and nature, and then space. 

The only anomaly I see that's confusing spiritually is whenever I come down from the mountains and see the statue of Jesus from the Mother Cabrini Shrine (which from a distance looks like Mary and I refer to as Mary because that's what it is intended to be). The statue genuinely looks like a lighthouse overlooking the sea. And the view over the distant cityscape appears with a blue hue like an ocean. And it makes me wonder whether that's there because in ancient times Denver was under the ocean and it was all sea and then beachland, or whether it's because it may get hit harder than expected by a future flood. 

Either way, Colorado is a paradox: It will get hit and be wounded, but simultaneously remain free and unharmed. 

Right now I'm being led to hunker down. It is understood that here is where I'm most protected and by the most diverse collective of beings that are benevolent and that I align with.

Tear It Down?

 I debated deleting my blog entirely. 

Then I thought, "Maybe I'll just hit 'hide' on all of it and just select a few to make public." 

Then I reflected back to my original stance when I created it: 

I had another blog from age 18ish to my early twenties. That girl had not made peace with the past, was mostly lost, and hadn't discovered herself for herself -she didn't even know she was bi/ace. 

So I made a new blog -this one -and wanted it to help me navigate spiritual understandings. Unfortunately the mess of navigating "spirituality" is that you have to wade through misunderstanding in order to get there. But I wanted it to be honest and shown -that no one rolls out of bed just "knowing" everything. The way this world works you have to unbury it, seek it, listen to it, trust it, lose it, find it, question it, and be founded in it for decades and decades. 

So there are cringe-worthy posts I dislike because they're honest in an unflattering way -especially for a white person navigating spiritual understanding in a multi-cultural planet where white people have suppressed multi-cultural belief. 

For those still wondering, when I asked: "What are souls incarnated in this life as white -who maybe like me have only been white before once or twice and within this culture find it devoid of true spirituality -what do you do as a soul when you find truth in practices outside your culture you can't engage in?" 

And the answer was: Keep it ELEMENTAL. Don't focus on what we call "spirituality" which ultimately doesn't exist as we think it does and only just Exists at all. Breathe. Heal. Connect. BE. Don't "practice" or turn or become dependent on anything external that's physical.

There are physical items and practices that can aide you -particularly if they engage your senses: Frankincense for soul connection and smell, the Labradorite and Amethyst to ease a spiritual mind, Breathing in to the spaces in your body you are healing/clearing, and so on... 

But the more you try to micro-manage and control influence the less you regard the influences over your soul that you are more highly governed by. 

It was a relief to know I never had control -I was just trying to. I could let go and just trust. I could be in pain and know I'd be beyond it at the same time. I could let life unfold as it does anyway. I manifest nothing and controlled nothing. It was all brought about through me, but not by me alone. I worked in tandem like the front wheel of a bike "chooses" to roll as the bike is peddled. 

There was no free will being applied outside of God because we aren't outside at all. God is within and around and is ALL. 

It Was Always Going To Be

You had to start with Millennials kicking things in high gear. Before them was this:

Boomers: "You're either a man or woman or your black or white and always straight".

Gen X: "Well men and women should be equal and obviously racism is a problem and I guess gays are ok if they stay over in their corner. you don't have to fear them." 

Then Millennials took a deeper dive. Men and women ARE equal but aren't treated that way and here are the detailed, longstanding reasons why... Racism was something we labelled a problem, but never defined as white people in terms of what it consisted of -including systemically. And there are interracial people and people experience different kinds of racism and intersectionality exists. Gays are awesome, trans-people aren't new they're just being complained about now, and on a distant shore somewhere are non-binary and ace people waiting to be "discovered". 

Gen Z: Everything Millennials said but with a deeper tone of resentment since they knew this and "did nothing" even though we also scientifically acknowledge Millennials and Gen Z are the poorest generations with the least amount of power in the last century or so. Also, let's take action! Let's do something. Even if marches don't work as well or aren't as effective let's do something. 

Bigger Picture Beyond That: The Government and Corporations and Economy govern everything and their founded in White Supremacy. Individuals and whole generations getting enlightened is great, but what's imposing the greatest forms of oppression aren't people -they're systems. Always think on systems. 

But it was always going to be this way.

Millennials start to acknowledge issues with rape and pedophilia. Dialogues begin online. 

White Millennials start to acknowledge racism and everything that's gone on behind it online. 

