Thankfully this dream didn't have visual parts of the trafficking itself. It was about who was running it.
We were in Africa, it was an older white woman and an older black man. They were human rights advocates trying to free women and young girls from sex trafficking rings. They entered into a "galla" of very wealthy and powerful people -most of whom looked white.
Then an African leader of a military force that they recognized and feared walked in, in uniform, with men holding guns following him. He had a strange presence and energy. It was very mal-intended, arrogant in a less extroverted way, and you could tell he had inflicted pain on many people.
The white woman immediately decided they needed to get out of there, or otherwise be killed. The black man wanted to stay and confront this military leader. The military man had been capturing and selling girls to wealthier elite people like those at the party.
The woman ran out a door and started the car and wanted her partner to get in. He stayed inside and stood firm and defiant in the face of the military leader who strolled up to him knowing what his cause was and not being at all concerned.
I know the woman drive off, but I'm not sure what happened to the man.
When I woke up all I could think is, "This kind of trafficking will be one of the hardest evils to rid the world of."
If it's not happening on street corners near your house, in backyards, down the side streets of every city by random men that are hard to find... it's happening among wealthy, powerful people in every country -some of whom have the military orchestrating it or government forces involved.
Saturday, September 28, 2019
Dream About "Women's Rights"
Had a dream last night. I'm a visual person, so I'm going to make some images that summarize the point that was made because it was an important one.
In the dream I was shown the equivalent of this image:
What it meant was, the Women's Rights Movement up until now has been by and or White Women.
If you were a black woman from 1900s-1970s/80s, you're first concern as a HUMAN was how you would be treated as a Black Person. Black women could be raped and murdered and little could be done to receive justice. As a woman, you weren't signaled out by gender as much as race. Where a white woman would not have been harmed, a black woman could have been.
If you were a lesbian, transgender woman from 1900s-1980s (and more realistically Present Day), your first concern as a HUMAN was how you would be treated as a LGBT Person. Where a straight white woman would not have been a harmed a lesbian woman could be harmed with little to no justice being done afterwards. You're LGBT status discated your rights or lack there-of.
Then within the Civil Rights Movement, there was sexism. Few if any women can historically be named that were a part of the movement, even though women's involvement was just as essential. You have maybe 5 women mentioned or known. Most of history looks to the men that led. And this isn't because women couldn't lead, but because they had less ACCESS to leading.
Same tends to go for LGBT. Lesbians were considered an afterthought. Transwomen and Lesbians and other Women within the LGBT community fought for rights, but men still tended to be the organizers and leaders. This is pretty ironic given Marsha P. Johnson in particular.
So as a black woman or an LGBT woman, you WERE fighting for women's rights -but it had to start in your own community first. Otherwise you'd be marginalized in a marginalized group -even though you comprise 50% of the group.
Meanwhile, white women could organize and seek legitimate influence from within the much larger White community. Since again they comprised 50% of that group, they would inevitably achieve a good portion of their goal. But at no point did they turn and then start to support Civil Rights, Gay Rights, and so on. Even now there are issues. You have this dilemma:
If you were a black lesbian woman, you were screwed. In the LGBT community you could often find racism. In the black community you could often find anti-LGBT sentiment.
If you were a white woman who was transgender, you could also find issues.
Up until now, people haven't been Intersectional in their thinking.
A black woman said on Twitter, "Why do I and other black people have to support gay people? They're wrong and I don't think they should have their rights..."
A black woman said on Instragram, "I've tried being a part of the "feminist" movement, but called the N-Word and was told I don't belong by white women. When I tried bringing up black issues in that space, white women told me to shut up."
A man said in Washington, "Despite our richness in both social and advocacy LGBTQ groups, there remains an air of segregation many have either grown accustomed to or continue to justify rather than addressing head on. The call to address Black and Brown issues within the LGBTQ community will only get louder, and I hope LGBTQ organizations at the local and national level begin to reflect the needs of people living at the intersection of multiple societally marginalized identities.”
At the end of the day, we shouldn't be "choosing" which human beings are human. Which American citizens should be guaranteed their rights and freedoms. Which souls are loved by God as beloved souls of God.
What the dream showed me is that Women's Rights have never FULLY been won. Members of the women's community have been excluded on the basis of race, LGBT status, nationality, religion... either because they have been fighting for rights within those groups and/or because white women who achieved power never extended it to other women (either unconsciously or consciously).
In the dream I was shown the equivalent of this image:
What it meant was, the Women's Rights Movement up until now has been by and or White Women.
If you were a black woman from 1900s-1970s/80s, you're first concern as a HUMAN was how you would be treated as a Black Person. Black women could be raped and murdered and little could be done to receive justice. As a woman, you weren't signaled out by gender as much as race. Where a white woman would not have been harmed, a black woman could have been.
If you were a lesbian, transgender woman from 1900s-1980s (and more realistically Present Day), your first concern as a HUMAN was how you would be treated as a LGBT Person. Where a straight white woman would not have been a harmed a lesbian woman could be harmed with little to no justice being done afterwards. You're LGBT status discated your rights or lack there-of.
Then within the Civil Rights Movement, there was sexism. Few if any women can historically be named that were a part of the movement, even though women's involvement was just as essential. You have maybe 5 women mentioned or known. Most of history looks to the men that led. And this isn't because women couldn't lead, but because they had less ACCESS to leading.
Same tends to go for LGBT. Lesbians were considered an afterthought. Transwomen and Lesbians and other Women within the LGBT community fought for rights, but men still tended to be the organizers and leaders. This is pretty ironic given Marsha P. Johnson in particular.
So as a black woman or an LGBT woman, you WERE fighting for women's rights -but it had to start in your own community first. Otherwise you'd be marginalized in a marginalized group -even though you comprise 50% of the group.
Meanwhile, white women could organize and seek legitimate influence from within the much larger White community. Since again they comprised 50% of that group, they would inevitably achieve a good portion of their goal. But at no point did they turn and then start to support Civil Rights, Gay Rights, and so on. Even now there are issues. You have this dilemma:
If you were a black lesbian woman, you were screwed. In the LGBT community you could often find racism. In the black community you could often find anti-LGBT sentiment.
If you were a white woman who was transgender, you could also find issues.
Up until now, people haven't been Intersectional in their thinking.
A black woman said on Twitter, "Why do I and other black people have to support gay people? They're wrong and I don't think they should have their rights..."
A black woman said on Instragram, "I've tried being a part of the "feminist" movement, but called the N-Word and was told I don't belong by white women. When I tried bringing up black issues in that space, white women told me to shut up."
A man said in Washington, "Despite our richness in both social and advocacy LGBTQ groups, there remains an air of segregation many have either grown accustomed to or continue to justify rather than addressing head on. The call to address Black and Brown issues within the LGBTQ community will only get louder, and I hope LGBTQ organizations at the local and national level begin to reflect the needs of people living at the intersection of multiple societally marginalized identities.”
