Paralleling and Invisible Abuses

I'm feeling my way through each day. 

I've gotten to a place where thinking ahead diminished from a month out to a week out to not even a day out now. Each day is unpredictable, unexpected, and off script -so why bother trying to figure out tomorrow? 

In the moment navigating in these new times I've picked up on a couple things that are happening spiritually behind the scenes. 

#1 We're Paralleling Those Above 

Basically Heaven and intercessory beings of light have had to step in and guide us along with this outbreak. Quarantine helps the environment recover, people get internally connected, and things slow down. It also makes us re-examine how we had defined life before. Does work matter? What is "survival" and why are we still stuck in it? 

We're also paralleling with those above. The closer we get to Heaven the more it's reflected here because of the bond we have with those in higher spaces. Suddenly there is no work and only those who are on the front lines caring for people directly. Suddenly there's more "free" time. No set schedule dictated. 

The more we're bonded the more their "way of life" is reflected. 

#2 Invisible Pains

They're still working on clearing out the negative energies and entities roaming around -a huge undertaking. On top of that they're also bringing to light and trying to heal pains that we're pretty out of the loop on as a people. 

Children being murdered was one. When we think of harm to children we've gotten to a place globally where we acknowledge abuse and trafficking. But not necessarily kids that go missing or who are killed -and that total number. I realized the extent to which children die globally -from starvation to being slain is HUGE. We have no idea. We don't see it. It happens in rural areas, secluded places, backstreets, and in ways unseen. 

Animals still being locked up and abused. Tiger King highlighted it while ironically getting distracted by it's own storyline and failing to fully emphasize the issue. There are "zoos" and situations like that around the world. Pollution and improving ocean life are also being healed right now. 

Domestic Violence was one of the first issues brought to light during this time. Calls for hotlines had gone down after lockdown and many are worried victims might feel especially prone to not reach out at this time. 

In this age we like to think we see and know a greater amount of what goes on in the world and the issues that are out there. But there are still a lot of things not fully addressed that need to be. Heaven has known of them and is addressing them -and some of that may end up being brought to light more as a result. 

#3 Abusers Begin Acknowledged & Changing

One of the patterns I've noticed in the past couple years is not only people finally starting to hold abusers accountable, but abusers themselves not being able to carry themselves the same way. 

Bill Cosby, Trump, and Joe Biden are men that have been accused of past abuses who at this point are no longer physically able to compose and articulate themselves the same way. 

They used to be very direct and focused and now they are mostly incoherent and convoluted in speech. For those men in particular, speech was directly associated with the way they gained power. Now it's easier to dismiss them. 

The same goes for non-physical abusers who frequently practiced hate speech. Those who drew strength from speech and verbal expression and then transgressed against others are now at a loss. 

#4 Collective and Variety 

I don't really know how to put this one. There's a greater variety of life, expressions of life, and what that consists of than have been named. In Heaven alone there's millions of different kinds of beings infinitely living in harmony. 

We're being led to embrace all indiscriminately to live in harmony as a collective. 

Update: Made Some Art

I'm feeling better for some reason after making 2 digital art pieces. The arts are definitely helping us out in this situation. 

Layers of Pandemic

I'm bored. And I wondered if I was lonely, but I don't feel lonely. Maybe a little lethargic and melancholy. 

I'm tired of watching Netflix. I'm stuck watching reruns of ongoing seasons I've already seen. 

I might start doing more digital artwork since I don't really feel motivated to do old school, hand-made artwork. 

And I keep popping on and off Twitter, Facebook, and Instagram, seeing nothing new. 

I thought I'd be great at just sitting at home like I usually do, but it's too excessive.

And I had to debate whether to retweet the funny posts people are making to distract from everything and keep themselves amused. 

But I won't. 

Too many people are dying. More stories are coming out of people losing loved ones and nurses and doctors falling in trying to save people. Too much fear around the future for too many people. 

I'm still at peace with everything and I know God will use this to shift things more dramatically in the right direction -like finally addressing healthcare issues and other looming problems. When everyone's in poverty no one can pretend it doesn't exist and isn't a problem.

