Thursday, April 27, 2017

White Light + Golden Light

I'm not sure if I've blogged about this before or not. I'm pretty sure I've at least mentioned it. Woke up this morning and was led to understand that it's important to bring this one up for some reason. 

Some people acknowledge that souls emulate light. I usually compare it to electricity giving off a light as well as being a force of energy. 

And some people go into detail about auras and things of that nature. I can't perceive of auras and the sorts of colors affiliated with rainbows (like blue, purple, green...). The colors I see are White, Gold, Red, Gray, or Black. This sort of helps keeps things simple. 

White/Gold = Positive
Red/Gray/Black = Negative

I realized at some point that people who emulate the white light tend have these traits: 

-Hate violence and pain and seek peace extensively 
-Introspective, mentally-oriented, honest
-Calm, empathetic, and understanding 
-Usually pretty quiet or reflective 
-Usually affiliated with Christianity in particular (or more structured religions) 

People who emulate the golden light tend to have these traits: 

-Caring, warm, welcoming, embracing 
-Personable, emotional, social 
-Expressive externally and charismatic 
-Usually affiliated with Hinduism/Buddhism in particular (or religions that are more secular/open-minded) 

The main epiphany I had yesterday about these two lights involved the addition of JOY. 

Normally joy doesn't register with me because I'm more Peace-oriented and working on being more Love-oriented to gain a balance between these two attributes. Both qualities are inherent to the soul but people usually tend towards one or the other. 

But Joy is something I forget pretty frequently. When you're concerned with the pains of the world and how to make peace with them this added layer of being intended for happiness as well seems superfluous and hard to obtain. 

But yesterday I was reminded not to forget Joy. It can come in abundance and is also an inherent state of the soul. Allowing yourself to enjoy life, perceive of happiness, and seeking to engage with reality in that way is very important. 

Tuesday, April 25, 2017

Holocaust "Remembrance" Day

Yesterday was supposed to be Holocaust Remembrance Day, but what was revealed on Twitter was a far different reality than I had initially imagined. 

I think the following will help depict the state of affairs in which we currently fund ourselves with a vast range of opinions, agendas, and disturbing mentalities. 

First there were people Actually remembering the Holocaust: 

Then there were people either Denying that the Holocaust occurred and/or people trying to displace the focus from Jewish victims to soldiers being victims of of WW1 and WW2 by dying for an "unworthy cause": 

Then there were people trying to bring Trump to the scene -either saying he and his followers supported and contributed to antisemitism or Trump and Trump followers denouncing antisemitism: 

Then there were a few people trying to highlight Bernie:

Then there were people trying to use the Holocaust to justify inviting in Syrian refugees or denouncing Abortion (which was a new one for me to see). Basically people trying to argue a different kind of agenda based on the Holocaust: 

Then there were a LOT of people bringing up the Armenian Genocide. No mention of Native American genocide though. And the Armenian Genocide of Christians got confusing because some people used it as a means to blame the Jews and others used it as a means to blame Muslims: 

Then there were people again trying to use different things to spread hatred towards Jews or Muslims: 

Meanwhile, the latest stats on Jewish hate crimes in America this year so far is NOT GOOD: 

And there you have it. A convoluted mess. 

You have people using abuses against Jews Muslims to hate on all Muslims. 

You have people using abuses (past or present) by Jews to hate on all Jews. 

You have people denying the Holocaust even occurred -in spite of every kind of evidence imaginable. 

You have no one mentioning the fact that many of the Nazis identified as Christian or Catholic. 

You have no one mentioning that Hitler, Mussolini, and Stalin were Atheist. 

You have no one mentioning how insane all of this is. 

We've run out of faith-related people to hate. All hail agnostics? 

The Holocaust isn't about the genocide of an entire people anymore.

It's just become a kind of game. 

And I do agree that other genocides NEED to be recognized. 

But part of the reason Americans don't focus on the Armenian genocide as much is because they had no real involvement in it. Not to the same extent that the WORLD -including the USA- was involved in World Wars 1 and 2. 

Having said that, it should be recognized -but with it's own day of acknowledgement:

And there are Christians being murdered by Boko Haram and ISIS right now that those bringing up the Armenian genocide would NOT want as refugees welcomed into this country. Meaning: If given the opportunity to help those Christians/Armenian people out, the American Christians bringing up the Armenian genocide would NOT. I imagine that if the Armenian genocide were occurring right now they wouldn't give sanctuary and safe harbor to those fleeing the violence. 