What the dream showed me is that Women's Rights have never FULLY been won. Members of the women's community have been excluded on the basis of race, LGBT status, nationality, religion... either because they have been fighting for rights within those groups and/or because white women who achieved power never extended it to other women (either unconsciously or consciously).
Thursday, September 26, 2019
Higher Self?
I had a pretty vivid dream last night.
I was standing in a row with who I thought was my sister but was clearly me at different ages: 20, 12, 4... and to my right where no one should be because I was at my present age there was another woman. At first I thought it might have been an older sister -she looked like me but not exactly. Now I realize it was an older version of myself. She was taller and her hair and style were more refined. There was something about her that reminded me of Egypt.
Here Eye Makeup looked like this (via the 1960s):
Her Hair Style more like this:
Then I was flipping through a celebrity magazine and saw 3 or 4 images of her. But the pages were embedded with beads. Her dress was made of beads and they were on the magazine. The back page of the magazine was almost a floral wallpaper design in gold that was also intricately beaded. When I touched her hair on the page it was real hair. I took the pages out of the magazine and intended to keep them.
This is interesting because yesterday I was thinking how manipulative and cruel it was to read Seventeen magazine as a 16 year old. Not realizing those girls had an entire crew of people spending hours on their hair and makeup. I looked at those pictures and thought, "If that's how I'm supposed to look at this age, I'm screwed. I'm ugly and nowhere near to that..."
I think the dream was kind of a response. Your soul/higher self and who you're intended to be should be what you seek in terms of your life -not some fake, painted image manufactured by a culture or other people.
I was standing in a row with who I thought was my sister but was clearly me at different ages: 20, 12, 4... and to my right where no one should be because I was at my present age there was another woman. At first I thought it might have been an older sister -she looked like me but not exactly. Now I realize it was an older version of myself. She was taller and her hair and style were more refined. There was something about her that reminded me of Egypt.
Here Eye Makeup looked like this (via the 1960s):
Her Hair Style more like this:
Then I was flipping through a celebrity magazine and saw 3 or 4 images of her. But the pages were embedded with beads. Her dress was made of beads and they were on the magazine. The back page of the magazine was almost a floral wallpaper design in gold that was also intricately beaded. When I touched her hair on the page it was real hair. I took the pages out of the magazine and intended to keep them.
This is interesting because yesterday I was thinking how manipulative and cruel it was to read Seventeen magazine as a 16 year old. Not realizing those girls had an entire crew of people spending hours on their hair and makeup. I looked at those pictures and thought, "If that's how I'm supposed to look at this age, I'm screwed. I'm ugly and nowhere near to that..."
I think the dream was kind of a response. Your soul/higher self and who you're intended to be should be what you seek in terms of your life -not some fake, painted image manufactured by a culture or other people.
Monday, September 23, 2019
Star Watches & Dream
I debated whether or not to write about this or put it out there because it seemed random/ a little embarrassing but I think I'm meant to at least mention it.
About 3 or 4 months ago I was roaming Instagram the way I usually do and saw a commercial for this incredible "Starry Night" watch I'd never seen before. I come across a lot of unique, spiritually-inspired jewelry that I love, but the way this hit me was like a truck.
I had a deep, impulsive, compulsive desire to find the watch and immediately order it. Problem was they were from Japan? and were being exploited in the U.S. People would take videos and pictures of these watches only available in a foreign country and act like they had them and were a legitimate business selling them. There were at least 4 scamming sites claiming to sell the watches.
I was depressed and frustrated. I thought, "Someone could make soooo much money if they had access to selling these for real."
So I prayed that one day I would have a one of the watches. I don't usually pray for objects, but at this point I was seriously having debates about taking a trip to Japan to track these down in person.
I genuinely thought it would take 5 to 10 years for such a fated match to occur. For the watch to find its way to me. 2 months later a new add popped up on Instagram:
@StarDustWatchesDotCom
I was still skeptical about whether or not it was real, but decided to take a chance and went to their online store -which seemed more legitimate than past fake ones I'd been to.
I was nervous about purchasing anything, but also felt like it was a "swim or drown" kind of moment I might not get again. So I ordered 3 since they were on sale.
I wasn't sure if I'd ever actual receive anything -let alone all 3 -in the mail. It took around 3 weeks or a month.
I couldn't believe I was holding them in my hands. It was surreal.
Like God had heard me and showed me, "Yes it's possible."
It also occurred to me, maybe a watch is easier to bring about than world piece since objects won;t argue against you when you suggest it.
Maybe that's why "The Secret" works. Especially if you have some desperate clinging to an object for some reason.
Now I only wear the watches for special occasions or when I'm feeling doubtful and need a reminder that God's seeing me through. They're my miracle watches.
9/3 Dream: I was at an arcade and the man running it asked if I could help him sell stuff. I said, "ok" and sort of started working there. It was slow during the weeks and busier on the weekends and he was frustrated about what to do during thr week to get more kids to come.
They were having a sale on bracelets: Buy 4 get 1 for free, so I bought a starry night watch and was happy about it. The man who ran the place asked if I was going to buy more: He was worried I'd buy more of this merchandise that was on sale and he'd run out for paying customers. He was using ti as a way to get them in.
But I said, "No I'm happy with this." But I wasn't sure what to do there and how to help him.
---This is pretty much where I'm at with the adventure park. We can't advertise to Denver because it's like dropping a penny in a wishing well full of them hoping we'll spot ours after. We can advertise locally, but it's a smaller crowd. Most people pop in on the weekends and during the week it's a ghost town. Then we have huge sales on activities that are 25-50% off, but no one seems that interested. I'm not sure what to do. It's like trying to shift the flow of a river.
About 3 or 4 months ago I was roaming Instagram the way I usually do and saw a commercial for this incredible "Starry Night" watch I'd never seen before. I come across a lot of unique, spiritually-inspired jewelry that I love, but the way this hit me was like a truck.
I had a deep, impulsive, compulsive desire to find the watch and immediately order it. Problem was they were from Japan? and were being exploited in the U.S. People would take videos and pictures of these watches only available in a foreign country and act like they had them and were a legitimate business selling them. There were at least 4 scamming sites claiming to sell the watches.
I was depressed and frustrated. I thought, "Someone could make soooo much money if they had access to selling these for real."
So I prayed that one day I would have a one of the watches. I don't usually pray for objects, but at this point I was seriously having debates about taking a trip to Japan to track these down in person.
I genuinely thought it would take 5 to 10 years for such a fated match to occur. For the watch to find its way to me. 2 months later a new add popped up on Instagram:
@StarDustWatchesDotCom
I was still skeptical about whether or not it was real, but decided to take a chance and went to their online store -which seemed more legitimate than past fake ones I'd been to.
I was nervous about purchasing anything, but also felt like it was a "swim or drown" kind of moment I might not get again. So I ordered 3 since they were on sale.
I wasn't sure if I'd ever actual receive anything -let alone all 3 -in the mail. It took around 3 weeks or a month.
I couldn't believe I was holding them in my hands. It was surreal.
