Sunday, December 10, 2017

Why I Hate Santa

This time of year is kind of complicated. 

For me it's a time of spiritual reflection, appreciating God, celebrating Divine Life and Light, that wonderful, nostalgic sense that comes from playing in snow and wandering through snowflakes, getting warm and comfy, visiting with family, acknowledging and drawing near to the miracle that is Christ, and being more open and giving towards others. 

Then this guy wanders in talking about the latest iPhone and Black Friday sales... 



I hate him. I hate him so much. 

And for a while it was hard for me to articulate why to other people. But then recently -in part thanks to the Catholic school I clean at for my second job at night -I discovered one of the underlying reasons I resent Santa and all that he has come to represent about this time of year. 

Saint Nicholas. 


No one knows much about him or what he did, but we took from old Saint Nick and wrapped him in a compilation of various other people to create this caricature known as "Santa". 

Saint Nicholas was amazing. Regardless of your religious beliefs, his contributions can easily be appreciated and acknowledged. 

One of the most well known actions he took in particular was using his wealth to help children in poverty. There was a father with 3 daughters who were between the ages of 9 and 12 that he knew he couldn't afford dowries for. So when he started running low on money he decided to sell them all at once to other men to be raped for profit. Sex trafficking. 

3 times Nicholas "anonymously" put a huge bag of gold on the man's door to prevent him from selling his daughters into slavery. Since he was the only one around with kind of money it wasn't too hard for people to figure out what he did. And he did it several times over the years because every time the father would go through the money he'd been given he kept reverting back to trying to sell his daughters. 

And there are other people that Santa is based on that were giving and generous and kind -particularly to children in need -who then don't get acknowledged because we made up this character to take their place. 

In conclusion, I hate Santa. 

But I'm ok with Rudolph. 

Recent Revelations: Over 10 of Them

The problem with working 2 jobs during the week and 1 side graphic design job on Sundays is less time for art and in this case blogging. LOTS of stuff to fill in on. 

The first one is probably the most important spiritual understanding gained. It was kind of an epiphany when it hit. 

1. Dream Travel
There was a term called "Astral Travel" that I came across and didn't know whether it meant (a.) Leaving your body as a soul and traveling to other places, (b.) Leaving your body during sleep and going to Heaven, (c.) Leaving your body as a soul while traveling around during the day with or without being cognizant of it. So I asked God for further clarity and received it. 

During dreams sometimes I can't tell whether I'm visiting the present or the future -but I just assume the future because I go places I haven't been to yet. As it turns out the Spiritual Plane that underlies our physical one can be seen/acknowledged/visited in dreams. It's the PRESENT state of a place/people. 

The effect we have on our surrounding physically sets the landscape and tone for the spiritual plane. The spiritual plane has positive/negative "hot spots" for certain things to manifest physically (like a beautiful garden or a coliseum where slaves and forced to murder one another) -or what we choose to bring about as people creates and founds the spiritual plane underlying everything. 

2 Examples: 

A. I had 3 dreams over the course of a couple years about the same place. It was a large bowl-like building structure that I looked down into that had different animals wrestling around and generally felt kind of uneasy, unsettling, and chaotic. I recently came to realize that place was one I'd actually been to: The rodeo grounds out in the country where I grew up. Between making horses buck by strapping painful mechanisms to their sides and roping caves having their legs pulled out from under them very quickly... Not a fun place to be if you're an animal and none of these things are capable of being explained to you only done to you. 

B. Have had multiple dreams about my sister and my dad visiting a farm out in California. Turns out the farm/garden exists and what I'm seeing is the way it looks Spiritually in the underlying plane rather than the physical surface representation. 

We can manifest things here on Earth in the spiritual realm from this physical space and what we do on it AND be led to manifest things here physically that abide in the under-layer that is the spiritual plane. 

2. Head Space

This one was sort of obvious but the way it hit me was finally like something clicked and I "got it" better than before. The space you create in your mind is like a room or any other area. You can either create a space that's peaceful and light -which allows Heaven to come through that much more easily and freely. Or you can create a space of worry, poisoned thoughts, and hate -which paves the way for darker things to come through. And it's kind of a selfless notion to purposely say to yourself, "Well I could think negative thoughts about this situation or that person, but then it would shove out room for God to abide in my mind." And so you offer the space in your head as a room to rent for God without the monthly fee. This in turns allows for greater communication and vision from above to come through. 

3. The Dragon/Caduceus 
Almost every culture globally has depictions of dragons/serpents of one kind or another running throughout its history. 