So here we are. 

People spreading hatred against different religious groups -never their own -because the point of remembering the Holocaust has been forgotten. 

Saturday, April 22, 2017

Card Reading and Themes of April 2017

Don't want to post ALL the dreams/cards/drawings I've done for April today. But these ones seem pretty insistent TODAY for some reason, so I'm just going to cover the cards drawn earlier this morning because they cover a lot of ground. 

First it has to be said that 3 objects were brought up pretty clearly yesterday and today: 

#1 Essential Oil (I have one bottle that has frankincense and other things in it I only take every once in a while when needed) 

#2 Angel Card Reading (one of the reasons I did it this morning) 

#3 Vision Journal (received a new vision during meditation and drew it this morning) 

So seeing these come up I knew it was time to check in and meditate today. And sure enough some things came up. 

The first and most immediate card drawn was NOTICE THE SIGNS. Meaning: "HEY! Heaven's trying to get ahold of you, listen!!!" 

And the BLUE card is actually something of a "sign" in and of itself. Not sure why the blue theme has come up so much this month but it has. 

First strange instance involving blue happened on April 7th when I woke up and started noticing the blue view from my bed. It was so obvious and stark, but I didn't know what it meant so I just took a picture of it. LOTS of blue popping up. 

Then 3 days ago I woke up and kind of took notice of the veins on my wrist. And the colors really hit me. The colors shifted from turquoise, dark blue, to indigo. It actually reminded me of a painting (like paint dripping on canvas).

Then my mind started wandering and I ended up kind of wondering WHY blood is blue. Because humans are comprised of about 70-80% water. And ocean water -as it is with the sky -is technically clear and transparent but also appears BLUE for reasons no one really knows. So why all this BLUE. It's a color that comes up so frequently. 

The card also denoted "Speaking Truth" which has also been coming up a lot more and more. I'm more passionate about thinking the truth than I am speaking it. And lately I've been struggling to write it in that I have no real desire to write in the first place in spite of how many thoughts come up so frequently. 

As for the other two cards: Perfect Timing. I hope that mean a job and finding an apartment. I get the sense than when it happens things will follow quickly, which is why I've been packing boxes and getting ready for the move actively. 

Innocence is something I've been struggling with the past week or so. I want that feeling like I had when I was 24 of just BEING in that state. And I know in general I'm not exactly running low on innocence, but for some reason I've been struggling with tapping into it. Probably has to do with humility and letting go. My defenses have been up lately so it's a kind of struggle to Trust. 

As for the vision that came to me during today's meditation: 

I asked God to help fill me with the light and grace of Heaven so that I might fill the world around me with it. Then this image of a lotus appeared in water and two hands moved forward and pushed the lotus to me. It means reaching my internal goal of blossoming into soul is coming and will be achieved. 

Friday, April 21, 2017


Sometimes I don't recognize Mary.

Or Christ as an infant. 

I mistake it for an Italian woman with a baby, if the painting is from Italy. 

Or an American blonde woman with a baby, if the painting is from England or here.  

Once I walked into a house as a guest for Thanksgiving at a relatives of a friend and saw a portrait of a woman holding her baby and thought: "That's random. Looks like an old painting from Renaissance times or made in that style. But the theme is so random -woman and a baby."

It took me about 10 minutes before I circled back around and wondered, "Is that supposed to be..." 

Hans Zatzka painting

Fëdor Antonovič Bruni - Maria with child, 1858 - Russia

With Jesus as an adult it's a little more complicated. 

I recognize it's Jesus, but it's kind of awkward. 

Like having my friend Leslie who's a black woman painted as a white woman in a portrait. You would recognize it's her -but simultaneously recognize that the depiction is off. 

Was kind of glad to see Doreen Virtue acknowledge this today since many of her cards had portrayed Jesus as being a white man. 

For me it's mostly just frustrating because I WANT to see Jesus and Mary and instantly recognize them: As you would experience a kind of joy seeing a picture of a beloved friend of yours on Facebook. 

Part of me is always dismayed and distracted by this issue. 

Then there's a part of me that kind of understands why it happens. People from many cultures, countries, and backgrounds want to adopt Christ in as their own as much as they can. A member of their world and culture and country. One of their own. 

So mankind depicts God is his image -not HIS image. 