Like God had heard me and showed me, "Yes it's possible."
It also occurred to me, maybe a watch is easier to bring about than world piece since objects won;t argue against you when you suggest it.
Maybe that's why "The Secret" works. Especially if you have some desperate clinging to an object for some reason.
Now I only wear the watches for special occasions or when I'm feeling doubtful and need a reminder that God's seeing me through. They're my miracle watches.
9/3 Dream: I was at an arcade and the man running it asked if I could help him sell stuff. I said, "ok" and sort of started working there. It was slow during the weeks and busier on the weekends and he was frustrated about what to do during thr week to get more kids to come.
They were having a sale on bracelets: Buy 4 get 1 for free, so I bought a starry night watch and was happy about it. The man who ran the place asked if I was going to buy more: He was worried I'd buy more of this merchandise that was on sale and he'd run out for paying customers. He was using ti as a way to get them in.
But I said, "No I'm happy with this." But I wasn't sure what to do there and how to help him.
---This is pretty much where I'm at with the adventure park. We can't advertise to Denver because it's like dropping a penny in a wishing well full of them hoping we'll spot ours after. We can advertise locally, but it's a smaller crowd. Most people pop in on the weekends and during the week it's a ghost town. Then we have huge sales on activities that are 25-50% off, but no one seems that interested. I'm not sure what to do. It's like trying to shift the flow of a river.
Sunday, September 22, 2019
Clarity & Lessons
It's amazing how simple and straight forward life is when it's not masked by distraction and darkness. There's these waves we've been sailing through like a ship out at sea. Some days it's a storm, and it's dark, and all your focused on is making it through. Other days it's clear skies and you can see the shore as if it was always right there in front of you.
Today is a clear day and there's seagulls flying overhead. Our sails are full and we're headed in the right direction again.
And it's simple. We're hear for all the things we are. Peace, caring, light, grace, authenticity, meaning. To align Earth with Heaven and bring it through. To affirm our souls and the souls of others. To be uplifted and liberated. To return ourselves to what we're inherently connected to in terms of good.
Everything else is just the details and the struggle getting there.
Today is a clear day and there's seagulls flying overhead. Our sails are full and we're headed in the right direction again.
And it's simple. We're hear for all the things we are. Peace, caring, light, grace, authenticity, meaning. To align Earth with Heaven and bring it through. To affirm our souls and the souls of others. To be uplifted and liberated. To return ourselves to what we're inherently connected to in terms of good.
Everything else is just the details and the struggle getting there.
Saturday, September 21, 2019
Zodiac Rabbit Hole
I had a dream the other night that involved me being in the mountains and using a Hiking App to see nearby trails and navigate through the area. It was the most vivid part of that dream so I took it as a sign to download a hiking trails app.
In the process of doing that I also decided I wanted a Constellation/Planet map that could be used for Zodiac guidance. Not easy to find.
I downloaded a constellation app and can now do a better job of understanding where the heck the stars are in the sky.
I then also downloaded the AstroMatrix App.
There's this pattern I have with new spiritual information I'm given where I'll get the general overview of what it consists of and take in the moment what I want from it, but then won't have a greater understanding of specifics. The same went for my natal chart.
I know I'm a Pisces with Cancer tendencies and an Ascending Sagittarius sign. I get it. But I didn't know how all the specifics were laid out.
First off, if you're going to look into this, stick to the actual birth chart that shows which planet is interacting with which zodiac sign. For that, you might want these:
At this point I know the Zodiac pretty well, just not the planets.
Image each zodiac sign and planet represents a Person. How each Person interacts and how the come together or oppose defines an aspect of you.
Like I've always said, this is just a blueprint of your soul/ personality and how you're influenced in life. You can change and be defined by many other things.
When I was 8 years old laying on the couch I had a vision/memory of being in Heaven and CHOOSING my parents and "life path". More than anything else I seemed to focus on family and parents to the extent that I remembered it vividly in that moment. Now if Zodiac influence or career were more important in my life, maybe it'd be different. But my family had a huge impact on me, my genetics, my understanding of life, and more. It was also important for me to know that I chose them -not that they were imposed on me or I was stuck with them.
In that memory I say around 60,000 options of life paths -including the faces of different couples who could be potential parents. It was like a sphere that turned in mid air. I was guided, but also made the call.
Zodiac & Planets are a huge influencer on us. But it is Influence -not Definition. Past life influences also play a part, as well as Fate, and external assistance from God.
What I saw from a having a closer look at all this was the cards I was dealt in this life. Some are good and some are the cards you'd wish to discard.
I have an incredible amount of spiritual potential, power, and understanding. But I'm plagued by negative mind patterns and doubt. 5 of the negative cards on the table are pretty consistent: The Know-It-All, The Obsessed Mind, Restless Mind, Self Doubt, Learning to Trust... And I've worked on becoming more balanced and find ways to ease my mind and let go of worry.
It's good to see what cards are in your deck so you know what to discard and that you can discard. I've also seen the ways God has lead from from crashing into the rocks through the influences of others and from life experiences.
Then there's the things the chart can't tell you.
My life purpose is to bring Heaven through to earth. To have held down the fort when Earth was still in darkness and to pave the way for God and Heaven to come through so that darkness could be brought to light and gotten rid of. You're not going to find that laid out in the cards.
I also know that my past life-as messed up as it was -paved the way for this one. I was a Leo and was a little too firey. In this life I was doused with water and patience as a Pisces until the day would come where I would find the balance between Fire and Water. I wouldn't have survived this life without the influence of Sagittarius Rising sign in me. That ability to persevere instead of just drowning. But without the water sign, I would have made countless mistakes and bombarded my way through life out of ego. Balance.
This is how you move beyond the Zodiac -especially as a whole being in soul.
In the process of doing that I also decided I wanted a Constellation/Planet map that could be used for Zodiac guidance. Not easy to find.
I downloaded a constellation app and can now do a better job of understanding where the heck the stars are in the sky.
I then also downloaded the AstroMatrix App.
There's this pattern I have with new spiritual information I'm given where I'll get the general overview of what it consists of and take in the moment what I want from it, but then won't have a greater understanding of specifics. The same went for my natal chart.
I know I'm a Pisces with Cancer tendencies and an Ascending Sagittarius sign. I get it. But I didn't know how all the specifics were laid out.
First off, if you're going to look into this, stick to the actual birth chart that shows which planet is interacting with which zodiac sign. For that, you might want these:
At this point I know the Zodiac pretty well, just not the planets.
Image each zodiac sign and planet represents a Person. How each Person interacts and how the come together or oppose defines an aspect of you.
Like I've always said, this is just a blueprint of your soul/ personality and how you're influenced in life. You can change and be defined by many other things.
When I was 8 years old laying on the couch I had a vision/memory of being in Heaven and CHOOSING my parents and "life path". More than anything else I seemed to focus on family and parents to the extent that I remembered it vividly in that moment. Now if Zodiac influence or career were more important in my life, maybe it'd be different. But my family had a huge impact on me, my genetics, my understanding of life, and more. It was also important for me to know that I chose them -not that they were imposed on me or I was stuck with them.