-Europe has depictions of slaying dragons -seen as evil and the knights killing them as valiant for destroying them. I maintain this mostly comes from a place of ego -not soul. Soul doesn't destroy it just brings peace and healing to life. 

-India has depictions of naggas and serpents in particular (cobras) that it offers milk to and generally seems to depict being peaceful to. 

-China has the luck dragon and has a positive affiliation with dragons associated with good fortune -like the luck dragons. 

-Mexico had Quetzalcoatl which was complicated because it was originally a giant serpent dragon that was prayed to/worshiped until it was depicted being slain by a great hero that I would compare to the Angel Michael in appearance. 

Then one of the most abundant images that comes up is this interesting "cadeucus" depiction of the inter-twining serpent: 



It's affiliated with the double-helix/healing symbol. 

Then the other day I came across this one and something kind of "clicked" for me in terns of understanding:



I think it basically means -on top of everything else established like healing/chakras/bonding cord to God -that if you make peace with negativity in all forms it can be found then it will ADD to your life and being greater spiritual harmony. It's like the way God can turn curses into blessings with redemption. 

What was really freaky was the realization that I had already depicted this image a long time ago but had NO IDEA what it meant: 



I called it "God's Staff" because I didn't know what it was at all and that was the closest my mind could come to conceiving of it back in 2012. I acknowledged it also had some transparency to it -which is often the way things in Heaven that I depict sometimes comes through. That everything blends and merges and overlaps into everything else in this weird transparent way in Heaven. 

then I came across this image randomly on the internet that some other artist had made: 



Pretty freakishly similar. And the symbol in the center of this one reminds me of the "namaste" symbol. Lots of interesting things coming up. Thank God for the miracle that is our ability to create art in various forms -especially visually. 

3. Life Lessons
I wrote this down and don't know what it originally pertained to since it was written weeks ago, but I liked what I wrote so here it is: 

Reasons for Living on Earth:
-Don't just lead by example, BE by example
-Penance for past wrongs comes through in this life so we can learn within ourselves not to repeat the same mistakes
-Gain empathy
-Helping out in ways you're meant to

4. Family Legacy

Don't know where to begin. This one has been coming up a lot... 

Imagine a glass of water tips over onto the ground it's sitting on outside. The water immediately spreads into different veins that dart in separate directions. One vein goes into the mood and is soaked into soil where it then appears to end. Another rolls out into the gutter where it flows until a leaf blocks its path to the storm drain. Another trail darts out towards a nearby tree. And so on. 

Each family line and all its members inevitablely effects one another either positively or negatively. You take your family in and the energy they bring into your life. Harry Potter is probably the best example of this. In spite of his uncle and aunt not telling him about being a wizard, the lineage of his parents comes through and he discovers it about himself before he's told or knows what it even means. 

We take in both the positive and the negative influences our families bring into our lives and are an extension of these veins pouring forward. We can either continue to perpetuate that negative influence or lose the positive that might be there -or become mindful of these things and take things in a new direction. 

The line of influence in my family that consists of dysfunction and blame and ignorances and addiction ENDS with me. And I know my sister won't carry any of that crap around within in her life either. 

We can shift things. Re-write a new family legacy and influence.  

5. When people evade "soul" the world becomes devoid of it as well. See: governmental systems and businesses. 

6. Eroding Body
When people are severed from themselves in soul and/or from their connection to God it starts to effect their bodies. Like a grape taken off the vine will rot and wither, so will the body. Bodies are healthiest when the natural healing and abundant energy of the soul comes through. 

7. Thoughts on Religious Schools -with the Examples from a Catholic School. 

Lets be honest, most of the time religious (particularly Christian affiliated) schools get looked at as almost being a form of brainwashing. And in some instances they may be just that. They're seen as forcing religion on impressionable children while telling them science and math are from the devil. 

But this takes away from the understanding that People Are People. That for every ignorant person running around that would champion brainwashing children into ignorance like -West Boro Baptist does for example -there are also enlightened people that would balance education and possibly give it even more meaning by encouraging students to not just reflect on facts but also ethical implications. 

I'm from standard, normal, public schooling -with the exception of being in a Christian preschool for a year or two before elementary school. I like the notion of introducing spirituality to kids and informing them of multiple religions -not just Christianity alone. They actually have influences of Buddhism every once in a while in the books they have at the school I clean at for my second job. 

When they have a library full of science, many cultures, animals, religions, and books like Harry Potter and Bunnicula as well as books by Malala and Judge Ruth Ginsburg it's pretty encouraging. 