Still a whisper, but at least known individually by those who started listening.  

LGBT+ starts being silently celebrated and appreciated and the primordial acknowledgment of racism and issues within the community starts to also be seen online. 

Feminism is called out online for being "too white" and not inclusive. 

Islamophobia is denounced online. 

Non-indigenous people start hearing more about what's happening to native people. 

Americans start to learn more about their own history -the true version -and come to distrust and acknowledge the evil of the US Government. 

And then it followed:

You had to acknowledge Racism for Black People specifically. And the reason it paired with LGBT community -pride with marches -was because both communities hadn't been as inclusive towards the other as it should.  

You could NOT address the issue of Racism towards any other demographic of Americans if the greatest one that had been inflicted the most, for the longest, the most overtly was ignored. No one would acknowledge AAPI hate and those within the community wouldn't feel as compelled to speak up. Acknowledging one paved the way for the other. Same as white gay men paving the way for white transwomen and white lesbians and then black transpeople and so on. It's sad it can't be all at once but ignorance is slowly chipped away at when it becomes a marble stone wall. 

Racism Against Black People & LGBT ---> AAPI and Native Racism ---> 

Religious Groups/Issues with Appropriation (Israel, Palestine, Jewish People, Muslims, "Witch" Practices, Native Practices, Abuses of Christianity ---> 

WOMEN (ALL women, LGBT+, Racially, Culturally) ---> 

POVERTY which effects everyone (veterans, domestic violence victims, white men) ---->

 AMERICAN (countries founded as they are now in colonialism/imperialism. Everyone who's American will have to reflect on what we stand in as a country in the world, the countries we ignore and inflict harm on, how our governance functions and what it is, and country-based accountability will be called for ---> 

Slavery /Abuses of Children (Because if you don't acknowledge #MeToo, BLM, or Poverty you won't get anywhere close to addressing the kinds of kids being trafficked) --->

GLOBAL position in the universe and with spiritual realms beyond this plane and how we're interconnected and impact our surroundings. 

You can't have one ended without the other preceding it. If you ended abuses against Women it would only be white women unless issues with Racism were addressed first. You can't end Poverty if you turn a blind eye to way it's orchestra to hit certain demographics of people -and it's people you don't see or care about. You can't end human trafficking if you don't acknowledge race, poverty, inequality because of who trafficking tends to target. 

And like a rose it will unfold. 

And the way for the divine will be paved within and around. 

And then we'll move beyond the divine once we've gotten the Hell/Heaven dynamic in harmony and fulfilled. 

Then we'll just BE. 

Transitionary Periods

 After affirming the understanding that we bleed back into God ultimately and are kind of a hologram the reason ghosts are transparent) I participated in a program in April that expanded beyond that and also added that Everything bleeds back into "Nothing". 

I had tapped into that space. It's what Taoism and Buddhism speak of. But I hadn't fully understood or registered it. 

"Nothing" isn't actually nothing or a complete void -it's more like outer space if you took out all of the stars and planets. It's comprised of energy but it's just Space. 

I also discovered life is a Paradox and yet it isn't because it's "nothing". 

Hell exists because of Heaven. Heaven exists because of Hell. Hell disappears Heaven re-emerges into God. God emerges back into the "nothing" space. 

Hell was transmuted. It doesn't exist any technically never did since it was just an illusion. The remnants of it are on Earth, but the place it once consisted of is gone. 

Heaven has changed -if it even can be said to exist anymore. There are higher realms closer to God but Heaven as was is gone. It's all open now. 

Heaven is also much more embedded on Earth. When Heaven is affirmed on Earth, everything will bleed back into God/Source more fully. From there God will bleed back into the Nothing. 

But the end isn't Nothing. The end is Balance. What was Hell and still remains will now be in balance with Heaven. Darkness will be "neutral" and Light will be "neutral". For the best example of this -look to nature. A shark isn't evil -it's just a shark. And a whale isn't divine -it's just a whale. They just exist. And yet they don't. 

So when God bleeds into Nothing the result won't be nothing -it will be the balance between the two. That everything and nothing will co-exist in balance. 

In other news, "Spirituality" is being let go of -at least by those who are ascending more. We're not a soul -we are pure energy and the nothing. So all the practices and items used to help us cling to what we have within us undermines the natural understanding of what is. The more you cling to any of -religion, beliefs, practices, items... the more you convince yourself you're not ultimately comprised of all of the "good" you could ever fund in any of it. If it resonates with you its because YOU resonate with it. 