In that memory I say around 60,000 options of life paths -including the faces of different couples who could be potential parents. It was like a sphere that turned in mid air. I was guided, but also made the call.
Zodiac & Planets are a huge influencer on us. But it is Influence -not Definition. Past life influences also play a part, as well as Fate, and external assistance from God.
What I saw from a having a closer look at all this was the cards I was dealt in this life. Some are good and some are the cards you'd wish to discard.
I have an incredible amount of spiritual potential, power, and understanding. But I'm plagued by negative mind patterns and doubt. 5 of the negative cards on the table are pretty consistent: The Know-It-All, The Obsessed Mind, Restless Mind, Self Doubt, Learning to Trust... And I've worked on becoming more balanced and find ways to ease my mind and let go of worry.
It's good to see what cards are in your deck so you know what to discard and that you can discard. I've also seen the ways God has lead from from crashing into the rocks through the influences of others and from life experiences.
Then there's the things the chart can't tell you.
My life purpose is to bring Heaven through to earth. To have held down the fort when Earth was still in darkness and to pave the way for God and Heaven to come through so that darkness could be brought to light and gotten rid of. You're not going to find that laid out in the cards.
I also know that my past life-as messed up as it was -paved the way for this one. I was a Leo and was a little too firey. In this life I was doused with water and patience as a Pisces until the day would come where I would find the balance between Fire and Water. I wouldn't have survived this life without the influence of Sagittarius Rising sign in me. That ability to persevere instead of just drowning. But without the water sign, I would have made countless mistakes and bombarded my way through life out of ego. Balance.
This is how you move beyond the Zodiac -especially as a whole being in soul.
In Case These Come True... 2 Dreams
My dreams the past week have been a lot more vivid and are clearly about my near future.
9/17 Dream: I had a dream that had aspects of a dream that came before. Part of it was definitely a repeat/duplicate of a past dream.
I was in the woods and there was a lake. Deanna -the girl who used to work at the adventure park I'm at -was there. When I first had this dream I didn't recognize her but now I do. She was diving in the lake with a bunch of other people and I was being encouraged to dive in as well, but chose to stay on the shore.
At the same time I kept looking in books and seeing visions and images of past Biblical events. This is also a repeat part of the dream. Only this time I remembered which Biblical events I was looking at: The Abduction of Women By Angelic Beings. There's a part in scriptures that were kicked out of the Bible around 500 AD that involve stories of Watchers and a part about Angels begin attracted to women and sleeping with them -which led to the birth of large, giant beings. The Angels were then punished for their transgression.
In my dream I saw an Angel -that looked mischievous/dark/aggressive -take a woman in Greecian wardrobe and fly upward. I twas a wall mural/painting.
Then I took a break from reading into all of that and went to get into my car. It was snowing out and I had a bag of potato chips with me. (I've recently gotten addicted to potato chips -particularly the Lime flavored kind. I dip them in guacamole and pretend they're healthier that way.)
It was hard to maneuver my car out of there since it was a narrow street in snow, so I went uphill and ended up parking at a terrace that was also someone's "backyard". There were mansions in these hills and they overlooked a great mountainscape (the Rockies). I looked out over the mountains in what I hadn't realized was the backyard of a mansion, when 4 little dogs appeared and I started petting them.
This is where my dream has another repeat/duplicate that I've had before. There was an old woman who the dogs (and mansion) belonged to and he was talking to me and we were having a pleasant conversation. At some point her son came out and talked with us as well. He said he was a manager for Kathy Griffin's tour. They were very wealthy and we got along. Then I woke up.
I saw the Rocky Mountains so vividly from that dream. It felt real.
9/20 Dream: This dream had parts that were a little disjointed and confusing in terms of the timeline.
I was being told by someone who seemed like my mom that I needed to go back to college. She said the price of it would be covered and I thought, "Well maybe I can brush up on my Spanish since I've been meaning to anyway..."
Then I saw myself and I was a Hispanic girl with black hair and brown eyes. But it was still from my perspective and emotions and reactions. I showed up and sat down in a seat in a classroom that was outdoors.
I was going to start learning Spanish when I noticed the book in front of me looked more like the Bible. Then a "council" came in of about 5 prestigious, stern, older people. We were told we needed to impress them and meet their approval to move forward with the lesson.
I appeared before the council and said I was interested in learning and came from a very humble place, and they didn't seem convinced. They said I could stay, but wouldn't be apart of their education focus.
After that a group of 4 other students that I bonded with decided the best thing to do was to get their attention by walking out of the college and exploring the surrounding area so they'd have to come looking for us. We then explored side streets and got lost, but didn't really care.
Then they came and found us. They still hadn't changed their minds and thought we weren't dedicated to the cause. And I thought, "If I'm willing to get lost and potentially hurt myself to get their attention then screw this. I don't want it." I stopped caring about what they thought.
9/17 Dream: I had a dream that had aspects of a dream that came before. Part of it was definitely a repeat/duplicate of a past dream.
I was in the woods and there was a lake. Deanna -the girl who used to work at the adventure park I'm at -was there. When I first had this dream I didn't recognize her but now I do. She was diving in the lake with a bunch of other people and I was being encouraged to dive in as well, but chose to stay on the shore.
At the same time I kept looking in books and seeing visions and images of past Biblical events. This is also a repeat part of the dream. Only this time I remembered which Biblical events I was looking at: The Abduction of Women By Angelic Beings. There's a part in scriptures that were kicked out of the Bible around 500 AD that involve stories of Watchers and a part about Angels begin attracted to women and sleeping with them -which led to the birth of large, giant beings. The Angels were then punished for their transgression.
In my dream I saw an Angel -that looked mischievous/dark/aggressive -take a woman in Greecian wardrobe and fly upward. I twas a wall mural/painting.
Then I took a break from reading into all of that and went to get into my car. It was snowing out and I had a bag of potato chips with me. (I've recently gotten addicted to potato chips -particularly the Lime flavored kind. I dip them in guacamole and pretend they're healthier that way.)
It was hard to maneuver my car out of there since it was a narrow street in snow, so I went uphill and ended up parking at a terrace that was also someone's "backyard". There were mansions in these hills and they overlooked a great mountainscape (the Rockies). I looked out over the mountains in what I hadn't realized was the backyard of a mansion, when 4 little dogs appeared and I started petting them.
This is where my dream has another repeat/duplicate that I've had before. There was an old woman who the dogs (and mansion) belonged to and he was talking to me and we were having a pleasant conversation. At some point her son came out and talked with us as well. He said he was a manager for Kathy Griffin's tour. They were very wealthy and we got along. Then I woke up.
I saw the Rocky Mountains so vividly from that dream. It felt real.
9/20 Dream: This dream had parts that were a little disjointed and confusing in terms of the timeline.
