Monday, October 16, 2017

What's the Point of Life on Earth?

If you haven't had an existential crisis at some point you're missing out. Everyone needs to define there lives and their life's purpose at some point. What's the point of any of it? 

Especially spiritual people who fathom Heaven and how backwards and finite this world is in comparison. Why would anyone be sent down here from paradise? 

So it was time to wonder down that path again last night. I recently pulled an angel card that said, "Be clear on your desires and what you want so Heaven can help manifest them. Ask for what you want." I think my biggest problem is that I fear getting what I want. If it actually occurred everything would change -including me. And it's not like I want stupid stuff -we're talking the Ultimate of what can be dreamed and lived. 

So I asked myself: What is MY point of being here? I don't wants what's already been done and achieved by other people like romantic love, pursuing a career, fame, wealth, having a family... We all want small doses of these things sometimes, but as far as ultimate fate goes we all know there's MORE. Even spiritual breakthroughs, overcoming sorrows, and sacrificing self to save others has been done. So what is the MORE this life on Earth has to offer? 

And I decided Heaven and God are always going to be MORE. In fact they are THE MORE. And they're what this Earth needs more of. That if there's anything greater that can be added to this life it will come from the greatest source. 

So I created the list of everything I would want to engage with in this life spiritually (what I think might be my callings): 

1. Expressions of the Soul -Art, Music, Writing, Movies, Fashion, Photography, Dancing, Culinary Arts... anything and everything that comes from the soul in creativity. 

2. Giving back to people in support. Either financially or in most cases by being there for people spiritually and reminding them they're not alone. 

3. Spiritual "Activism" -Take a spiritual approach to all the world's issues and discerning the best spiritual approach to take to handle them. 

4. Being accessible and flexible to God's path and going where I'm Needed. This usually involves praying over people and places I'd otherwise never go to. 

5. Being a spiritual beacon -striving to embody soul because doing that alone is kind of the main point and ultimately leads to helping others. 

6. Travel. Travel frightens me sometimes because it can be an "unknown" but it's clearly something I get led to over and over again. 

7. Creating spiritual "sanctuaries" and places people can go to for shelter, support, and nourishment. 

8. Seeking to protect and act from a place of compassionate caring towards those who are hurting or are invisible where they should be seen as souls. 

9. There are systemic, institutional issues that are finally being addressed across a vast spectrum globally. Things like government corruption, rape on college campuses, abuses in religious institutions... And we're all meant to acknowledge these things, call them out, and change the way the system works. 

Working at the greenhouse has been coming up a lot lately because there've been numerous metaphors and insights I've gained from that place. Systemic issues was actually one of them. 

When the technologically advanced greenhouse was first made there were NO women involved. The decisions were made entirely by men and what ends up happening without someone even realizing it is Men think in terms of action and doing while Women think in terms of organization, preparation, and worse case scenarios. This isn't always the case but given gender roles that have been playing out over the millennia it's at least mostly ingrained in people at this point. 

So there wasn't much thought given to the way the system was laid out, preventing possible problems from occurring, and even up-keep and sanitation in the long term. Women create "nest space" so everything is safe and well looked after and cared for to create the best environment. Men are raised to focus on other things. 

The situation reached a head when this past week produced very little lettuce because so many were infected with a kind of fungus created by issues in the system and the way water was getting to the plants. So know they have to dismantle and rearrange everything. And the same goes for the world outside. 

When the judicial system fails in upholding justice -things need to change. When the police are the ones enacting crime and getting away with it -things need to change. When religions damn there own congregation with abuses and cruelty -things need to change.  

Another life lesson learned was: When seeds sprout and are ready to be transplanted I found there were 3 different kinds. 

There were small leaves bursting at the seems like a firework (too overly enthusiastic for their own good because when they mature into "adulthood" there leaves are too sprawled out everywhere.) 

There were tiny leaves shyly coming forward that were too demure and withdrawn and end up turning into lettuce that isn't fully formed. 

Then there was the happy medium between the two: Leaves that were sprouting forward, but not as far or extreme and not as tiny and closed in. Those mature into the kind of lettuce we're looking to harvest ultimately. 

And it reminds me of "Who gets called on by God do enact 'big picture' spiritual things?" It's never based on gender, race, age, or even religion. It's always based on where someone is at as a soul. You need someone who is open and willing, but not overzealous and extreme. You also can't have someone who's undetermined or holds back from that path. The greatest kind of soul is one in acknowledged partnership with the divine who will humble themselves to listen to where they're being guided but will also be bold and lead when needed. 