We've been cast into the same lot together now. You did unto others by ignoring their problems and suffering, well welcome to it. The uncertainty, vulnerability, and lack of freedom. Meanwhile others already know where the food pantries are and how to get financial aid. 

Otherwise the way this is all unfolding isn't necessarily equal or shared. 

In California they were more unprepared and the epidemic hit fast and hard. They went into immediate lockdown mode when it finally struck what was happening and how quickly it spread. They're entirely shutdown now. You can get fined if you're in too big of a group outside.  

In Texas there's rumors it was kind of the same. They joked it off a little more, but then hit the brakes. 

In Florida they don't seem to care as much and aren't really taking responsibility even now. 

In Mississippi the governor said screw this, the epidemic is a hoax. 

You have the President arguing with governors. You have governors arguing with mayors. Counties are trying to save people. States are trying to save people. Some aren't. 

It's like where you are dictates how well things are going and how quickly we as a people will then recover from this on a local, state, and national level. 

We're fortunate in Colorado. The Mayor of Denver led the way and other counties were following. Smaller came first: social distancing, entertainment places shut down... then more shut downs... and then the final say by the governor to have state-wide stay at home. There was more of a gradual ease to it and it wasn't as harsh as California. It was handled in the right way and at the right pace. God bless those involved in overseeing that. 

And then on top of these state-wide and sometimes county-wide differences there's WHO is staying at home. 

Bored teenagers out of school who can't see their friends. Parents who are going insane being stuck with kids with wayyyy too much energy. People isolated and alone. The elderly who have more reason than most to genuinely fear this virus like you would a plague. Families together. Families apart. Families who are apart that are stuck together. 

Everything. 

I'm mostly bored. Not alone. I'm too spiritually connected and used to feeling belonging with those above. 

Not frightened. But worried for other people. Including those who have always suffered behind closed doors with instances of abuse.

But I think something big will happen in April. Between the Easter Resurrection time, people praying to God, and spring being a time of breakthroughs I think something positive and powerful may happen. 

Beyond that I'm just trying to take life moment by moment as all of this unfolds. 

Hope for the LGTB Future

They had a hashtag going on Twitter for LGBTQuarentine. Posting LGBT selfies occurs maybe once a month on Twitter -it started maybe 2 years ago. They had trending hashtags like that work like a roll call and people -usually teens and 20 year olds -will post from all over the U.S. 

It's incredible. 

So many people that are that young owning who they are and sharing it with others in this simple way. This generation is much better off. They don't debate homophobia anymore than someone would racism. You debate whether racism is a problem you're a racist plane and simple. Same with LGBT now. 

There's this solidified solidarity. 

It also made me realize how old I am. I'm 32, but seeing pics of teens and 20 year olds doing this I'm like, "That's a teen selfie thing. I'm way too old for joining stuff like that." Some 40 or 50 year old posts in there it would confuse people. 

But I get to see and be reminded how many LGBT people are out there and how together and unalone they are. 

I also recently started following a transgender woman who recently came out to her family and is transitioning. She retweets a lot of others on the same path and it's nice to see them being affirmed by one another and others. 

Snow Melting

I got in my car and it was so warm outside that all of the snow that had piled on the night before just fell off in a slush. I knew it was an external reflection of an internal shift. 

It feels like I'm finally able to break out and breathe. 

I use to say the "veil was thinning", but at the time didn't really understand what the "veil" even was. 

Basically it's what some others have called "plasma". Negative, heavy energy that felt like an invisible wall of smoke everywhere you went. It was suffocating. 

Now it's thin/gone and what it reveals is there is no distance or separation from you and Heaven. You reach out and can shake the hand of a divine spiritual being. Not a ghost who's gained foothold, here but a purely spiritual presence from a lighter kind of realm. 

On top of that something that I can only allude to as a "matrix" is behind everything. Like framed wires holding up a tent. You can shift and influence it with your will/spiritual energy. 

I compared the entire situation to this:

You were underwater drowning, being rolled over by the tide under a sea you couldn't surface from. 