It's a good Catholic school that may do a better job of genuinely educating kids that my elementary school did -especially since they have a Spanish class and teaching foreign languages didn't come up for me until high school. 

On the down side the Middle School troubles me. They use the word "liturgical" over there a lot. Basically they start getting really, really into Catholic teachings and rules and doctrine. I don't like the vibe. Also kind of rolled my eyes when I walked past 3 middle school boys talking about "homosexuals" as if they were from another species. So for me the rubber starts to hit the road when religion stops being teached and starts being forced. 

Also found it strange that a church and Catholic school -both which have non-profit status for tax avoidance -would charge parents $20,000 a year to provide schooling. That blew my mind. 

My first thought entering in there was, "Oh how awesome and INCLUSIVE this school must be given the principles of Christ demand inclusivity AND they're a non-profit that can take in kids from disadvantaged backgrounds and give them a good education and the positive influences of that faith..." Then that thought got shot down when I saw the price tag attached. If I had a kid, as spiritual as I am and as fond as I've come to be with the notion of enrolling a child into a Christian elementary school (but no further beyond that with middle or high school) I wouldn't be able to even begin to afford that.  

So then I thought, "Great it's going to be a bunch or wealthier, sheltered kids raised with the teachings of Christ unable to grasp some of those concepts because The POOR -the one group Jesus spent the most time with -won;t be around for them to see." Frustration. 

How can a "non-profit" do that? It's one thing to get donations from people and government support in funding and then afford to school children. It's another to require parents to fork over that kind of money each year. 

Also didn't like the notion of kids wearing school uniforms. Number 1 -It prevents kids from expressing themselves as individuals and as souls and develop that sense of personal responsibility towards establishing an external appearance. Number 2 -Girls HAVE tow wear skirts -including in winter time when there's snow. F*ck that. Number 3 -If I'm paying $20,000 a year for my kid to get school I'm not going to let the school tell me how my kid should dress. 

So there is this potential for these sorts of schools to positively influence kids -including spiritually. Then there's the ways they kind of screw that up by doing things that aren't as wise.  

8. Blossoming in Winter
I have arm muscles for the first time in my life. I'm genuinely stronger and my stamina has been great. These jobs are a lot more physically demanding, but the benefits of that kind of work -along with working alongside some really great people -make it all worth it. The pay is still a struggle each month, but I actually look forward to going back to work each day. If I could have gone into work today I would have -but I have the graphic design work and other stuff I need to do on Sundays. I feel like spiritually things are getting clearer, more understandings are coming through, and I'm healthier now. 



9. Numerology
It seems fitting this fell on the number "9." Damn. 

Numbers 11, 22, 44, and 88 have been coming up since November. It took me a couple weeks to realize November IS the 11th month and what these numbers meant. And it's hard to explain how they "come up" throughout your day and week and month so I actually tried capturing pictures of it when it occurred. 



Finally had to look up "44" and "888" in particular. EVERY DAY they came up. Here's what the internet told me:





Basically 44 and 88 both have to do with establishing financial stability -which is where I'm at currently in terms of undertakings. But 88 also has to do with karma and not trying to perpetuate negativity. Forgiving others their trespasses and seeing being darkness to light. Which has also been coming up a lot. 

Then the number 11 started coming up. For me the number 11 represents 2 beings coming together -either in friction and battle or in peace and unity. In November I finally realized I had a situation of "Twinning" going on. Stuff that would happen to be would immediately happen to my friend/co-worker Elaine. I actually started keeping track because it became like clock-work. 

-I ripped my plastic glove, 10 minutes later she ripped hers
-I brought avocados and tomatoes to work to put in my veggieburger, the next week she brought salsa and guacamole for a pot luck
-I dropped plant seeds on the ground, the next morning she did the same thing
-Someone took my black Sharpie pen and the next day I ended up having someone else's black Sharpie handed to me and I KNEW that would happen
-I had to learn how to use the lift alone, Elaine had to learn to use the lift alone
-We played cards and she got 3 Aces and laid them down and the next turn I got 3 Aces and made the same move
-I knew which cards she was going to put down before she did a couple times 

So "twinning" isn't just synchronicity with the same person -it can also be other people and life duplicating itself in different scenarios from time to time. It's a whole phenomenon. And it's continued -if not expanded at this point. 

The other 2 numbers that have been coming up infinitely are 9 and 27 -the numbers that pertain to ME and who I am as a person. 



Some numbers refer to what's going on around you and how you're experiencing the world and some refer to WHO you are. 