And in doing so makes God enfleshed seem closer and more familiar and similar and relatable. 

So there's nothing to hate really -just seek to understand subconsciously why people are doing it in the first place. Not necessarily out of a desire to "white wash" because I have seen instances where people of other races have depicted Jesus in their own race. 

I think it's good to know why people do it. I would just prefer if the truth and reality were depicted instead. It's one of the reasons I like Akiane's image so much. 

Thursday, April 20, 2017

How Fake News Came to Be

Was thinking about this earlier and the domino effect of events that led us to this current reality. It's actually pretty simple: 

#1 The "news" actually used to be the news. There were only a couple news stations in the beginning, they were on once a day, the reported the most relevant news and then shut up. 

#2 People started watching tv more and more -including older generations who retired and would stay home most of the day. News stations saw an opportunity to make more money so they started broadcasting the news ALL day long. 

#3 In order to fill an all-day channel of "news" they started filling in with special reports about whether broccoli was actually healthy and what the best practices for spring cleaning were... and "The View" started working its way in with sessions that included several notable people DEBATING the news of the day. 

#4 This was followed by online news articles -some of which contained actual news and some of which contained the filler or opinion-filled commentary. 

#5 People -especially older generations then got used to watching actual facts and news followed by "opinion sessions" debating and discussing the news. The news itself then started getting more and more biased (including politically) and started "reframing" news that matched their agenda. If something bad occurred that you didn't like it was either not reported, made to seem insignificant, or explained in such a way that it ended up seeming like good news. 

#6 Soon more and more online "news" sources started popping up passing misinformation in through their rumor mills and creating content that seemed like news but was actually just lies based on nothing to spew a hateful, often disturbing rhetoric like antisemitism or racism.  

#7 My generation and younger (and some people from the generation before mine) have gotten in the habit of actually checking news sources. When you're standing in a circle and someone speaks a rumor that sounds pretty outlandish, it often occurs to people to ask around and genuinely discover the truth. These younger generations seek truth rather than sensationalized rumor and gossip. So they're not as likely to just swallow a heading and buy it. 

#8 Fact checking has been made easier thanks to search engines and the ability to do independent research online or follow those that do it for a living quite frequently. The OLDER generation does not know how to do this. some of them don't even know how to use Google. 

#9 You have a generation of people used to thinking the news is factual because they were raised with it being that way who have not realized it is deeply biased sometimes and can report falsely or "reframe"information. They also haven't been raised with the instinct for independent research and seeking Truth like these younger generations have. So they follow rumors rather than reality. 

#10 In spite of Facebook's best efforts at shutting down fake news, "opinioned news" still happens. they will give facts, but then go DEEPLY into a mentality, ideology, and rhetoric that gives opinions of these facts and usually seeks to support an agenda (usually against specific groups of people). 

And so here go the dominoes: 

It was a fact that on a college campus 2 young men used graffiti to make swastikas and antisemitic phrases on the walls outside of the dorm belonging to a Jewish student. The 2 men were caught and arrested. 

This was a small-town publication of an online news article with no one else replicating the story or looking into it further. It was pretty cut and paste. 

An antisemitic "opinion/fake news" site took the story and changed it to say that these 2 men vandalizing the school were JEWISH. The story went on that these two men were faking antisemitism because "Jews like to complain even when nothing wrong is happening to them and everything is fine in the Jewish community and no hate crimes are ever occurring against them..." 

Mike Huckabee (former presidential candidate and government official) then saw this article and posted it. This #1 indicates he frequently reads articles from an overtly antisemitic online source, #2 likes propagating and buying into antisemitic rhetoric, and #3 seeks to further that agenda by abusing his influence and spreading that kind of "news". It also insinuates he counts the "news" from these sources as unquestioningly legitimate and would never bother to think otherwise. 

Thinking fake news, opinion news, and news with an agenda is unbiased and founded in reality is a mistake many people are making these days. 

And there isn't much that can be done except encouraging people to STOP watching news "shows" because there's more emphasis on the show-portion of that title at this point than the "news". 

Also, be very careful about what sources you find online and only seek Truth -not opinion or debate of it. Truth shouldn't come with opinion or debate when it's a FACT intended to be accepted in. 

If there are greater implications and deeper underlying issues that a news story highlights or illustrates then discuss the bigger issues -not the news itself. 