The other understanding I gained was that plants -including lettuce, not just flowers -have the creative designs from God within them and therefore can be made beautiful and divine. It actually took me by surprise. Never underestimate God's ability to make something amazing. 


So I'm clearly being shown over and over: You are where you're meant to be and more life lessons are unfolding for you to understand so you can succeed on your path. 

The other thing I've come to understand is when you're in Heaven for whatever reason "evolving" spiritually to the next stage and the next progression takes a lot of time. You can be handed wisdom but until you have lived it out it's hard for people to grasp and have that kind of instinct built in. Like telling a child why eating vegetables is important when they are set on hating vegetables and loving candy. 

So coming to Earth is a way to live out Redemption more than anything. Every time and every way this life weighs you down and buries you under you are capable of overcoming and you ultimately overcome spiritually. Certain understandings then get ingrained in you. 

I think the lesson I'm trying to live so that I can learn is to not be so afraid. To find the balance between being bold/outgoing v. egotistical and being humble v. being shy/withdrawn/fearful. To TRUST more not just in God but also myself. 

Sunday, October 15, 2017

Recent Revelations: God's Work Through Generations

First off I should probably lay out some recent synchronicities that have been occurring. And the more these things occur the more I understand WHY deja vu and similar phenomenons go on. 

#1 Food Bank of the Rockies

The greenhouse I work at -like many producers of food -has TONS of what I call "second-hand lettuce" that is technically good to eat, but not good enough looking to sell. It's lettuce that isn't as full or plump enough to package and ship to stores. We have a huge dumpster of compost that gets filled entirely within a couple days. And it hurts to throw away perfectly good food -but the company's been struggling to find a place to take the food. 

So I went online and Food Bank of the Rockies came up pretty quickly. I was also familiar with it because the non-profit I worked at last year partnered with them and they're a 5-star food bank that gives to those in need. 

So I wrote down all the information to give to someone at the greenhouse in a higher-up position. And the morning I went to go to work with the info written down I was at a stop light and a Food Bank of the Rockies truck was parked right beside me. I've never seen that truck before and they aren't really located in that area. It was kismet. 

#2 Music 

My mom wanted me to make her a CD for her birthday. She likes Florida Georgia Line and a singer I had never heard of named Thomas Rhett. So not knowing their songs I did my best to make a "greatest hits" album for her. I got this strange feeling when I was downloading the songs like, "You'll hear country music tomorrow..." but ignored it because I deemed it to be impossible. 

The next day when I went into work someone decided to play Thomas Rhett's entire album -which is especially weird since most of the time they play classic rock and hip hop music and I've never heard them playing country music since they told me they hate it. 

The next day after that I had a Journey song stuck in my head all morning. Sure enough that day at work they had classic rock playing and Journey came on. 

Revelation 1: We've already "been here" and "done that"

Every time I catch glimpses -including at the supermarket and at work -of scenes I've already envisioned living out I don't get the sense that I'm perceiving of the future and it's playing out right now; I get the sense that this has already happened and I'm just physically living it out now. 

A deeper understanding was: Hell/Negativity/Darkness has led to "heaviness" and a weighted physicality for us. On the Heaven/Positive/Light spectrum we ARE beyond this time and beyond all time. We are beyond physically limiting circumstances. 

So as we become more spiritual and aligned with Heaven, we start to feel the weight of physically living as this layer that's been imposed over us that keeps us from living beyond these times and this present reality. This physically reality is therefore in the PAST where Heaven is beyond this in the FUTURE. Our "present time" has already occurred spiritually -just not physically. Physicality is slow and is still playing catch-up. 

In other words, not being in greater alignment with ourselves as souls and Heaven beyond is holding us back. 


Revelation 2: New Generations are God's Batches of People 

This one actually occurred to me a while ago but has been coming up a lot lately in terms of relevance. 

Whenever a new generation of people is born (depending on the time and place) they are born into wherever that culture is at Spiritually; but they are also born with a deeper and deeper understanding of that spirituality as time goes on. 

And you can use a lot of different things as an example of this, but since racism keeps coming up a lot these days let's use racial relations as an example:


You have an older generation of people that acknowledges racism is bad, but don't know what racism actually is. So they say and do racist things -mostly out of ignorance. And they tend to push back against people of other races trying to raise awareness about racism. 