Then the sea began to drain and you now find yourself standing in the water by the shore. 

Instead of the tide moving you, you push the water from side to side and it moves. 

A new sense of "power" and a greater understanding of influence kicks in. 

You were under the influence and now you are an influence. 

Your will is self-identified and your autonomy reaches fruition. 

Open Eyes - Changing Nation

The wounds of the world give you a greater glimpse of where Heaven is or is trying to come through. 

Today's epiphany was about the United States as a whole. 

For a longtime, like Hollywood, this country has been a lot of smoke and mirrors. Grandstanding and saying it's the best without actually delivering in that way. Over the past couple of decades that's become clearer and this country has slid further and further down among the places in the world that are of greater quality and support a greater quality of life for people. 

Between our education system, healthcare, government corruption, poverty and a lot of other issues all currently reaching a boiling point -the U.S. has failed to function as greatly as it could. 

Part of that involves peoples' reliance on too many failing systems rather than people directly taking things up themselves -which is starting to shift. Moving forward there will be greater emphasis on Statewide and Local endeavors v. Federal implementation of changes. 

People will be more directly involved and start to shift things. 

The old will fade out and be shed like a cocoon from an emerging butterfly. 

Endings & Beginnings

The Maya and other spiritual groups believed that in order for something new to come about something old had to be let go of and moved on from first. They said it was cyclical and the world was always going through that process. They had an acceptance and peace towards it. 

When I heard that being reiterated on a TV program yesterday I thought, "Yup. Old systems and ways of being are dying now. I'm ready for the new to come through." 

Whether it's our corrupted government or failing financial system -take your pick. Mentalities. Modalities. It's all shifting out. 

And I knew, in part after watching a kind of disturbing movie that put things in perspective, that in order for this shift to be complete Christ would have to come through directly. And in order for Him to come through we'd have to pave the way -so that the old structures that claimed His life before wouldn't again and Heaven would be here for His arrival. 

It became clear in this past week that Hell was never just below us it's been what has been here. Period. It was just Hell. And just as Hell was dissipated and eliminated below, so will it be here. 

Beyond that we're just waiting. Heaven is being delayed by Hell and yet things are shifting and Hell is losing so it's all beginning. 

Dreams of Haunted Houses

I keep having dreams where I go into houses and I can specifically sense where entities are and I help out the people struggling with them. And it feels real -like these are actual places I'm visiting and clearing out when I'm there and real people wandering around I'm meeting in dream world. 

Last night was particularly intense. 

There was a big 2 story house that was pretty old -maybe built in the early 1900s. There was an older couple there and I decided to stay the night to help them with their ghost situation. 

I walked in a giant dining room and said, "This must have been a ballroom or something..." and the elderly man there said, "Well it's was a gymnasium in recent years." And I could feel the stretching, "dancing" movement that had been imprinted there. 

Then I decided to sleep in a room nearby and had a horrible experience with a demonic entity that attacked me during the night. I then went to the bathroom and looked in the mirror and saw another woman with a demon standing behind her. She had cuts on her face exactly the same way as the demon did. It was like the demon couldn't hurt her physically, but wounded her soul the same way he had been wounded. 

So the next day in the dream I told the old man, "I'm sleeping in a different room tonight." 

I cleared out a lot of the energy and there was a moment at the end of the dream where the old man and the old woman were together side by side in the same room (it felt like they had been apart the whole time) and they both said, "Wow it feels like I can think and see clearly for the first time..." 

There was a genuine clarity and directness to their composure I hadn't seen before. 

Pretty incredible. 

Covid Concerns

My thought veer down 3 paths. 

1. The first path is, "what's the long-term plan?" Because the short-term isn't a plan so much as an instinctive reaction out of fear. Hoard the toilet paper, shutdown work, and stay inside for a week or two. 

Let's say that everyone in the U.S. is cleared after 2 weeks and the virus is nowhere in site except for those already found to have it who remain quarantined. Then what? Will the virus never return? Will the U.S. remain free and clear going forward forever? 