Tuesday, April 11, 2017

10 Suggestions for Surviving 2017

*Personal Update* 

*Had a pretty intense experience the other night. 

Lately I've been drawn back to going to church and only realized maybe yesterday that part of the reason I was drawn to watching Prince of Egypt might be because Passover is this week. It's amazing how you're drawing to spirituality when it's that "time of year". But I also feel like it;s just time to get re-connected to faith in general. 

Then things "at home" have been intensifying. You start to recognize patterns with family and past history and I know that moving forward things will be moving upward for me and prosperity will come. But the transition to that, as it's always been, is a tense one. 

Part of me doesn't understand how people can be so blind to the hurt they cause others. And how they can hold money or things above the value of connections and relationships they have with others. 

Part of me is also glad that after 29 years I'm over all this nonsense -from every end -and I can move on without looking back. 

But in the turmoil, I've called on God incessantly. In the moment when fear starts getting to me and past memories of family dysfunction start coming up. But also in prayer for the people I'm struggling with now because I do genuinely want them to have everything: Happiness, Abundance, Love, and Peace. And God would extend anyone these things infinitely -it just helps when people stop yelling. 

And then one night it felt like my mind opened up into Heaven -closest I could describe it. Like there were no barriers between me and God and Heaven. My mind opened up into this sensation and it felt like it was the way it was meant to be.*

So I came up with this list of 10 things a couple weeks ago. I knew that I needed to write it out and post it, but hadn't felt compelled to until now. Initially it was just 3 main suggestions and then it evolved into 10 -I think that number is significant for some reason with this. 

1. Go into Nature. This one has been coming up a lot lately -especially since it's spring and excuses to stay in doors are melting. 

2. Be Patient. This includes with God, but in general give things the time they need to come about in the right way. And also, for any major decision or stance on anything -give yourself at least 3 days to reach the best conclusion. Reflection = Your Friend. 

3. Slow Your Pace to Match Heaven's. Heaven moves wayyyyy more slowly than I gave it credit for. Time passes quickly in Heaven, but when Heaven comes through it takes time and wades through this physical space like a person at the end of a swimming pool. 

4. Always Seek to Stretch Your Soul with Compassionate Caring as Empathetically and Indiscriminately as You Can. 

5. Seek Piety. Piety is a little different from humility or being humble. Being humble says, "I acknowledge you are cold and are living on the street so I will comfort you with a bowl of soup." Piety says, "I will join you on the street as a friend -please take my coat as your own and have my bowl of soup to eat." It's giving to the greatest extent you are able." 

6. Find and Found Heaven on Earth. Keep a line of sight on the good and where Heaven is coming through. Strive to help Heaven come through by praying over places, people, situations and giving when you can. Listen to what you are intended for. 

7. LISTEN. If there's one thing this world isn't doing enough of it's listening to those in need and the problems of the world. Listen for what you're intended to know and listen to those who have no voice or are not being heard. 

8. Don't be distracted by the Noise of the world. With listening comes the art of tuning out nonsense, falsehoods, and distractions. Look to human history for greater understanding on what is occurring now and don't rush to judgments as many people do. Don't be distracted by the noise. 

9. Seek Creativity (and ADDING to Life). Whatever that might be for you do it. Not for profit in the traditional sense of the word but in the ways it profits you as a soul. Improve life where you can and create new things that add value to life -including your own. 

10. GIVE. Whatever you've got to give that you've been meaning to: GIVE. The more you give the more your soul is stretched and extended beyond you. The more you contribute to the world the more a part of it you become in a greater way. 

Friday, April 7, 2017

World Issues = Spiritual Issues

Was drawn to watch the movie Prince of Egypt yesterday. After watching it I realized why. There was a pattern there I hadn't seen before being echoed into today's reality. 


1. African refugee from birth, whose mother tried to save him from being executed since many, many children who were slaves and infants at the time were being killed by Pharoah. 

2. The reason Pharaoh wanted to kill the children was because he thought the slaves would grow too great in number and might over-power his rule. 

3. God finds a way to save Moses. 

4. No refugee crisis -aka people fleeing Egypt -because they were not able too, but otherwise would have. 

5. Moses is then later led to free the oppressed. 


1. Middle Eastern refugee before birth, whose mother tried to save him from being executed since many, many children were being killed at the time by a king. 

2. The reason the king wanted to kill children was because he feared a prophecy that a new king would arise among them and take his power. 