Then you have a younger generation that's very clear on what's going on working to correct these issues. Where someone from an older generation will tell you, "We're living in a post-racist society and there's no problems of racism anymore black people are just complaining to be 'special'..." A person from a younger generation will say, "Here's the history of latino/black and Native American/black people in America which has never been thoroughly or even vaguely covered or mentioned in our education system..." The younger generations are dissecting different kinds of racism and what to do o prevent it -mostly out of a sense of genuine solidarity because they are LISTENING to people of other races in a way previous generations rarely did. 

Generations are like batches -like muffins in the oven. When God brings about one generation it's better than the one that came before it inevitably because there's more knowing and truth + the recipe seems to have improved (including the conditions it's created in). 

This younger generation holds particularly tight to solidarity. And it's not just "millennials" but Gen X'ers and this newest generation of Gen Z'ers. You have Jews standing beside Muslims, Muslims standing beside Christians, and Christians standing beside Atheists (even though a lot of times this doesn't get acknowledged because religious extremists on all fronts make it seem like the opposite). You have more members of the LGBT+ community being acknowledged and embraced Within that community let alone beyond it. You have people of many races coming together. And you have an older generation of people Complaining about all this, acting against it, and wondering what the hell is going on. 

This has been a shift of: the Times, our Technology and Transparency of Truth through Social Media, Spiritual Solidarity and Connection, Empathetic Compassion, and greater access to Information and Facts. It's also been a shift within these generations themselves. 

A shift towards greater social conscience and understanding. 

Revelation 3: Collective Insight  

"Collective Insight" is the word I use because I don't know what else to call it. 

It's basically what ends up occurring when you take in numerous perspectives outside of your own. In olden times the well-educated would read tons of books from many cultures and times like Ancient Greece, India, China... and they would then gain a broader sense of life itself and various philosophies on how best to approach life. 

Most people don't do that these days and haven't really done that for a couple hundred years now -and even when they were doing that sort of thing it was only small numbers of wealthy people that felt particularly inspired. 

These days -thanks to social media -you can get a vast range of perspectives and really good insights that never otherwise would have occurred to you on a vast range of subjects from people across the world. This helps people connect in understanding to various cultures, places, and people from many walks of life. You then gain an "awareness" of other people and start taking them into consideration  and regard with the things you say and do. 

People are also sharing a LOT more these days about various kinds of problems going on in the world so you can have more clarity about what specific issues entail, what's being done, and what needs to be supported. This cuts down on culture clashes, racism, homophobia, sexism... because it eliminates the possibility of leaving other people out of the equation when you go to say and do things. Their perspective and insights are adopted into your own. 

For instance, it never would have occurred to me that men do not have access to baby changing stations in public restrooms -or even that it would be an issue. Imagine being a single father and taking your young kid through an airport and then needing to change their diaper. Where do you go??? You can't go in the women's bathroom (which 9 times out of 10 has a baby changing station). And most of the time they don't have a "shared" parent bathroom available. You're screwed! 

And yet it's something most people have never thought about unless they found themselves in that specific situation. And as a woman there's no way for it to randomly occur to me that that's an issue unless someone outside of me makes me aware of it. 

And so we GAIN by developing a collective insight and are better able to be more inclusive and understanding in a world of 7 billion people. 

Revelation 4: Labels 

There have been 2 people complaining about labels this past week. 

Both argued that labels were a bad thing because they divided people and we're "past that sort of thing as a people". 

So here's my thoughts: 

#1 Acknowledging WHO someone is in terms of race, religion, orientation, gender... it's a Reality. It's not bad for someone to be white any more than it's bad for someone to be black. I see "race" -or as more enlightened people call it "melanin levels within a human". I see it as beautiful. I see the humanity as a vast painting of every color from every spectrum. I don't go up to a canvas and say, "I don't see paint colors..." I see orange, green, purple, indigo... I see everything. It's that way for a reason and there's nothing wrong with the truth of What IS. 

#2 Labels are only "bad" when they devolve into stereotypes and things like racism, sexism, and so on. If most people wanted to be mad at any group of people (especially historically) it would be white, heterosexual, Christian men. 

But in reality they're just PEOPLE. And when stereotypes and these sorts of issues prevent you from seeing people as people, as human, as soul, as positive being, as everything... that's when things start going downhill and people start getting mistreated. 