I was being told by someone who seemed like my mom that I needed to go back to college. She said the price of it would be covered and I thought, "Well maybe I can brush up on my Spanish since I've been meaning to anyway..."
Then I saw myself and I was a Hispanic girl with black hair and brown eyes. But it was still from my perspective and emotions and reactions. I showed up and sat down in a seat in a classroom that was outdoors.
I was going to start learning Spanish when I noticed the book in front of me looked more like the Bible. Then a "council" came in of about 5 prestigious, stern, older people. We were told we needed to impress them and meet their approval to move forward with the lesson.
I appeared before the council and said I was interested in learning and came from a very humble place, and they didn't seem convinced. They said I could stay, but wouldn't be apart of their education focus.
After that a group of 4 other students that I bonded with decided the best thing to do was to get their attention by walking out of the college and exploring the surrounding area so they'd have to come looking for us. We then explored side streets and got lost, but didn't really care.
Then they came and found us. They still hadn't changed their minds and thought we weren't dedicated to the cause. And I thought, "If I'm willing to get lost and potentially hurt myself to get their attention then screw this. I don't want it." I stopped caring about what they thought.
Thursday, September 19, 2019
Planet Resentment
So apparently Saturn just came out of a 5 month retrograde that's been screwing us over. Found out a couple days ago. We have 13 or so long-standing retrogrades that are coming out of their locked-in positions this year. And you start to look at it all and think, "I hate planets."
And I've been going back and forth on it for the past couple days, and this year in particular. Why? Why do planets hold that much influence? I was in a distant sort of denial-based ignorance for a while, but it's hard to refute now.
I explained to someone who followed astrology who then spoke the same words in unison with me, "Well if the moon holds sway over the ocean and WE'RE made of water..." So we all get the basic concept.
But then there are questions like:
#1 Are we just the result of millennia's worth of planet shifts?
#2 Why does it sway our vices/ virtues/ emotions/ culture/ tendencies? Why does it seem to effect us that way?
#3 Are all the wars and oppressive regimes and dictators just the result of an inevitable culmination in the "space energy" of those times?
#4 Was it designed to be this way? Can we supersede it?
#5 What happens if we go to a completely different universe without these particular planets in orbit? Would there be more freedom, less, or a whole new set of influences we haven't experienced by whatever is orbiting out there?
#6 Why don't we study space more in school? I cam STILL only name you maybe 5 planets (without consulting Google) and I have no idea how many there are total. I only know people decided Pluto wasn't one of them -which is irrelevant in comparison to the question of whether that object still holds the same kind of influence as other planets do.
#7 There have been hundreds of cultures the world over throughout human history that, if for no other reason than boredom, would look up into the sky and know that map by heart. The way we know Netflix exists and can name at least one show on it, they would name star constellations and the individual bodies of light that comprised it. Why did we lose that?
And if I'm advocating for a greater understanding of space you know a mind has been deeply effected and changed. I hated space. It seems empty and cold and vast. I like nature and the ocean and forests... not planets. But in recent years everything's changed. We should no more.
For my own sake, as I often like to do when I find out I'm out of the loop on something I should know, I look it up and right it down (thank you wikipedia):
The Planets:
- How many planets are in our solar system? 8 or 12. Good to know science is just as confused as me.
The current official answer is 8: Earth, Mercury, Venus, Mars, Jupiter, Saturn, Uranus, and Neptune.
It was debated whether or not to add 4 more: Ceres, Churon, Pluto, and a new one UB313 (a crappy name for a potential planet...)
As far as I can tell at least one of those is included in astrology as an "influencer" based on its position, so I say include them. And 12 is a sacred spiritual number that in my mind translates to "A group of sacred bodies coming together for of great mission" so it fits.
At the same time astrology also acknowledges the moon and sun (the sun being a star and the moon is a "satellite").
Basic Astrological Understandings of What the Planets Mean:
-Moon: Womanhood/ Mother/ Soft/ Emotions/ Calm/ Intuition/Flow/ Yin/ Internal
-Sun: Energy/ External/ Yang/ Masculine/ Action/ Expansion/ Ego/ Power/ Pride
-Venus: Beauty/ Harmony/ Fertility/ Charm/ Romance
-Mercury: Communication/ Commerce/ Travel/ Messages/ Clever/ Crafty/ Mentality/ Adapting
-Mars: War/ Strength/ Aggression/ Conflict/ Ambition/ Impulse
-Ceres: Seasons/ Mother/ Provider/ Harvest/ Capacity/ Pregnancy/ Relationships/ Natural Cycles
-Jupiter: Leader/ Mentor/ Teacher/ Lord/ Prosperity/ Growth/ Good Fortune
-Neptune: Idealism, Dreams, Illusion, Artistry, Empathy, Vagueness
-Saturn: Duty/ Punishment/ Honor/ Hardship/ Diligence/ Status/ Industrious/ Ethics/ Productivity
-Uranus: Sky, Divine Beings, Swift Change, Originality, Uniqueness, Freedom, Humanitarianism
-Pluto: Power, Death, Birth, Subconscious, Spiritual Influence, Revelation, Transformation, Fate
Planets I'm Cool With: Moon, Sun, Venus, Mercury, Ceres, Jupiter, Neptune, Uranus, Pluto, Ceres
Planets I'm Not Fond Of: Mars is a Jerk. Saturn is too up-tight and reminds me of a judge in 18th century England that Charles Dickens would have written complaints about.
And thanks to Wiki we can see how the different planets interact:
And I've been going back and forth on it for the past couple days, and this year in particular. Why? Why do planets hold that much influence? I was in a distant sort of denial-based ignorance for a while, but it's hard to refute now.
I explained to someone who followed astrology who then spoke the same words in unison with me, "Well if the moon holds sway over the ocean and WE'RE made of water..." So we all get the basic concept.
But then there are questions like:
#1 Are we just the result of millennia's worth of planet shifts?
#2 Why does it sway our vices/ virtues/ emotions/ culture/ tendencies? Why does it seem to effect us that way?
#3 Are all the wars and oppressive regimes and dictators just the result of an inevitable culmination in the "space energy" of those times?
#4 Was it designed to be this way? Can we supersede it?
#5 What happens if we go to a completely different universe without these particular planets in orbit? Would there be more freedom, less, or a whole new set of influences we haven't experienced by whatever is orbiting out there?
#6 Why don't we study space more in school? I cam STILL only name you maybe 5 planets (without consulting Google) and I have no idea how many there are total. I only know people decided Pluto wasn't one of them -which is irrelevant in comparison to the question of whether that object still holds the same kind of influence as other planets do.
#7 There have been hundreds of cultures the world over throughout human history that, if for no other reason than boredom, would look up into the sky and know that map by heart. The way we know Netflix exists and can name at least one show on it, they would name star constellations and the individual bodies of light that comprised it. Why did we lose that?
And if I'm advocating for a greater understanding of space you know a mind has been deeply effected and changed. I hated space. It seems empty and cold and vast. I like nature and the ocean and forests... not planets. But in recent years everything's changed. We should no more.