3. God finds a way to save Jesus (by guiding Mary). 

4. Small refugee crisis where people flee, but most aren't able too. Not as easy to flee as it is today and even that's saying something considering how many people die at sea. 

5. Jesus later frees an oppressed people. 

I've made this comparison before to the way it appears to be unfolding in the present -especially with groups like ISIS and Boko Haram. 

There was also something I was meant to understand about Moses being transported in a basket down the river being similar to refugees with children fleeing by boat. 

I think where mankind is failing, God will intercede and lead the way. But it also reminds me of this:

How we have not learned these lessons from the past seems to be coming up a lot lately. 

But there are so, sooooo many refugees these days now. Ukraine has bombs going off and people fleeing. The Middle East and Africa in general are in trouble. Then there's the political corruption and turmoil of many countries in South America. Then there's North Korea and countries run by dictators. Then there's Russia and the Philippines that have lethal men in power seeking to put down any that oppose them... 

We've got global issues covering just about every spectrum. at some point the question has to be asked: "How can we still afford to have wars if it leads to refugee crisis? At some point we're going to run out of safe countries for refugees to flee to." We have a global crisis in the millions -many being children. Not to mention enslavement (particularly rape trafficking) that is a global, systemic problem. 

Too many surmounting issues for mankind to face alone. Hence the reason I'm being more and more led to the understanding God is preparing to come through. 

And people can ask why is all this happening -with natural distastes on top? This is what happens when Heaven gets close to Earth and starts merging with it. 

Spiritual strength is heightened in those that side with the light. 

But those that give into darkness or side with power, greed, hate or other vices seem to only devolve and get worse. 

Truth is being made clear -thanks to the transparency of the internet and the availability of information. And lies are also being made clearer -which is why fake news is so internally frustrating. 

Always keep your eye open for Heaven coming through. These are new times. And good things are occurring now that have never happened before: 

-War and pain aren't new, but more and more people are able to be vocal about their opposition to it and the desire to seek peace

-You have GLOBAL solidarity which has never happened before

-Information being shared globally. If I wanted to message a friend in India I could do it right now and they could have the message seconds from it being sent. 

-Freedom is far more reaching and available to people. If I wanted to, today I could drive up to the mountains and go sledding. 

-Poverty is still a limitation, but less so than it was before in many places. 

-Humanitarian aid is being sent in a way never conceivable before. When word reached people that South Sudan had a drought and famine and that people were dying, Australia, America, Canada, Europe, India... many people in many countries the world over sent help to that one singular place. 

-For the first time in history, the world in general is moving to END slavery. Most times in human history they didn't even think of it as a problem. Now people are working towards an END to it. The word END is being applied to many pains that people seek globally to change -like poverty, violence, corruption... An END to these issues. 

So a lot of things are happening and it's important to see the good that's coming through and the darkness that is still trying to hold sway and influence over those that let it through them. 

Sunday, April 2, 2017

Angel Cards + Dreams March -April 2017

I'm kind of glad I don't post as much. Ideas keep coming -I now have a NEW 4 page Word Doc. that has 1 to 2 sentences worth of blog ideas each. I feel like I might be intended to hold onto them until there comes a better time to write them down. For now it's just tracking dreams, insights, and experiences. 

Spring is definitely shifting things -moving forward to moving on and aligning myself with greater things. It's amazing though: Only the infinitely terrifying and the divinely amazing can make you say, "Is this really happening???" Lately I've had BOTH. 

One of the hardest pains in this life is loving someone unconditionally that you know will never see you, understand you, or embrace you as entirely -including family. It hurts, but it doesn't change the way you act towards people and you back yourself into God's hands and the knowing that other people are intended to live their lives their way and will do as they will, but you are taken care of and are loved deeply by others including God. 

I also sense that these days are times of great joy, in spite of all the pains. Never in the history of mankind have we existed in a space where so many can come together collectively and indiscriminately. Where people of almost all walks of life can find their voice and be heard, globally. Where solidarity and the grace of God can be shared so fully, and among people of differing faiths as well. 

It's old pains in a new age and the way we see these pains and seek to heal them together is a great Revelation for mankind. 

Right now my goal is to pick up on what I'm intended for and where I'm intended to head: A new place, a new job, a new group of supportive people, and a new church to spend more time in. I also feel drawn to creative projects (started coloring/drawing again) and giving back directly to the community in the coming months (want to join an artistic, teen-mentoring program). 