9 as always means seeing yourself in the world and the world in you. Everything is a reflection of everything -like the ocean reflecting the sky and the sky reflecting the ocean. 27 specifically has to do with encouraging Understanding + Empathy, The Golden Rule, and Peace Between All Beings through Divine Connection. 

The number 49 has also come up a couple times but I didn't bother looking that one up and still don't know what it means. 

10. Angel Cards

I think the biggest thing that showed up the last time I did angel cards was the Moon and Spring Time in Winter. That and a child at play -given I got the job at the school right after. 



I don't usually pay any attention to the cycles of the moon and don't know what they mean, but going out at night to the school to clean I started seeing the moon more -specifically the New/Waxing Moon just like the card showed which was pretty freaky. 

Then the premonition card came with up the picture of birds outlining the number 3 in the clouds -which is pretty spot on for the numerology stuff that's been happening. 

Sometimes I pity people who aren't spiritual for not being on this wave length. It feels like you're in your own conspiracy theory -only it consists of God trying to send you important messages about life and not getting pissed off at other people. 

***Update: Just noticed I published and finished this blog at exactly 11:27am.  



Sunday, November 26, 2017

RE: Future Me

Dear Past Me,

You are SAVED! 

Ended up getting a job cleaning at a Catholic Elementary School, Middle School, and Church. Had a very vivid premonition seeing the atrium at the center of the elementary school that I ended up "remembering" when I was there seeing it. 

Between seeing images of Mary and Christ everywhere and being present to the light energy affiliated with children being around -I'm definitely meant to be there doing what I'm doing. 

It's my second job now working 6pm -9pm after my first job. Love the people that I work with and actually had an hour-long spiritual conversation with the lead supervisor. 

I seriously get the sense that it was all about divine timing and that's why things weren't "working out" and I was essentially being led to this. I actually had a dream the night after I had gone on the internet glancing at the job options where the job involving a CHURCH stood out to me in my dream when I dreamt I'd gone back online. The next day I applied for that one and then one week later I was working there. 

Sunday, November 5, 2017

Dear Future Me

For whatever reason I'm meant to write this blog. I've had 2 other blogs in mind with a serious inability and no desire to write them out, but this is the one I'm meant to put out there for some reason. 

And I think it's mostly a note to my future self at this point. 

Dear future self, 

You're Screwed. 

I love my job. I love the physical activity, the fact that I mastered driving a lift and haven't run anyone over, I get to work with my new best friend, learning life lessons, working around plants and growing crops, cleaning stuff, and good hours. 


The only problem is the PAY. Whoever decided $9 as minimum wage was enough to work full time and live off of needs to be shot. Starting in 2018 it'll go up to $10, but for now it's not good. 

I pay rent and bills but am left each month with about $400 unaccounted for. Thanks to the support of family members I've essentially been scraping by with their patronage. My art is flourishing and the only other setback was only getting 1 day off a week -Sundays -which is physically taking its toll and I'm getting more and more tired each weekend I can tell. 

But I don't want to leave my job and I genuinely feel like I'm still meant to be there. But getting a third job (my second job is doing graphic design/marketing stuff on Sunday my pseudo 'day-off') seems like a nightmare. I don't have the energy or the stamina to get off of work and do some kind of night-shift job somewhere. But I don't know where to get the extra $400+ each month. 

Which is part of the reason why I know that I'm screwed and at this point ONLY God could help me out. I know I'm where I'm meant to be doing what I'm meant to be doing -just not getting paid what I need. Don't know how God is going to do it, but I keep getting the sense that something is going to happen. 

Not necessarily something good, but something bad that can turn into a blessing in disguise somehow pretty much. I think my bigger fear is that nothing would happen and I look down the barrel of another surmounting set of bills I'm unable to pay on my own. I'll take anything but this frustrating circumstance not changing. 

So whatever plot twist is coming for me it's important for future me to remember, "It was needed." 

*On the plus side the veil is thinning more and more and God and Heaven are coming through very resiliently and are close. I can actually feel the presence of Christ getting stronger each night. I just have trouble as always discerning Heaven's guidance. It's still murky. 

Monday, October 16, 2017

What's the Point of Life on Earth?

If you haven't had an existential crisis at some point you're missing out. Everyone needs to define there lives and their life's purpose at some point. What's the point of any of it? 

Especially spiritual people who fathom Heaven and how backwards and finite this world is in comparison. Why would anyone be sent down here from paradise? 