For my own sake, as I often like to do when I find out I'm out of the loop on something I should know, I look it up and right it down (thank you wikipedia):
The Planets:
- How many planets are in our solar system? 8 or 12. Good to know science is just as confused as me.
The current official answer is 8: Earth, Mercury, Venus, Mars, Jupiter, Saturn, Uranus, and Neptune.
It was debated whether or not to add 4 more: Ceres, Churon, Pluto, and a new one UB313 (a crappy name for a potential planet...)
As far as I can tell at least one of those is included in astrology as an "influencer" based on its position, so I say include them. And 12 is a sacred spiritual number that in my mind translates to "A group of sacred bodies coming together for of great mission" so it fits.
At the same time astrology also acknowledges the moon and sun (the sun being a star and the moon is a "satellite").
Basic Astrological Understandings of What the Planets Mean:
-Moon: Womanhood/ Mother/ Soft/ Emotions/ Calm/ Intuition/Flow/ Yin/ Internal
-Sun: Energy/ External/ Yang/ Masculine/ Action/ Expansion/ Ego/ Power/ Pride
-Venus: Beauty/ Harmony/ Fertility/ Charm/ Romance
-Mercury: Communication/ Commerce/ Travel/ Messages/ Clever/ Crafty/ Mentality/ Adapting
-Mars: War/ Strength/ Aggression/ Conflict/ Ambition/ Impulse
-Ceres: Seasons/ Mother/ Provider/ Harvest/ Capacity/ Pregnancy/ Relationships/ Natural Cycles
-Jupiter: Leader/ Mentor/ Teacher/ Lord/ Prosperity/ Growth/ Good Fortune
-Neptune: Idealism, Dreams, Illusion, Artistry, Empathy, Vagueness
-Saturn: Duty/ Punishment/ Honor/ Hardship/ Diligence/ Status/ Industrious/ Ethics/ Productivity
-Uranus: Sky, Divine Beings, Swift Change, Originality, Uniqueness, Freedom, Humanitarianism
-Pluto: Power, Death, Birth, Subconscious, Spiritual Influence, Revelation, Transformation, Fate
Planets I'm Cool With: Moon, Sun, Venus, Mercury, Ceres, Jupiter, Neptune, Uranus, Pluto, Ceres
Planets I'm Not Fond Of: Mars is a Jerk. Saturn is too up-tight and reminds me of a judge in 18th century England that Charles Dickens would have written complaints about.
And thanks to Wiki we can see how the different planets interact:
Example of how I interpret this chart:
Mercury (War) hates Venus (Love), but likes Sun (Ego/Energy) and finds joy in Pluto (Death/Power).
If Mars and the Sun are partying together... Run!
Wednesday, September 18, 2019
Chop the Firewood
There's a spiritual book I love called Be Here Now. It's pretty incredible that someone from the U.S, who went to India in the 70s could create something that's a perfect blend of artistry and wisdom in writing. It keeps you engaged and focused on what you're reading.
But there was this one page that was talking about having incredible spiritual epiphanies and miraculous breakthroughs and then having to carry on and just Do Life.
What do you do when the Heavens have opened up and the relevance of what we're doing in our daily lives is rendered irrelevant in the grander scheme of things? "You chop the firewood". You brush your teeth and get your car keys and walk out your front door. But you do it more presently and with a great aerial view of your life and life in general.
Right now I'm putting out fires.
The problem with paralleling with not just people but businesses is they start to have all of the same problems simultaneously.
I'm entering keywords into 100s of Youtube videos to gain more visibility and traction for one business. The next day I'm entering in 100s of keywords in Pinterest to gain more visibility for another business.
I'm entering a log in Excel tracking all the videos in Youtube, their titles and links. I'm entering a log in Excel tracking all of the items being sold in an online store, their titles and links.
It's incredible how the work I'm doing mirrors from one business to the next.
The theme of today is: Login issues. Website malfunctions in html and javascript. Sending important emails out waiting on a reply from people who aren't responding. Time crunch to get all this done by hopefully noon today.
I was having issues with an email marketing tool called Synduit in one company. Mailchimp went down with my other company. They're now both back on line and working great.
Marketing and graphic design are very Go! Go! Go! and wait.... wait... wait...
I work quickly, but if my work relies on other people contributing in some way it's a lot of waiting. It's intense and high-pressure some days and boring as toast others.
And the whole time you think: God has a greater purpose intended for me and this isn't it. I was meant to help these people and these businesses -that was fated. But this day in and out running around and sitting still is not for me.
There's more to this universe and this life and this mind and soul.
But still you chop the wood. And you put out the fires.
But there was this one page that was talking about having incredible spiritual epiphanies and miraculous breakthroughs and then having to carry on and just Do Life.
What do you do when the Heavens have opened up and the relevance of what we're doing in our daily lives is rendered irrelevant in the grander scheme of things? "You chop the firewood". You brush your teeth and get your car keys and walk out your front door. But you do it more presently and with a great aerial view of your life and life in general.
Right now I'm putting out fires.
The problem with paralleling with not just people but businesses is they start to have all of the same problems simultaneously.
I'm entering keywords into 100s of Youtube videos to gain more visibility and traction for one business. The next day I'm entering in 100s of keywords in Pinterest to gain more visibility for another business.
I'm entering a log in Excel tracking all the videos in Youtube, their titles and links. I'm entering a log in Excel tracking all of the items being sold in an online store, their titles and links.
It's incredible how the work I'm doing mirrors from one business to the next.
The theme of today is: Login issues. Website malfunctions in html and javascript. Sending important emails out waiting on a reply from people who aren't responding. Time crunch to get all this done by hopefully noon today.
I was having issues with an email marketing tool called Synduit in one company. Mailchimp went down with my other company. They're now both back on line and working great.
Marketing and graphic design are very Go! Go! Go! and wait.... wait... wait...
I work quickly, but if my work relies on other people contributing in some way it's a lot of waiting. It's intense and high-pressure some days and boring as toast others.
And the whole time you think: God has a greater purpose intended for me and this isn't it. I was meant to help these people and these businesses -that was fated. But this day in and out running around and sitting still is not for me.
There's more to this universe and this life and this mind and soul.
But still you chop the wood. And you put out the fires.
Sunday, September 15, 2019
Trip to Church September 2019
Return to Church
Today was my first trip back to church in many months, maybe even a year or more. I was drawn to go back and knew it was time.
When I entered the church I was greeted by to women who worked there and then one of the woman said, "Can I get a hug". It caught me off guard.
I tend to live alone and be very solitary so I don't get much physical affection from people and for a complete stranger to open her arms to me, I wasn't quit expecting it. And I hugged her like a would a relative I hadn't seen for a while or a friend/coworker. But her hug was less timid and a lot warmer.
After she hugged me I walked away and started smiling and feeling very happy, like a kid who was just handed an ice cream cone out of nowhere. I realized pretty early on in the service how disconnected I've become to other people.