Dream 3/02/17: I dreamed I drew cards from an angel card deck when I was shopping around for cards and spiritual items. The cards said pretty blatantly: Work on a spiritual project. Then the face of the card changed its appearance into what looked like the top of a cathedral. I then went to share this with my sister, along with the sense that I got about needing to give/contribute to a social group or non-profit, but my sister wasn't listening or paying any attention (which is sort of how it feels every once in a while when I try to talk to her about spiritual things). 

Me Angel Cards 3/02/17: Because of the dream i decided to meditate and draw some angel cards myself. 

2 cards both mentioned alchemy, which basically meant that my endeavors would succeed as long as I pursued the right ones. The other card kind of represented the "crown chakra" to me or just getting more directly in connection with God and my own divinity. 

Dream 3/04/17: In order to understand this dream you kind of have to know that I wish I could be a singer and dream of being able to do it someday -here or in Heaven. And you think, "If I was a singer, how would I incorporate God and spirituality into it including being divinely led?" Sometimes it seems like American Idol-esque shows would be the easiest way to get your name and talent out there. Then this dream occurred, kind of waking me up to reality. 

In the dream my prayers were answered and I was a talented singer and went to be on American Idol with JLO, Harry, and Keith Urban. They then took me and about 15 other singers into a room and on a big screen had 10 modern songs we then had 1 minute to choose from. I had only vaguely heard one of the songs before since I don't listen to radio. We had to cover the song and were only given a couple hours to do it. 

I struggled inevitably, and barely made it past that round. Then they said, "Ok time for classic songs..." Then a list of only 3 country songs from the 1920s popped up that no one had ever heard of. We were given 8 minutes to memorize the songs and play them. I tried memorizing them, but was pretty lost. 

These singing competitions aren't solely about talent and the way they are usually conducted is almost cruel. They say that's how the industry is, but complying to the negativity of the world to "play along" never did mankind much good in any form... 

Dream 3/06/17: Got a job interview near Colorado Springs that was next to a lake. Then I had this dream. 

In the dream I drove down to that location and saw the lake it was near -which was beautiful, in the woods, and had lots of wildlife around. The employees at the work were nice, the job itself kind of mundane, and I made a new friend/acquaintance with a red-headed girl who was also interviewing. 

After the interview I was invited to lunch by this red-head and we went to an Italian restaurant. There someone in the restaurant proceeded to order a seal from the ocean as their main coarse, and as a vegetarian and animal lover I was strongly displeased and upset. 

Then later, a friend told me not to be discouraged by the job hunt. I was also led to understand that it would be good to find jobs not easily influenced or negatively influenced by the changes occurring in the government. 

Dream 3/0717: Had a dream I traveled between various spiritual realms. I found arctic lands with polar bears and deep seas with mermaids -but also sharks that attempted to attack. These lands were pretty fantastical, but also potentially dangerous. 

Dream 3/08/17: Had a dream that I was wondering through a book store and came across a book about Native American Saints -particularly women. There stories were pretty horrific. One woman attempted to defend the land and argued that spiritual connection with nature struck at the core of her being. She was then but on trial and accused of being sacrilegious, raped and hung at a tree. Her last words were, "All I want is to go back to the still of nature..." 

Dream 3/09/17: Had a dream my sister and I were visiting with family and sitting on a park bench. Then suddenly we were elevated from above by a giant UFO. As we were carried upward, I suddenly had this feeling of knowing that we would be ok. We then descended below and landed unharmed. We proceeded to tell the family, and my two aunts believed me. Then my dad was taken up and disappeared into the sky for about a minute before being returned back. When my dad had reached the craft, before being let go, he saw a door with his name on it that he could have entered through to get on the ship. Not sure what the dream represents entirely -other than which family members of mine are closest to having faith in the unknown -which is pretty spot-on. 

Doreen Card and My Card 3/10/17: Had a meditation session and drew the same card on the same day as the one Doreen Virtue posted online. 

It was basically about entrusting the present to God regardless of what's happening. That God is just a much a part of the unknown as your doubts and uncertainties would be. 

Dream 3/11/17: Had a dream about God coming through during a flood/"Final Coming". The sky changed and everything kind of got frightening -especially since I was driving around in my car -but I also felt very clearly led to where I needed to go to be safe. 