Evil led people to cling to solace found in objects and worship. Like clinging to a lantern in the dark. Now it's not needed. Evil is being dispersed. So we can move forward and just "Be" and be beyond all of it. 

"Spirituality" was only ever a coping mechanism with being here on this Earth. Contending with Hell. Healing pain. 

Heaven isn't needed if Hell is gone. God is what we derive from. Everything beyond that is nothing. 

Greater Vantage Point

 Here's what I've figured out: 

We are stolen pieces of God. We are the cells to God's body, angelic beings comprising the organs of God's body.  

We are a hologram that's the illusion of existing in "self" and individual personhood that ultimately bleeds back into the infinite.

If it weren't for the piece of ourselves that was conscious we would only and just BE. 

But we are AWARE. 

We're intended to relinquish "self" and merge back into God ultimately. 

We are figments of God's imagination at this point. 

Trying To Figure Things Out

 The biggest revelation so far this year is that conceiving of the infinite isn't something we're capable of. 

I use this metaphor: 

A 4 year old sees a tire. 

The 4 year old doesn't know the tire can go on a car. 

The 4 year also doesn't know that the car can be driven. 

The 4 year old sees the tire, the spokes on it, its color, and its size -but knows nothing beyond it. 

We know of Heaven in this way. We don't know of what's beyond Heaven in this way. 

The infinite is a lot more vast than we've given credit for. 

And as far as other divine beings that are out there go: There are infinitely more and infinitely greater than us. 

We are the cells of God's body. There are beings that are like organs to God's body. Comparing yourself against them in terms of being "small or less significant" is a wash. 

Cells don't compare themselves to organs -they just aren't comprised of as much. 

New Dreams, New World, New Shift

I had a dream last night that I was at work and things got chaotic and so I got in my car and just drove away to get some space, breathe some air, and try to fix things from a distance. 

Then I did what I could for the place I work at and drove away some more. Somehow I ended up on an island in the middle of an oceanscape, but there was land off in the distance. From the mountains on the land I saw a beam of light come down and light then poured from the mountain into the ocean almost like a dawn pouring into the sea. 

I thought, "I can't believe no one else is here to see this, but that's usually how it goes..."

Then I was concerned because I couldn't tell if what was happening was good or whether it was bad and would have some kind of negative consequence. 

Then a negative entity appeared and tried to harm me, so the next thing I knew I was in the ocean. 

I can't describe the way it felt and the way the sea looked. It was overwhelming and infinite. Like flying through the universe. It was also dark and impossible to see into the deep. I immediately called out to Christ and Heaven, then looked to my side and saw a mermaid and realized I was one. Then two more emerged and I felt like I wasn't alone. They swam with confidence and I knew I was safe as well as they were. 

Then we were in a forest and we were swimming in a river. Suddenly there were men in the distance and we instinctively knew to hide. It was understood that they would try to harm us or kill us if we were caught. Then there was an offshoot from the river that flowed into a place I knew men couldn't go and I opened a kind of doorway to get to it and swam through. Then we were safe. 

The dream was very vivid and felt very "experiential". 

Later today I decided I wanted to watch a movie and went with Disney's Hunchback of Notre Dame, which I hadn't seen in years. 

I knew that movie put out some bold truths and didn't beat around the bush with anything, but it still amazed me how on point it was. I was on the verge of tears at least 3 times watching it. It was moving. 

And the message I got was we've all -as a people and beyond -felt hunted. 

Earlier this week some co-workers made some horrific commentary on Transpeople and the LGBT community. And as usual I just accepted that's where they're at in life. They don't know. And there were other issues with sexism that had come up that week and racism being addressed -particularly at the inauguration. And I prayed that LGBT-phobia and sexism and racism and all the rest of it would end. 

And I think that's what's happening now. That greater evil that's made people feel hunted is finally being cast out like a shadow. There's all the iterations it's ever consisted of and there's that darkness that's permeated the universe. That even the realms mermaids would swim in would consist of men hunting them. Even in your dreams turning them to nightmares. 

It also feels like all of this is old and has been delayed from being cast out. We're getting there... 

Big Picture

 All dimensions and "realms" are merging into one another -same with people. Everything's merging back into one. One big overlap of everything in existence. Everything bleeding into everything. God becoming whole and indivisible.