I knew this would happen. I left the vertical farm and my coworker/friend-family and knew there was a great risk for becoming cut-off and disjointed from people because of that.
But I realized at church today the best way I interact with people is by praying for them from a distance. I can only connect personally to individuals that I trust -which tend to be few and very authentic. For others, I'd rather keep my distance and love them as a soul without requiring further knowledge of them.
Which is why I love this church. It's warm. The people are caring. I feel God's presence profoundly there. It makes me feel whole. And I can be with people, in a large group, without having to know them or connect with every single one.
Castles
Today was my first trip back to church in many months, maybe even a year or more. I was drawn to go back and knew it was time.
When I entered the church I was greeted by to women who worked there and then one of the woman said, "Can I get a hug". It caught me off guard.
I tend to live alone and be very solitary so I don't get much physical affection from people and for a complete stranger to open her arms to me, I wasn't quit expecting it. And I hugged her like a would a relative I hadn't seen for a while or a friend/coworker. But her hug was less timid and a lot warmer.
After she hugged me I walked away and started smiling and feeling very happy, like a kid who was just handed an ice cream cone out of nowhere. I realized pretty early on in the service how disconnected I've become to other people.
I knew this would happen. I left the vertical farm and my coworker/friend-family and knew there was a great risk for becoming cut-off and disjointed from people because of that.
But I realized at church today the best way I interact with people is by praying for them from a distance. I can only connect personally to individuals that I trust -which tend to be few and very authentic. For others, I'd rather keep my distance and love them as a soul without requiring further knowledge of them.
Which is why I love this church. It's warm. The people are caring. I feel God's presence profoundly there. It makes me feel whole. And I can be with people, in a large group, without having to know them or connect with every single one.
Castles
I thought about this the other day after watching another history drama on Netflix. In many cultures over the world, but particularly Europe, there was this pattern that emerged.
A king/ruler would want their homestead to be the epicenter of their entire country and world. A crowned jewel. They wanted foreign diplomats and leaders arriving from other countries to be in awe of their palace and to bow before their glory, wealth, and power.
So they invested heavily in their main kingdom and castles. The people then suffered. The towns most peasants and common folk lived where pretty deplorable and meager. All the wealth went to the epicenter and the few that reigned and ruled there. A very small group of people ever got to see and enjoy the palace and palace life.
Today palaces usually exist as non-profit historical sites. Thousands of people flock and are guided through the corridors of now empty castles and monuments at very little cost to the individual. They exist for everyone and no one. We can see hundreds of these places the world over today, even if we're just looking at photos. They're accessible and free.
It says something about ego. When we set ourselves at the center of the world and say there is nothing worth knowing beyond us, we miss everything. It's hollow. When we open ourselves up in humility to everything that's out there we become more and are filled. Sharing, not hoarding.
I once walked into a man's mansion. He essentially had 2 houses in one. He had the skeleton of a prehistoric cave bear at the foot of his spiral staircase. Dozens of remains of dinosaurs, including fossilized velociraptor eggs.
And I thought, "Is this legal? For someone to own so much privately that the world should be able to see?" Something's seem like they're meant for all of us as people.
Like the Amazon Rainforest. It's not just yours, Brazil. It's essential to the environmental health of the world.
When ISIS ransacked pyramids and tombs in Egypt and destroyed and sold off hundreds of ancient items found, that was a theft to the world.
The more we start to see that everything is for us, the less we'll keep things to ourselves including ourselves.
We're meant to be for each other.
Thursday, September 12, 2019
Spiritual Download -September 2019
Ok, decided I'm just going to list out all the dreams/notes from my journal and the past couple days. It will be random.
Pisces Dream 9/11/19:
I had a dream that I was a fish and there was a huge city under a cave, but it was like dead corral -dried and empty -so I stayed under a rock outside of the city. Then something momentous happened and a world or egg was dispersed from me. It was then my job to look after this precious sphere. A diver came along and put me higher up with the egg in an alcove by the cave with a window looking out at the sea. Knowing I'd need help looking after the sphere/egg the diver grabbed ahold of a clown fish who tried getting away but couldn't. Clown fish are known for being great at looking after their eggs. He put the clown fish with me and we took turns/shifts looking after the sphere.
The dream was interesting because I just told my friend yesterday that I don't like the city of Denver and avoid it because it's crowded, spiritually devoid, and overwhelming.
Bubble of Protection:
I've been getting back into body again. Every time my soul syncs back into body it's like it "clicks" -like a seat belt fastening in -and it feels right. And I realize I like "popping out" as a soul to better perceive of the spiritual realm around and above, but then I get drained as a soul and it leaves me weaker and more susceptible to negative spiritual interactions. When I click back into body, Heaven comes around me and creates a sort of protective bubble my soul within can then connect to and be shielded by. I then emulate as a soul from my body -which heals it and nourishes it. Both my body and soul are then in better stead. But there is still this instinct for maintaining that external connection from within. It has to be maintained, otherwise you get lost as a soul within yourself.
Genetic Memory:
They say scientifically when you're born you're given the genetics and come from essentially the same womb as your grandmother.
People really need to understand what we write into our DNA in terms of energy, memory, and experiences gets passed along. Up until now it's been a negative history transcribed and embedded generation after generation. I'll give 2 examples:
I don't know what happened with my great, great, great grandmother on my mom's side but there are 2 patterns that emerge with the women in my family:
1. No sons are born, only girls.
2. Divorce consistently happens -which is probably one of the reasons why my sister and I never married or haven't yet -trying to change that pattern.
3. Rape/ uterus issues. My great grandmother had colon cancer, my grandmother had uterine cancer, my mother had endometriosis and got a hysterectomy, and I had ovarian cysts. I won;t go into which members of my family have been raped, but domestic violence and that abuse have happened and are clearly another aspect of this pattern.
I can give other examples, but i have a lot to cover. Like I said before, we're all working our way towards improving patterns we were dealt like cards and changing our spirits and genetics for the better. Do no harm to others, make peace with what harm has been done to you. Clear everything out before having a child to the best of your ability.
Notes from My Journal:
-"Prehistory started with art on the walls, then written word, and now TV". In other words, we've evolved the way we convey the truth. It's the shift from black and white photos to HD TV. We've gotten clearer and more discerning and can SEE the truth the world over in an accessible way.
-Dec 28th: "More evil making it's last stand in the world. Hurricane. 26 kids. Stabbing in China. Fireman being shot. Murders. Gang rape in India."
I keep forgetting how we're living in the past and the way for the future is coming through in ways we're still not registering. Because all of that news registers as "old". Like I remember that, but it was from a couple years ago so it's not currently "relevant". And yet it's old historical cycles that are dying out and we;re moving further away from. And the past is still happening currently with all these things we get wounded by and caught up in we'll forget 2 years from now. We all move on in the end.
-"Dad text me, 'Thank you for being my daughter. Love you.' out of the blue. We then saw a movie together. He doesn't usually say things like that."