And what if there's another outbreak 1 month from now. And then 6 months from now? Do we just keep shutting everything down infinitely? 

At what point does life move on? 

And what other issues are being exacerbated that are virus-unrelated because of this. Like domestic violence and abuse within families being inflicted more because of the tension and lock-down. And people in poverty being screwed -not just because they're without toilet paper -but because they can't afford to "wait this out" without pay.  

2. The second path has to do with the Elderly & Immune-compromised. The whole reason we're doing this is for the groups of people most vulnerable. If it were a disease that killed children the world would be in entire incubation. And that worth and value that we regard children with is also inherently present in others, we just tend to forget or ignore it. So the call to safeguard the vulnerable means everything. It's not something to take lightly. 

3. Silver Linings. 
I had a snap shot image pop-up in my head of a trash can with "Make America Great Again" hats thrown into it. This virus will help those who have been blind from the beginning finally start to acknowledge Trump is not a good leader/president -especially in this situation. 

Beyond that, issues with our infrastructure are coming to light more -particularly with healthcare and poverty being exposed. 

Our unprepared and disorganized response is another issue. If there ever comes an epidemic that has a 70-90% mortality rate for all people: We're screwed. Thankfully we're seeing this now. 

Fear. How do people contend with their own fears? How does the media play into it? What do you do when you reach a point where you're no longer addressing a virus but instead are contending with people's panic and reaction to it more? 

How do you prevent mass hysteria from exacerbating an already troubling situation? 

This virus has given people a lot to reflect on. 

Dream on Friday 13th

I had a really vivid dream on March 13th, the day before I was set to meet with a spiritual healer for the second time. I had met her last week and told her that this round I really wanted to focus on severing any chords or attachments linking negative entities or influences to my life. 

In my dream the spiritual healer, Candace, was sitting on the ground with angel cards spread out in front of her. "She said here are the 2 cards for you. Looks like we need to focus on your root chakra and your third eye chakra..." As she started speaking I spiritually rose above her and was pulled upwards. Then I woke up. 

I found out that at the beginning of every session she starts with the client pulling a card from a chakra deck to see what area to focus on. The first one I drew yesterday was Root Chakra. The second was actually Throat chakra but I told her my throat/head-space area was having issues getting clogged up in general. 

She did a chord cutting ceremony and tried to help release ties in my soul to negative entities that were around. Technically 2 main ties were cut -some in my head and some near my root chakra. I felt very alleviated and open afterwards. 

Entering Back In & Letting Go

So I decided to give Landmark another try. In 2014 I took the first 2 days of Landmark -a personal development organization -and then walked out. The methodology they use is great. They basically help people acknowledge the difference between the past and their emotional reaction/ties/attachment to it. they then help people open their minds to new, present possibilities they can actively create. 

The downside to Landmark is what happens when you get a person leading the forum who is attached to the outcome of people changing rather than a positive influence giving people the opportunity to step into a new mindset. If you search the forum online there are a string of accounts of leaders verbally berating people who have had traumatic experiences in their lives they do not instantaneously let go of in the moment. The confessions some people publicly acknowledge in the group sessions are intense, from rape to being beaten or abandoned as a child. I walked out after I watched the forum leader yell at a woman who opened up about being verbally abused by her father when she was young and her struggles moving beyond that. 

Trying to assist people in healing from past wounds doesn't help when you're forging new ones by feeding into their past pains rather than genuinely helping them move on from them. 

But, like Landmark teaches, the past is not the present or the future. So I acknowledged the possibility that this go-round might be different. And even if it wasn't, I would be. I'm more open to the possibility of directly confronting obstacles and issues that arise in the present now -including how to contend with other people's negative behavior. 