#3 There are different kinds of Labels. Some pertain to physical appearances (skin color, height, weight, perceived gender...). Some have to do with internal things that are going on (health issues, orientations, personality types...). Some have to do with things we Choose to identify with (religion, sports teams, hobbies...). You can label people a million different ways about a million different things. Each label is like a layer placed over a person -ultimately leading to the greater understanding that what genuinely matters most in terms of person-hood usually has to do with Being. 

Are you a kind person? Are you forgiving? Are you patient? Do you enjoy inflicting pain on other people. 

If you ask most people, "Would you rather be on a deserted island with the person that encompasses all of your least favorite label-related attributes, or would you rather be there with a serial killer? -most people would choose the labels. 

For me it's an amazing concept and reality. Imagine a gemstone that at the heart of it every time consistently was a diamond, but on the outside was colored with as many different kinds of color arrangements as you could name. No two stones ever being the same except with regard to that diamond in the center (the part that's worth the most). 

#4 The Stigma of Labels is the only other issue that really comes up. Meaning, when you have an overt label (gender, race, orientation) the older generation's mentality is to automatically attach that label to that person "forever". Every time they see that person it then registers. And this mentality has bled into my generation as well to some extent and it's something you have to become mindful of when it arises (including when it arises for yourself). 

Most of the time I will initially acknowledge gender, race, orientation... all that. But after that I don't care because I've moved onto Phase 2: Figuring out people's personality types and where they're at spiritually so I can either befriend them or avoid them. But fro time to time Phase 1 acknowledgments will creep back in and you find yourself saying, "Why is that relevant?" It's relevant to some extent -it is a part of that person's identity. But it's not the more relevant parts. So you end up getting distracted form things that matter MORE. 

And the sad part is for some people, there is no MORE. It's just race, religion, orientation, gender... and that's it. 

Revelation 5: Manifesting Life 

I think people don't understand the partnership we have with God and the way bringing life into creation works. When we "summon life" to be here physically -God HAS to ensoul that life otherwise there is none. 

You purposely breed 2 dogs to get puppies where otherwise they wouldn't have mated... you have just summoned life into being. And we do that for a lot of things -often leaving God out of consideration even when people acknowledge God to be a part of that equation. 

Lately it's been bothering me with plants. Working at a greenhouse it has become clearer to me that plants are ALIVE and they have some sort of spiritual situation going on. Do plants have "souls"... not sure, just know there's something there. And the greenhouse fosters this life by purposely planting seeds and bringing this spiritual matter into physical matter. To them it's just spiritless plant material, but as someone who acknowledges there's more going on it seems wasteful on multiple fronts. 

And so people summon life into being like Victor Frankenstein without necessarily taking responsibility for it. And it is an unspoken agreement between Heaven and Earth that is occurring. "You called and ordered the pizza so I delivered it to you. I would prefer you not throw it in the trash or then tell me you don't want it anymore." 

People need to take greater responsibility with what they physically seek to manifest. Whether that's plants, animals, or people. And I have met some people that sucked at taking care of their kids because they only had them for the sake of appearances and doing what they thought they were "supposed to". 

Tuesday, October 10, 2017

What Hurts the Most

Over 10 people died yesterday in a wildfire in California. People are just now realizing the extent of Harvey Weinstein's sexual abuses. It's domestic violence awareness month and my friend Elaine found out on Monday her best friend was being abused by her spouse and had to seek shelter. Neo-nazis returned to Charlottesville one month after killing an innocent woman. 

It's been a lot. 

But this latest event hit hardest and for some reason haunted me more than the rest. 


Maybe it's because she was only 3. 

Maybe it's because her father KNEW there were sketchy, kidnapper-esque men in the alley near where he threw her at 3am in the morning. 

Maybe it's because I suspect he sold his daughter to those men and is just claiming he set her outside as punishment. 

Maybe because it's been several days now and people have already stopped looking. 

Maybe it's because it's just too easy for someone so helpless and young to be lost to this world for senseless reasons. 

Maybe it's the thought of the men who kidnapped her harming her and preying upon her before likely disposing of her. The "how" in terms of trying to fathom that kind of depravity in fellow human beings. 

It's too much innocence lost. 

This morning I realized why it bothered me so much. 

She was my sister. 

She was your sister.

She is God's child.

She's everyone's daughter. 

She had belonging with all of us and was for all of us to look after. 

She was a child. 

I prayed hard -as i know many other souls out there are doing. 

And yet that's all most people can do. 

There's something so painful about the incurability of a disease that takes the lives of children this swiftly with next to no solution left to be found. 

We have to do better by children. 