So it was time to wonder down that path again last night. I recently pulled an angel card that said, "Be clear on your desires and what you want so Heaven can help manifest them. Ask for what you want." I think my biggest problem is that I fear getting what I want. If it actually occurred everything would change -including me. And it's not like I want stupid stuff -we're talking the Ultimate of what can be dreamed and lived. 

So I asked myself: What is MY point of being here? I don't wants what's already been done and achieved by other people like romantic love, pursuing a career, fame, wealth, having a family... We all want small doses of these things sometimes, but as far as ultimate fate goes we all know there's MORE. Even spiritual breakthroughs, overcoming sorrows, and sacrificing self to save others has been done. So what is the MORE this life on Earth has to offer? 

And I decided Heaven and God are always going to be MORE. In fact they are THE MORE. And they're what this Earth needs more of. That if there's anything greater that can be added to this life it will come from the greatest source. 

So I created the list of everything I would want to engage with in this life spiritually (what I think might be my callings): 

1. Expressions of the Soul -Art, Music, Writing, Movies, Fashion, Photography, Dancing, Culinary Arts... anything and everything that comes from the soul in creativity. 

2. Giving back to people in support. Either financially or in most cases by being there for people spiritually and reminding them they're not alone. 

3. Spiritual "Activism" -Take a spiritual approach to all the world's issues and discerning the best spiritual approach to take to handle them. 

4. Being accessible and flexible to God's path and going where I'm Needed. This usually involves praying over people and places I'd otherwise never go to. 

5. Being a spiritual beacon -striving to embody soul because doing that alone is kind of the main point and ultimately leads to helping others. 

6. Travel. Travel frightens me sometimes because it can be an "unknown" but it's clearly something I get led to over and over again. 

7. Creating spiritual "sanctuaries" and places people can go to for shelter, support, and nourishment. 

8. Seeking to protect and act from a place of compassionate caring towards those who are hurting or are invisible where they should be seen as souls. 

9. There are systemic, institutional issues that are finally being addressed across a vast spectrum globally. Things like government corruption, rape on college campuses, abuses in religious institutions... And we're all meant to acknowledge these things, call them out, and change the way the system works. 

Working at the greenhouse has been coming up a lot lately because there've been numerous metaphors and insights I've gained from that place. Systemic issues was actually one of them. 

When the technologically advanced greenhouse was first made there were NO women involved. The decisions were made entirely by men and what ends up happening without someone even realizing it is Men think in terms of action and doing while Women think in terms of organization, preparation, and worse case scenarios. This isn't always the case but given gender roles that have been playing out over the millennia it's at least mostly ingrained in people at this point. 

So there wasn't much thought given to the way the system was laid out, preventing possible problems from occurring, and even up-keep and sanitation in the long term. Women create "nest space" so everything is safe and well looked after and cared for to create the best environment. Men are raised to focus on other things. 

The situation reached a head when this past week produced very little lettuce because so many were infected with a kind of fungus created by issues in the system and the way water was getting to the plants. So know they have to dismantle and rearrange everything. And the same goes for the world outside. 

When the judicial system fails in upholding justice -things need to change. When the police are the ones enacting crime and getting away with it -things need to change. When religions damn there own congregation with abuses and cruelty -things need to change.  

Another life lesson learned was: When seeds sprout and are ready to be transplanted I found there were 3 different kinds. 

There were small leaves bursting at the seems like a firework (too overly enthusiastic for their own good because when they mature into "adulthood" there leaves are too sprawled out everywhere.) 

There were tiny leaves shyly coming forward that were too demure and withdrawn and end up turning into lettuce that isn't fully formed. 

Then there was the happy medium between the two: Leaves that were sprouting forward, but not as far or extreme and not as tiny and closed in. Those mature into the kind of lettuce we're looking to harvest ultimately. 

And it reminds me of "Who gets called on by God do enact 'big picture' spiritual things?" It's never based on gender, race, age, or even religion. It's always based on where someone is at as a soul. You need someone who is open and willing, but not overzealous and extreme. You also can't have someone who's undetermined or holds back from that path. The greatest kind of soul is one in acknowledged partnership with the divine who will humble themselves to listen to where they're being guided but will also be bold and lead when needed. 

The other understanding I gained was that plants -including lettuce, not just flowers -have the creative designs from God within them and therefore can be made beautiful and divine. It actually took me by surprise. Never underestimate God's ability to make something amazing. 


So I'm clearly being shown over and over: You are where you're meant to be and more life lessons are unfolding for you to understand so you can succeed on your path. 