In the meantime, a door has been opened for me as far as acknowledging all of my own issues that still need to be brought their peace and severed from. I've made great headway in letting go of a lot in general (with Heave's help) and now have some other areas to focus on that I wanted listed out so I can actively start to remove them, like something old and unwanted you're finally ready to throw in the trash: 

Issues with Men: 
-I let go of the fear that if I get in a close relationship with a man I would get hurt
-I let go of the fear of confronting/addressing men in leadership positions I feel I have to bow down to and fall in line with 
-Acknowledging past instances with men who have abused/hurt people without attaching judgement/blame/hatred (not keeping score) 
-Not having fear/anxiety around men I cross paths with in isolated places or on the street 

Femininity: 
-I let go of past ideologies linked to childhood experiences that made me feel like being feminine meant risking being hurt, treated small, or was defined as inferior in some way 
-I reconnect to parts of myself I deemed "useless" or unwanted because they were consequently affiliated with femininity 
-I forgive and make peace with women in my past that embodied aspects of toxic femininity that fed into my reaction to further withdrawal 
-I forgive and make peace with men in my past who had aspects of toxic masculinity that fed into my reaction to withdrawal from femininity because it made me feel like I lacked control in my life and was of less value 

Know-it -all: 
-I let go of mental attachment to feeling like I have to know everything all the time because "if I'm wrong, then I'm lesser of a person somehow" 
-I let go to escaping in my head to avoid present reality I label as being mundane, limiting, intolerable, predictable, or harsh 
-I let go of the thought that I'm not capable of handling life as it arises 
-I let go of "mind" so I can step out of that box and into my Being

Trust
-I create the possibility that I can be myself, open and honest, and not be disowned externally by others
-I let go of the divide with "others" and fear/anxiety around people i don't know
-I let go of the fear that by default people will not like me so I have to conform to what I think they want me to be to to be embraced in 
-I let go of the fear that harm will come to me and I will lose something needed if I open up to people

Self-Expression: 
- I create the possibility that I can speak the truth to others, even if I think they won't like it, because I have the right to be heard 
-I let go of the fear that speaking truth and being myself will be to my detriment 
-I create the possibility that I can go out and dress the way I want, speak the truth I know, and be embraced for who I am 
-I let go of the fear that if I speak about spiritual truths that I have experienced or come to understand that I will be labelled delusional or unintelligent which will make me feel like I'm of lesser value 

Love
-I create the possibility that I can let people in without fear
-I let go of fears around people wounding or hurting me if I get close
-I let go of the fear that people will leave me if they genuinely start to see the truth of me 
-I let go of the fear that I'm not strong enough to make it through being walked away from or hurt in my relationships 
-I create the possibility that I am open and loving to others, including strangers 

Social/World Issues: 
-I mark the divide and the difference between what the past has been and what the present currently consists of as things have changed and are changing
-I mark the difference between the past being fact with no negative reaction or attachment to what was or has been 
-I make peace with the past of this world and pray those who have not find their peace
-I move forward to forging our new world and see the possibility of all the good that is coming through it 
-I let go of the fear that if I am not wounded with people who are hurt I default to being apathetic and indifferent 
-I let go of the fear that if I don't know of every wound suffered in the world that I will by default be ignorant 
-I create the possibility that I can be compassionate to others and at peace within myself when I learn the truth of what pains have been and are being carried in the world 
-I acknowledge the truth that all pains are being brought their peace
-I extend patience into the world and let it be where it is in the process 
-I let go of resentments, blame, and disappointment with others who are ignorant or indifferent to the suffering of others 
-I create the possibility of accepting the truth of other's blind spots without holding it against them 

Family
-I make peace with family members that have said things I reacted to in wounding from a place of denial or indifference to other people's suffering 
-I make peace with family members who have not made me feel as though I was genuinely being loved by them 
-I let go of my withholding of love to those family members 
-I let go of past instances of discord between family members 
-I let go of my attachment to keeping score and resenting the vices and negative tendencies of family members 
-I create the possibility of being at peace and in harmony with family 

Being Present
-I let go of my fear that being present with be limiting, boring, or wounding
-I let go of my desire to hide internally in my mind
-I create the possibility of being more fully present in the moment
-I create the possibility of no longer being distracted in my mind by thoughts
-I create the possibility that I can still get things done, accomplish tasks and goals, while still being present without my mind having to track everything
-I create the possibility of having ease in the moment 
-I create the possibility of joy, connection, fulfillment, serenity, and relaxation being in every moment  