This can't be who we are as a people. We have to do better at looking after the most vulnerable. They can't be lost to the world this easily and this often. 

Friday, October 6, 2017

Truth of Alignment

God has brought us clarity. There's the things people say that they care about and are in alignment with, and then there's the truth of reality. And so it is we get to see where people's true allegiances are and the depth of those alignments. And it has less to do with external appearances and more to do with whether people are aligned to Soul and therefore other people as well, or Ego and therefore only to the detachment within themselves and then to no one else.

And so an unwritten social contract with ourselves as a people has been written publicly with our silence, our complacency, our ignorance or willingness, and in spite of our best efforts. 

We as a people were asked in honesty:

~Do you think elderly people that are abused or even raped in nursing homes and senior centers (especially where the abuses are systemic) should have the right to use or pursue legal action?

And people said NO.

~Do you think breeders who create puppy mills (breeding dogs carelessly until their bodies give out and their pups are so degenerate that they're missing limbs) should be tracked and stopped?

And people said NO.

~Do you think that reporting instances of sexual harassment and rape in the workplace should be discouraged and legally made more challenging to address?

And people said YES.

~Do you think the barriers preventing corporate and government corruption should be erased almost entirely?

And people said YES 

~Do you think prenatal, postnatal, and maternal care should be covered by health insurance?

And people said, "Why should men in this country have to pay for stuff that has to do with women?"

~Do you think testicular cancer should be covered by health insurance, but not breast cancer or contraception? 

YES 

~Do you think 9 million children should have their health insurance taken away?

YES

~Do you think that nepotism (hiring people that are unqualified or unqualified for high up positions because they are of relation to you) should be enacted and championed?

YES

~Do you think silencers (things that silence the sounds of gun fire) and military weapons should be given to civilians?

YES

~Do you think the mentally ill should be given access to weapons?

YES

~Do you think mental illness should be covered by health insurance?

NO

~Do you think prisoners of war are cowards?

YES

~Do you think a father repeatedly, and publicly, sexualizing his daughter is normal?

YES

~Do you think military rape is inevitable and the solution is denying women their right to serve?

YES

~Is it ok for an official government member in a high ranking position to give his mistress a high paying position within the government at tax payers expense?

YES

~Do you think dictators in other countries who are currently slaughtering their own people should be commended for their "good work"?

YES

~Do you think it's normal or ok to mock people who are disabled?

YES

~Do you think peaceful protest and enacting your first amendment right to take a knee to raise awareness of racism should be illegal?

YES

~Do you think torture should be legal?

YES

~Do you think the U.S. should be a theocracy instead of a democracy and the constitutional understanding that government shall found no one, single religion should be thrown out?

YES


~Should LGBT people be denied work on the basis that they exist and should trans people be denied their right to serve in the military?

YES

~Should police abuses go unchecked and simultaneously should police be granted access to military weaponry and vehicles?

YES

~Do you think essential kinds of medical coverage should be taken from health insurance so the wealthiest people can get a huge tax break?

YES

~Do you think net neutrality should be taken away and partitioned up to corporations? 

YES

~Do you know what "net neutrality" is?

NO

~Do you think the funding designated towards investigating white supremacist groups and hate groups within this country should be defunded? 

YES

~Do you think the systemic problems of rape on college campus should be handled by making the legal process more challenging for rape victims? 

YES

~Do you think civilians and innocent people in war zones should be targeted by the military? 

YES

~Do you think a man who bragged about creating concentration camps out of jails, who on several occasions tied pregnant women to beds in chains while they attempted to give birth leading to the death of the infants, who ignored over 400 cases of sexual abuse (many of which involved children), and who purposely and unlawfully arrested people on the basis of race alone -should be commended for his "patriotism" and be pardoned? 

YES

~Do you think children taken to this country by their parents who are now either: still kids, students, workers, home owners, parents themselves, and by law upstanding citizens, and who have never known a country outside of this one -should be sent back to whatever land they were technically born in? 

YES

~Do you think a territory of the United State devastated recently by a hurricane doesn't matter and those people should be abandoned by our country and told, "you're now throwing off our budget"? 

~Do you think various national parks and other environmental sites should be exploited by companies for whatever resources they may have? 

YES 

Wednesday, October 4, 2017

Post-Jury Duty

It was brief, but definitely fated.

You walk in and it's like going through the TSA, only they don't ask for your ID or your shoes. Then it becomes more of a DMV where you hand over the questionnaire you received in the mail, get handed another questionnaire, and sit down in a room full of 400 people in chairs. I was juror #67 out of the 400 summoned.