Me Drawing 3/13/17: Drew this that morning when I had this vision come to me. Took a while for me to figure out what it all represented, but basically mankind is reaching a state of grace, enlightenment, and peace and will Rise above the muck of lesser things. As the people rose out of this "lotus" representing greater Being and emanating a great light, they gained wings. 

Experience 3/13/17: That same day went to the hair dresser to get my hair cut and the hair dresser told me this interesting dream she had had the night before. She was interesting because at the time this phrase had hit me on the drive over to the hair stylists after I passed a church: "I am more spiritual than religious." When I met this woman and she proceeded to cut my hair, she said to me the same phrase: "I'm more spiritual than religious..." So I kind of understood that she was in sync with things. 

She told me she had a dream the night before. She said she tried doing her best staying out of politics and mostly just hoped that this new president would be good and carry out good things. But in the dream she had walked into a church and seen "Trump", only his face was red and his eyes were black and she sensed a great darkness in him. She said, "It's weird because I'm more spiritual than religious and don't go to church or pay attention to politics..." 

Experience 3/16/17: This was freaky. Went to see the movie Logan with my dad in the movie theater -which I really felt like I was meant to see because it involved an adult guiding and protecting the younger generation and seeing them to safety which I do feel is a kind of calling I'm meant to answer in some way. 

Then after the movie went into the ladies bathroom and saw a blonde woman over to my right washing her hands in the sink, turned my head to see some bathroom stalls to my left -which I realized were handicapped and not meant for me to use, and turned back to my right and the woman was GONE. I swear 100% I SAW and Acknowledged a woman. 

So I went into a stall and did my thing and then got out to wash my hands. I prayed for God to come through and lift ANY spirits in that room and the theater. But I wasn't all together "spiritual" because I'd just come out of watching a movie for 2 hours and wasn't really in a great spiritual state. 

Then after I washed my hands and prayed, I turned to begin to leave and 10 feet away from me the automatic hand towel dispenser suddenly released a piece of paper towel out of nowhere. I hadn't even taken a step forward. 

I wish I could do more for God and the "spiritual community" here on this earth but invisible to most. Some days you do the best that you can and try to put it all in God's hands, but your energy just isn't where you'd prefer it to be. 

Dream 3/17/17: Had a dream I went shopping for spiritual gifts and came across a great dinosaur book and bought it. I felt that there WAS something spiritual to do with dinosaurs in terms of them carrying "beyond ancient" energy of great living beings. 

Me Drawing 3/17/17: Had a vision that came to me when I was in the bathroom getting ready that morning. Basically it represented God (the eye) but also the Son (the sun) dawning and rising on Earth. 

Great "biblical" things are going on right now. Famine, War, Slavery, Genocide, Political Turmoil and Corruption, the Murder of Journalists (aka the literal killing of Truth)... God is coming through and Darkness is clinging to whatever kind of pains it can inflict while it can. 

Dream 3/20/17: Had a dream I attempted to go shopping in a grocery store but there were no veggies. I'm vegetarian. This basically represents a time on this Earth when there will be nothing left for me here to carry on living the way I have in good. 

After the store, I went outside and it was winter and a great snow and blizzard had hit. Immediately a jet came down to pick me and those around me up to go to safety. We were all calm and no one panicked. Then after we boarded I looked out the window and a drunk, wealthy woman in a fur coat was weaving outside while talking on her cell phone -oblivious to everything. 

I worried that she would not make it, that the plane would not have enough room, or that she would refuse to come on board. Luckily someone went out and helped her onto the plane. 

Then I noticed my sister was on board with me and she had brought a back pack with my stuff and some toys to amuse ourselves with on the plane. She also had a back pack that had similar things. 

This is the third dream I've had with my sister, in winter, having a back pack as we prepared to go somewhere together. 

Dream 3/21/17: Dean (my step-dad) and my dad wanted to go to church with my sister, me, and my mom. As we went to church I knew mom getting a divorce from Dean was inevitable -just as it had been with my father. But I also knew that everything would be alright. I'm pretty sure they'll find peace together in Heaven eventually and all the arguing and division that passed between them here on Earth will be healed. 

In another dream someone gifted me a chakra necklace and a geode necklace -both of which were comprised of colors from the rainbow when each chakra and each geode of a different color came together in the necklace. 