Freedom
-I let go of the fear that I am not free
-I let go of a mindset that feels like it needs to escape from reality all of the time
-I let go of the fear that I cannot be free for external reasons
-I create the possibility that I can be free in this life 
-I create the possibility that I can have abundance and not fear "needing" to survive and get by 
-I let go of the fear that travel is something I cannot do alone, I will get lost, or get hurt 
-I create the possibility that I can travel to new places and have incredible experiences

Control 
-I let go of the fear that without mental control over everything I will lose everything 
-I create the possibility that life can be its own without my influence
-I acknowledge that everything is energy 

Lighter
-I let go of the fear that I am not light 
-I acknowledge the truth that I am light 
-I acknowledge the good in me
-I acknowledge that I can share what light and good I am 

Glow Stick Soul and Handing Being Over to God

#1 Glow Stick Soul 

I feel the essence of some element of nature: standing in the sand at the beach on a warm day, feeling the breeze through a giant oak by a lakeside, wandering through a shaded meadow... and SNAP! some part of my soul comes alive. 

I listen to somebody speaking truth with integrity about something deep and real and SNAP! some part of my soul abiding in my mind comes alive. 

I see two people genuinely expressing love for one another openly in front of people in a way that catches me off guard because it's such a rare moment to witness and SNAP! some piece of my soul abiding within my heart comes alive. 

I see an old clip from a Disney movie I haven't seen as a kid and I immediately resonate with... SNAP! a piece of innocence I didn't know I'd lost in my soul comes alive.

I see the divine in art, paintings, music, dance, writing, photos, and fashion... SNAP! I feel the divinity of my soul come alive. 

External life is an internal reminder of everything we are having been pu in the world. And as we're buried under, so is it hard to find elsewhere. And as we're liberated, so we find it again both around us and within us. 

#2 Handing Being Over to God

I handed my life over to God when I was 21. Maybe i was too young to know what life was. 

I handed God my job. I said if you want me to have a career as a nun, you make the call -it'll be a better decision and path than I could layout for myself. Let's see where I get led. 

I handed over my relationships. They were mostly shattered and broken and left me avoiding people, so there wasn't much to hand over and only what there was to be healed. And God did. 

I handed over my health. I was in good health, so I trusted it to mostly stay that way as people do. But when I did get sick and was in the hospital, I knew God was with me and would see me through. And God did. 

I handed over my finances. I did it pretty desperately since they were always in peril. It took a while, but God led me to let go of fear and attachment around the concept of money and an ease came through with it. God is my banker and provider. 

I handed over my fears and self-imposed limitations... to some extent. It's frightening handing over fear and you limit what limitations you hand over. But God brought me beyond. 

What I forgot to hand over at the end of all of it with the exception of a few instances was... myself. MY Life. 

I hadn't handed over my BEING. 

I did internal work for years always trying to fix myself like a house that was 30 years old and in need of constant repair. "Now I'll work on the roof and when I'm done with that I'll get to the base boards..." 

But it was always me working on me. I never let God enter in fully. 
And that's what's "off" with you at the end of the day. The ultimate repair needed. 

I got good at bringing God externally into places and aspects of my life, but forgot about WITHIN. 

Heaven on earth Update -May 2020

Just another status update on the wold-wide shift to Heaven being founded here: 

More headway has been made. Right now they are basically trying to heal and dissipate negative energy deriving from the negative influences of people and entities on earth. I thought clearing out Earth would be easier than Hell because Hell was so much darker, but they now have to content with some dark entities that have some level of physical influence as well as PEOPLE. Dissipating spiritual energy in a physical plane is a challenge. 

So they lifted our plane. The "physical" was it's been known is getting lighter and bring raised up to "higher" places. At some point the spiritual will pour into what we've only mistaken to still consist of the physical and all will be purely spiritual. The physical would be left behind. But people wouldn't know it until it happened. This world appears like it always has. Heaven "feels" physical when you're wandering around there, but all the physical is here is that divide from true spiritual element. 