The first moment of deja vulnerability actually happened in the women's bathroom. I remembered the brown tile on the wall and being in that room. The second came when the tv on the wall switched to the image of a court room and the main person their first addressed us as a group.

Then the jury commissioner -who was a very nice woman- explained to us what the process would be like. There were 26 trials set to last 1 day -aka tomorrow. We were to be called for the specific group of about 30 people we were assigned to and needed to write the number they called out on the top of our questionnaire.

When they said the name of the judge affiliated with the second group I felt compelled to write his name down and Knew that was my group. I was also borderline intuitively "told" to pay attention to the number called because it had spiritual meaning. Sure enough that Was my group and I was given #27. 27 is my spiritual number, equating to "9", and also me being born February 27th.

The next interesting thing to happen was the woman sitting next to me said, "What are the odds? I got called 26 in the same group as you and we're sitting right next to each other. Maybe we're both lucky." Then the woman to my left said, "That same thing happened to me the last time I had jury duty. Weird."

I was initially silent since bringing spiritual stuff and fate never usually goes over well with most usual/practical people, but then the woman to my left said, "And I saw you write down the judges name as if you knew that was your group." So I explained that I find spiritually sense that it was.

Then a judge introduced himself and started talking about the jury process and I felt like I was meant to take note of some of it, so here's the info I found most important:

~The right to a fair trial is the 7th Ammendment in the Bill of Rights and separates our country from others that do not have a fair process *Basically if the government says you're guilty you'll likely be executed like in Henry the 8th times*
~Some states elect judges who run for office spending millions and corruption and favoritism usually follow (like special treatment to lawyers and their clients who donated to the judges campaign)
~Some states have judges appointed by government officials, which also tends to lead to corruption, favoritism, and nepotism (if you're in with the appointee you're a win-win for the position, even if you're less qualified)
~But Colorado is different. They have "Merit Selection" where a large group of citizens from the community will elect local judges for their area and go through a list of candidates -reviewing their applications and giving interviews like a job position. The top 3 candidates are then sent to the governor to review and pick the final candidate. Then for "Retention Judges" that come up for review because their term has ended; a committee is assigned to monitor and review the judge's cases and vote whether they should be re-elected. The public then votes on those judges.
~For jury members, there are 3 categories of cases:
1. Civil trials, which is usually one party using the other and usually only has 3 jury members
2. Misdemeanor trials, which are smaller criminal cases that usually have 6 jury members
3. Felony trials, which are serious crimes that usually have 12 jury members.
~Most trials in Colorado don't last longer than 3 days, and the ones today we're actually only going to be 1 day long.

So yeah, learned some things today. Also prayed over everything and everyone there -It's about the most random cross-section I'd people you can get. I think God leads me to random places and groups of diverse people do no one gets left out.

Then just like that it was over. The entire group of 30 people I was a part of was dismissed -not needed.

I was worried something bad might happen on the drive home, I still maintain something big will happen in the next couple days or weeks. But 2 things did come up.

First, I genuinely think I'm meant to get a Lotto ticket (would not waste my money on one unless I felt that strongly compelled to). And I was led to understand the numbers to put down on the drive home.

The second thing was stopping behind a truck that had the words "You're Needed" pop out at me followed by a butterfly soaring over the truck in the sky above. "You're Needed Above".

And it occurred to me that I've spent brief periods of time popping in and out of different groups, jobs, and people's lives always trying to improve things and make things better -but never staying put forever. And maybe that's supposed to be my point here on Earth. Not a permanent residency, just a brief encounter to bless as much as I can.

Maybe I'm meant to move onto "More". More of what I'm intended for and what's intended for me the way I have been over the years.

As Predicted

So I will be going to jury duty today, as I knew. Everyone told me it wasn't likely but I didn't know how to explain it feels fated.

My friend Elaine that I worked with told me she gets deja vu a lot like me and said she had a bad feeling something horrible was going to happen. Then last night my mom tested me that her friend was frightened and upset by the same feeling.

It's good to know people's intuition is getting stronger -especially spiritual people connected to God. Everything is as it was always going to be -you can feel it. Like everything's already happened even before it has. I see something new for the first time it doesn't feel new and I perceive of it as if it's already been.

Not sure how things will go down at jury duty, but I've handed my life over to God numerous times as a soul. My life is still held in those hands. It seems like you can face anything when you realize you're facing none of it alone. Even the unknown.