The other thing I've come to understand is when you're in Heaven for whatever reason "evolving" spiritually to the next stage and the next progression takes a lot of time. You can be handed wisdom but until you have lived it out it's hard for people to grasp and have that kind of instinct built in. Like telling a child why eating vegetables is important when they are set on hating vegetables and loving candy. 

So coming to Earth is a way to live out Redemption more than anything. Every time and every way this life weighs you down and buries you under you are capable of overcoming and you ultimately overcome spiritually. Certain understandings then get ingrained in you. 

I think the lesson I'm trying to live so that I can learn is to not be so afraid. To find the balance between being bold/outgoing v. egotistical and being humble v. being shy/withdrawn/fearful. To TRUST more not just in God but also myself. 

Sunday, October 15, 2017

Recent Revelations: God's Work Through Generations

First off I should probably lay out some recent synchronicities that have been occurring. And the more these things occur the more I understand WHY deja vu and similar phenomenons go on. 

#1 Food Bank of the Rockies

The greenhouse I work at -like many producers of food -has TONS of what I call "second-hand lettuce" that is technically good to eat, but not good enough looking to sell. It's lettuce that isn't as full or plump enough to package and ship to stores. We have a huge dumpster of compost that gets filled entirely within a couple days. And it hurts to throw away perfectly good food -but the company's been struggling to find a place to take the food. 

So I went online and Food Bank of the Rockies came up pretty quickly. I was also familiar with it because the non-profit I worked at last year partnered with them and they're a 5-star food bank that gives to those in need. 

So I wrote down all the information to give to someone at the greenhouse in a higher-up position. And the morning I went to go to work with the info written down I was at a stop light and a Food Bank of the Rockies truck was parked right beside me. I've never seen that truck before and they aren't really located in that area. It was kismet. 

#2 Music 

My mom wanted me to make her a CD for her birthday. She likes Florida Georgia Line and a signer I had never heard of named Thomas Rhett. So not knowing their songs I did my best to make a "greatest hits" album for her. I got this strange feeling when I was downloading the songs like, "You'll hear country music tomorrow..." but ignored it because I deemed it to be impossible. 

The next day when I went into work someone decided to play Thomas Rhett's entire album -which is especially weird since most of the time they play classic rock and hip hop music and I've never heard them playing country music. 

The next day after that I had a Journey song stuck in my head all morning. Sure enough that day at work they had classic rock playing and Journey came on. 

#3 Lotto Tickets 

I've never bought lottery tickets -or in this case Powerball tickets -but numbers started coming to me and I felt compelled to start buying them regularly. Unfortunately this first round involved the cashier picking my numbers at random because I wasn't given the chance to hand over the ones I wanted. I got the process down and a better sense of how the whole thing works. I KNOW that at some point the ticket numbers will match the ones I've chosen. Just don't know when specifically. I have the same sense about it as I did getting into the college I went to, which I found out after was pretty competitive and technically a "reach school". 

This brings us to the first revelation I had recently about spiritual things and how it all works. 

Revelation 1: We've already "been here" and "done that"

Every time I catch glimpses -including at the supermarket and at work -of scenes I've already envisioned living out I don't get the sense that I'm perceiving of the future and it's playing out right now; I get the sense that this has already happened and I'm just physically living it out now. 

A deeper understanding was: Hell/Negativity/Darkness has led to "heaviness" and a weighted physicality for us. On the Heaven/Positive/Light spectrum we ARE beyond this time and beyond all time. We are beyond physically limiting circumstances. 

So as we become more spiritual and aligned with Heaven, we start to feel the weight of physically living as this layer that's been imposed over us that keeps us from living beyond these times and this present reality. This physically reality is therefore in the PAST where Heaven is beyond this in the FUTURE. Our "present time" has already occurred spiritually -just not physically. Physicality is slow and is still playing catch-up. 

In other words, not being in greater alignment with ourselves as souls and Heaven beyond is holding us back. 


Revelation 2: New Generations are God's Batches of People 

This one actually occurred to me a while ago but has been coming up a lot lately in terms of relevance. 

Whenever a new generation of people is born (depending on the time and place) they are born into wherever that culture is at Spiritually; but they are also born with a deeper and deeper understanding of that spirituality as time goes on. 

And you can use a lot of different things as an example of this, but since racism keeps coming up a lot these days let's use racial relations as an example:


You have an older generation of people that acknowledges racism is bad, but don't know what racism actually is. So they say and do racist things -mostly out of ignorance. And they tend to push back against people of other races trying to raise awareness about racism. 