Dream 3/23/17: I dreamt I was invited to have dinner with Trump in an elegant restaurant. The restaurant only served steak -which I can't eat, so the meal itself was kind of useless -but the conversation we had was pleasant with no arguing or anything. Then I entered into a helicopter and was live messaging a friend about what was happening. I was trying to stay positive about it all, but felt guilty about being close to him and not really being able to say or do anything. 

Dream 3/24/17: Had a dream I went to go work for Kayla -one of the women who worked at the non-profit I worked at last year. The job mostly consisted of filing, admin work, and some marketing. 

Dream 3/25/17: Dreamed I worked somewhere doing graphic design works and it paid $700 a week -which is interesting because that's $17 an hour which is the pay I'm shooting for. I dreamed I got this job just before all my money had run out and I was then able to go shopping for new clothes. 

Dream 3/26/17: Dreamed that there was a woman sitting by a window and she was telling me of her daughter and that her name was Marina. For a couple years now I've been trying to remember a name I was once spiritual told that started with an "M", had something to do with the ocean (el mar) and was meant for a daughter I'm possibly meant to have in the future. 

The rest of the dream consisted of me being relieved that it was the End of World Fears. I was told Earth would align with Heaven fully and everything would be right the world. 

Vision 3/26/17: Didn't draw this on paper because it was too much of a "gif" image -like 5 seconds of a movie playing. I saw a book and as the pages turned towards the end of it they started to rip off of the page and rise towards a great light and when they reached the light the pages transformed into birds. "When the book is written and the last page is closed, the book will arise into Heaven and transform into grace." 

My Aunt Vicky passed away this last week and I think it was in part meant to represent her, especially since I prayed for her to be risen above in peace. 

My mom has been struggling with the loss, but came across this note that Vicky has given her many years ago when my mom was mourning the loss of someone else: 

Dream 3/27/17: Dreamt I had a sea otter for a pet -which was a challenge because it was still primarily wild and wouldn't hold still. Hard to tame and turn into a pet. 

Had another dream that I worked for Kayla -again. Was pretty busy and everything was very fast-paced and revolved around making customers happy. 

Had a different dream that I was in an ancient castle and walked into the bedroom of an egotistical man who was gossiping with his mistress. There were photos of this man in all the rooms and he liked hanging pictures of himself everywhere. I mostly just focused on being humble and minding my own business. 

Then I went outside this castle and felt the presence of God. I kneeled and was not frightened even though the presence and the light were overwhelming because I knew I could trust God. 

Experience 3/27/17: Got up in the morning to start my day and the side of my leg started burning. How many freaking times is this going to happen -and always on the same spot (top of my right leg)...

I had also been scratched a couple weeks before, but didn't feel like recording it because the cut wasn't as deep and I mostly just feel compelled to ignore these things at this point. 

I was also led to understand the reason there are TWO marks instead of 3 or just one is because there are 2 main entities I'm contending with. Technically 1 is nice, the other struggles, but both can be easily influenced by the negative energies of "lesser things" and places below. 

Dream 3/30/17: This dream seemed pretty important. In the dream it was essentially like Jurassic Park with people fleeing from being eaten by dinosaurs. But then some tribesmen -including children -found a way to tame the dinosaurs spiritually and the dinosaurs wouldn't harm them. 

Basically it represented people living in fear and being at the mercy of a merciless world (especially while being distracted by commercialism and influenced by conglomerates and things without peace) and those that found themselves in soul. 

In another dream, I ran head first into a real-life issue that recently kind of came up. There's an actor that I like who's 40 and I found out he's "secretly" -which is impossible when you're famous -dating a girl who is only 21. 

In my dream a 40 year old singer I admire was caught on camera making out with this 19 year old girl and the celebrity news sites were excited about it and thought it was wonderful. Then I remembered this guy is MARRIED. I then ran into him and asked him, "What the heck are you doing???" And he said, "My wife's at home so what she doesn't know won't hurt her." He said it in such a non-nonchalant way. 

I found what really got to me was my concern for the young girl. She was still like a child in a lot of ways and seemed oblivious to greater things -including who she was as a person. 

In another dream, I read a newspaper article printed in the Middle East about a new climate change initiative they were taking to improve their environmental responsibility and stewardship. They genuinely cared about the environment. This kind of blew my mind because it is POSSIBLE that in the future such a time could happen. 

Had another dream about a transgender saint who was "matryrd" after being murdered.