So they're dissipating negative energy globally, raising Earth to a high spiritual plane then it's been on, and trying to have people and places "catch up" to where some other more enlightened people and places are. Then they're simultaneously depleting the energy negative entities draw from so they start to get lighter as well. 

As negative entities get lighter and negative energy dissipates, people will get lighter because they won't be shadowed over as much. People will then be easier to reach. 

Spiritual Dreams -May 2020

Dreams have been picking up and been much more clear. I had about 5 dreams last night I can remember all of them, they were pretty vivid. 

I had 2 pretty incredible dreams that had to do with where I'm at and what I'm meant to focus on. 

#1 Dream in the Mountains. 

I need to preface this dream so you know what it was referencing. 2 weeks ago I went to a speed-networking event/mixer at a chamber. One of the people that I met was a spiritual woman that did chakra healings -something that I had considered doing about a month ago at another location, but didn't have the funds for. So I thought, "Oh that's nice this woman knows my boss and has a calming presence, maybe I'll go to her business sometime in the distant future." 

2 days later I saw her again at a Landmark Forum event I had been invited to last minute. There is no reason on earth she should have been there in an entirely different location among completely different people. I saw her an immediately go the sense like, "Ok I should probably reach out and connect directly with this person..." 

So I emailed her and scheduled an appointment for a chakra healing since I can afford it now and it seems like something that's meant to happen. 

Earlier this week I found out the GPS in my tablet doesn't work. My tablet is broken and I need to get it fixed, so I will not have GPS going to her business which is in the mountains in a location I'm only partially familiar with. So here's what my dream was:

I was in the mountains in the snow climbing up while other people, including my sister and her friends were playing around. When I had gotten further up the mountain I felt like there was no real reason to keep striving up because as far as endeavoring goes, I was good to go. So I stopped climbing up and instead turned around and started sliding back down, like sledding, and had fun smiling as I went down the mountain slope. 

I arrived back to where my sister was and someone came up to me and handed me notes on a piece of paper that had directions written out and said, "I need you to go and get this..." and I said, "Well my GPS isn't working..." but then stopped myself and said, "Forget it, I can find it just fine with these notes and we'll see where I end up." I stopped worrying about getting lost and just decided to enjoy the trip exploring. So I went down streets and roads on foot and then came to an ocean. At the shore of the ocean was a huge abalone shell I then picked up. I wasn't just a shell, it was made out of some other kind of gemstone and holding it was a beautiful, spiritual moment. Then I woke up. 

Dream #2 Dream of Purpose 

In this dream I was wandering around a store. The first thing I saw were gemstones and spiritual items and so I was immediately engaged and happy with being there. 

I then saw books on shelves almost like you would see in a library and then one shelf that had 3 things laid out that had to do with me. 

The first was ANIMALS. It was clear from the Native American-style depictions of animals that I was meant to have some sort of connection to them that was tied to my purpose. And reflecting on it today I did realize and affirm: Animals are the family members we've disregarded the most and treated like objects the most consistently as a people. They are family. And that truth is meant to be understood and respected. 

Along with animals there was also nature. My purpose was to connect with the spiritual elements of nature and affirm that spiritual presence was there. 

The second had to do with what I called "elemental spirituality". Getting back to the light, source, core of everything. Beyond thought and connected to being. Being being and connected to God. The more significant aspects of what we're truly comprised of. Rather than seeing the pie or even the ingredients that comprise it -the understanding that it's all energy. It's all God. God is everything. 

The third was light working. That I was meant to actively and consciously bring Heaven and God's presence into spaces and people's lives. That paving the way for God and Heaven was a part of my calling. And I came to a metaphor the other morning thinking about this: 

Without Heaven here, not felt around me, I am a fish trying to swim on land. 

Lately with Heaven coming through I've been swimming in mud. It's better than it was, but there's still dirt and inconsistency with it. 

Going forward with Heaven being entirely founded, I'll be back in my ocean feeling entirely at home in this world. Free to swim at ease.