Then you have a younger generation that's very clear on what's going on working to correct these issues. Where someone from an older generation will tell you, "We're living in a post-racist society and there's no problems of racism anymore black people are just complaining to be 'special'..." A person from a younger generation will say, "Here's the history of latino/black and Native American/black people in America which has never been thoroughly or even vaguely covered or mentioned in our education system..." The younger generations are dissecting different kinds of racism and what to do o prevent it -mostly out of a sense of genuine solidarity because they are LISTENING to people of other races in a way previous generations rarely did. 

Generations are like batches -like muffins in the oven. When God brings about one generation it's better than the one that came before it inevitably because there's more knowing and truth + the recipe seems to have improved (including the conditions it's created in). 

This younger generation holds particularly tight to solidarity. And it's not just "millennials" but Gen X'ers and this newest generation of Gen Z'ers. You have Jews standing beside Muslims, Muslims standing beside Christians, and Christians standing beside Atheists (even though a lot of times this doesn't get acknowledged because religious extremists on all fronts make it seem like the opposite). You have more members of the LGBT+ community being acknowledged and embraced Within that community let alone beyond it. You have people of many races coming together. And you have an older generation of people Complaining about all this, acting against it, and wondering what the hell is going on. 

This has been a shift of: the Times, our Technology and Transparency of Truth through Social Media, Spiritual Solidarity and Connection, Empathetic Compassion, and greater access to Information and Facts. It's also been a shift within these generations themselves. 

A shift towards greater social conscience and understanding. 

Revelation 3: Collective Insight  

"Collective Insight" is the word I use because I don't know what else to call it. 

It's basically what ends up occurring when you take in numerous perspectives outside of your own. In olden times the well-educated would read tons of books from many cultures and times like Ancient Greece, India, China... and they would then gain a broader sense of life itself and various philosophies on how best to approach life. 

Most people don't do that these days and haven't really done that for a couple hundred years now -and even when they were doing that sort of thing it was only small numbers of wealthy people that felt particularly inspired. 

These days -thanks to social media -you can get a vast range of perspectives and really good insights that never otherwise would have occurred to you on a vast range of subjects from people across the world. This helps people connect in understanding to various cultures, places, and people from many walks of life. You then gain an "awareness" of other people and start taking them into consideration  and regard with the things you say and do. 

People are also sharing a LOT more these days about various kinds of problems going on in the world so you can have more clarity about what specific issues entail, what's being done, and what needs to be supported. This cuts down on culture clashes, racism, homophobia, sexism... because it eliminates the possibility of leaving other people out of the equation when you go to say and do things. Their perspective and insights are adopted into your own. 

For instance, it never would have occurred to me that men do not have access to baby changing stations in public restrooms -or even that it would be an issue. Imagine being a single father and taking your young kid through an airport and then needing to change their diaper. Where do you go??? You can't go in the women's bathroom (which 9 times out of 10 has a baby changing station). And most of the time they don't have a "shared" parent bathroom available. You're screwed! 

And yet it's something most people have never thought about unless they found themselves in that specific situation. And as a woman there's no way for it to randomly occur to me that that's an issue unless someone outside of me makes me aware of it. 

And so we GAIN by developing a collective insight and are better able to be more inclusive and understanding in a world of 7 billion people. 

Revelation 4: Labels 

There have been 2 people complaining about labels this past week. 

Both argued that labels were a bad thing because they divided people and we're "past that sort of thing as a people". 

So here's my thoughts: 

#1 Acknowledging WHO someone is in terms of race, religion, orientation, gender... it's a Reality. It's not bad for someone to be white any more than it's bad for someone to be black. I see "race" -or as more enlightened people call it "melanin levels within a human". I see it as beautiful. I see the humanity as a vast painting of every color from every spectrum. I don't go up to a canvas and say, "I don't see paint colors..." I see orange, green, purple, indigo... I see everything. It's that way for a reason and there's nothing wrong with the truth of What IS. 

#2 Labels are only "bad" when they devolve into stereotypes and things like racism, sexism, and so on. If most people wanted to be mad at any group of people (especially historically) it would be white, heterosexual, Christian men. 

But in reality they're just PEOPLE. And when stereotypes and these sorts of issues prevent you from seeing people as people, as human, as soul, as positive being, as everything... that's when things start going downhill and people start getting mistreated. 

#3 There are different kinds of Labels. Some pertain to physical appearances (skin color, height, weight, perceived gender...). Some have to do with internal things that are going on (health issues, orientations, personality types...). Some have to do with things we Choose to identify with (religion, sports teams, hobbies...). You can label people a million different ways about a million different things. Each label is like a layer placed over a person -ultimately leading to the greater understanding that what genuinely matters most in terms of person-hood usually has to do with Being. 

Are you a kind person? Are you forgiving? Are you patient? Do you enjoy inflicting pain on other people. 

If you ask most people, "Would you rather be on a deserted island with the person that encompasses all of your least favorite label-related attributes, or would you rather be there with a serial killer? -most people would choose the labels. 

For me it's an amazing concept and reality. Imagine a gemstone that at the heart of it every time consistently was a diamond, but on the outside was colored with as many different kinds of color arrangements as you could name. No two stones ever being the same except with regard to that diamond in the center (the part that's worth the most). 

#4 The Stigma of Labels is the only other issue that really comes up. Meaning, when you have an overt label (gender, race, orientation) the older generation's mentality is to automatically attach that label to that person "forever". Every time they see that person it then registers. And this mentality has bled into my generation as well to some extent and it's something you have to become mindful of when it arises (including when it arises for yourself). 

Most of the time I will initially acknowledge gender, race, orientation... all that. But after that I don't care because I've moved onto Phase 2: Figuring out people's personality types and where they're at spiritually so I can either befriend them or avoid them. But fro time to time Phase 1 acknowledgments will creep back in and you find yourself saying, "Why is that relevant?" It's relevant to some extent -it is a part of that person's identity. But it's not the more relevant parts. So you end up getting distracted form things that matter MORE. 

And the sad part is for some people, there is no MORE. It's just race, religion, orientation, gender... and that's it. 

Revelation 5: Manifesting Life 

I think people don't understand the partnership we have with God and the way bringing life into creation works. When we "summon life" to be here physically -God HAS to ensoul that life otherwise there is none. 

You purposely breed 2 dogs to get puppies where otherwise they wouldn't have mated... you have just summoned life into being. And we do that for a lot of things -often leaving God out of consideration even when people acknowledge God to be a part of that equation. 

Lately it's been bothering me with plants. Working at a greenhouse it has become clearer to me that plants are ALIVE and they have some sort of spiritual situation going on. Do plants have "souls"... not sure, just know there's something there. And the greenhouse fosters this life by purposely planting seeds and bringing this spiritual matter into physical matter. To them it's just spiritless plant material, but as someone who acknowledges there's more going on it seems wasteful on multiple fronts. 

And so people summon life into being like Victor Frankenstein without necessarily taking responsibility for it. And it is an unspoken agreement between Heaven and Earth that is occurring. "You called and ordered the pizza so I delivered it to you. I would prefer you not throw it in the trash or then tell me you don't want it anymore." 

People need to take greater responsibility with what they physically seek to manifest. Whether that's plants, animals, or people. And I have met some people that sucked at taking care of their kids because they only had them for the sake of appearances and doing what they thought they were "supposed to". 

Tuesday, October 10, 2017

What Hurts the Most

Over 10 people died yesterday in a wildfire in California. People are just now realizing the extent of Harvey Weinstein's sexual abuses. It's domestic violence awareness month and my friend Elaine found out on Monday her best friend was being abused by her spouse and had to seek shelter. Neo-nazis returned to Charlottesville one month after killing an innocent woman. 

It's been a lot. 

But this latest event hit hardest and for some reason haunted me more than the rest. 


Maybe it's because she was only 3. 

Maybe it's because her father KNEW there were sketchy, kidnapper-esque men in the alley near where he threw her at 3am in the morning. 

Maybe it's because I suspect he sold his daughter to those men and is just claiming he set her outside as punishment. 

Maybe because it's been several days now and people have already stopped looking. 

Maybe it's because it's just too easy for someone so helpless and young to be lost to this world for senseless reasons. 

Maybe it's the thought of the men who kidnapped her harming her and preying upon her before likely disposing of her. The "how" in terms of trying to fathom that kind of depravity in fellow human beings. 

It's too much innocence lost. 

This morning I realized why it bothered me so much. 

She was my sister. 

She was your sister.

She is God's child.

She's everyone's daughter. 

She had belonging with all of us and was for all of us to look after. 

She was a child. 

I prayed hard -as i know many other souls out there are doing. 

And yet that's all most people can do. 

There's something so painful about the incurability of a disease that takes the lives of children this swiftly with next to no solution left to be found. 

We have to do better by children. 

This can't be who we are as a people. We have to do better at looking after the most vulnerable. They can't be lost to the world this easily and this often.