I'm still not sure if this was a dream I recorded or this actually happened. You think I'd remember something that BIG, given my dad never really says things like that. When I first read it I was like, "What??? This happened??? Even in a dream..."
-Dream: Had a dream that had to do with Django. There were slaves being whipped by men with Bibles. It was an injustice, and then they went after gay people. They were talking about "good souls" and "bad souls" and hunted Jews, Hindus, and other innocent people. Old Testament verses New Messiah.
-Dream about George Orwell. Where there's a will there's a way. Saw two 10 year olds take on a Nazi.
Wheat sacrifice to the lamb. Wheat burned when pulled -wrap in stead. Types of people and how they handle problems.
Cat in cage with mouse; it's caught restless -prefers chaos/action. It hates the solution. I introduce X equation (doing a math problem) to explain. Another person mistakes X for a letter. I'm trying to explain "Serenity Theorem". He leaves. Woman there won;t listen to me, only Orwell.
Cat found with twisted back. Won't take to the hospital. Excuses. I'm willing to take it to the hospital. I wake up.
------Ok, this is why I like to thoroughly write out my dreams. I leave key phrases in hopes of triggering the memory of the dream, but it doesn't work so I've written more descriptively in recent years. No idea what some of this is alluding to, but George Orwell has come up a lot in recent years -finally clarifying that "Yes, the government does f*cked up things we aren't aware of." This dream may have been me or my higher self trying to refocus on Serenity and Peace -that everything will work out in the end -but people in general including my lower self are distracted and more caught up in politics/government/the cat.
-"Zodiac Theory of Spirituality: Spiritual Gifts Given by Earth, Wind, Fire Water"
All people, depending on what element their born into, have a unique spiritual gift to give championed by that element. Earth people = grounding, warm, caring. Fire = Determined, paving the way, change and resilience. Air = Clever, Intellectual Understanding, Leadership, Clarity. Water = Creativity, Emotional/Spiritual Connection, Other-Worldly.
-Things that challenge a zodiac birthdate/pre-prescribed fate: Yin/Yang energy, Interests and Values, The way you were raised/culture, independent thought, whether you choose to change, interactions with other people who influence you
-Are some Zodiac Signs better as female or male? Meaning their tendencies and energy are more suited for one than the other in terms of balance and fulfillment -mostly due to our cultural norms around gender? Example: Leo for women seems to be better because it can have issues with Ego, and in men it tends to lead to abuses of power, where for women it Empowers them and they lead others in a caring way.
-Animals and the Zodiac: Treasure was a Gemini, Owen is a Cancer, and Kitten was a Leo (they had the exact vices and virtues and demeanor)
-Biology and Gender: Man implants seed (Yang external energy), woman takes in seed (Yin internal energy). Has nothing to do with reproduction and physical gender and everything to do with DNA and the influences of culture and generations of reinforced. mentality.
-Instincts differ: Control/Overcome and Survive/Subdue (animal desires and instincts)
-Monogamy = Hire form of social evolution? A Choice - verses following an animal instinct to mate with everything.
-Priest arrested for giving a person "sanctuary" at a church. He said, "That's the great thing about my job. I can do it anywhere."
-When trying to evolve from past life patterns, you are often forced to choose between paving a new way and adhering to the same social norms that led you to fail before (given how much times hadn't really changed in the past).
-Pattern of having kids under certain Zodiac signs.
1 woman: 2 Leo sons
Dad + mom: 2 Pisces daughters
Laura: All Capricorns in their family, 2 children
Another family: All Leo children except for last daughter
Another families children: All Air signs except for last daughter
-Musicians, Dancers, Actors: Have to emote their personality and use appearances and fashion. Like a blank canvas that paints on itself.
-God is invisible. God's beauty is in the stars and in His creations.
-Islamic Art (Sacred geometry), Jewish Art, Christian Art (depth, golden, Renaissance painters), Buddhist Art (Nature, Calm Demeanor), Hindu Art (Color, Movement, Detail)
-Grow with Truth. Evolve with It. Change Your "Mind"
-Unconscious/ in a coma/ no arm. Conscious/in a bed/arm is there. Enlightened/ Alive-running-moving/ grabbing something with your arm. With enlightenment you can truly Achieve.
-Married Couples: To change or not to change for the person that you're with? On the one hand, you're a soul on a journey and exist independently. On the other, in union and with change in good, fated ways you can be fulfilled in a kind of way. Ultimately people should change for themselves in ways they consent to.
-Gone with the Wind: Scarlet, strong but spoiled. Prostitute: Helpful and Kind. Sick Woman: Forgiving and Gracious. And yet only Scarlet is remembered.
-Disease Kids. Immunization. Healthcare Costs. If we're not putting children first, we're coming in last as a people.
Well, those were my notes.
Pisces Dream 9/11/19:
I had a dream that I was a fish and there was a huge city under a cave, but it was like dead corral -dried and empty -so I stayed under a rock outside of the city. Then something momentous happened and a world or egg was dispersed from me. It was then my job to look after this precious sphere. A diver came along and put me higher up with the egg in an alcove by the cave with a window looking out at the sea. Knowing I'd need help looking after the sphere/egg the diver grabbed ahold of a clown fish who tried getting away but couldn't. Clown fish are known for being great at looking after their eggs. He put the clown fish with me and we took turns/shifts looking after the sphere.
The dream was interesting because I just told my friend yesterday that I don't like the city of Denver and avoid it because it's crowded, spiritually devoid, and overwhelming.
Bubble of Protection:
I've been getting back into body again. Every time my soul syncs back into body it's like it "clicks" -like a seat belt fastening in -and it feels right. And I realize I like "popping out" as a soul to better perceive of the spiritual realm around and above, but then I get drained as a soul and it leaves me weaker and more susceptible to negative spiritual interactions. When I click back into body, Heaven comes around me and creates a sort of protective bubble my soul within can then connect to and be shielded by. I then emulate as a soul from my body -which heals it and nourishes it. Both my body and soul are then in better stead. But there is still this instinct for maintaining that external connection from within. It has to be maintained, otherwise you get lost as a soul within yourself.
Genetic Memory:
They say scientifically when you're born you're given the genetics and come from essentially the same womb as your grandmother.
People really need to understand what we write into our DNA in terms of energy, memory, and experiences gets passed along. Up until now it's been a negative history transcribed and embedded generation after generation. I'll give 2 examples:
I don't know what happened with my great, great, great grandmother on my mom's side but there are 2 patterns that emerge with the women in my family:
1. No sons are born, only girls.
2. Divorce consistently happens -which is probably one of the reasons why my sister and I never married or haven't yet -trying to change that pattern.
3. Rape/ uterus issues. My great grandmother had colon cancer, my grandmother had uterine cancer, my mother had endometriosis and got a hysterectomy, and I had ovarian cysts. I won;t go into which members of my family have been raped, but domestic violence and that abuse have happened and are clearly another aspect of this pattern.
I can give other examples, but i have a lot to cover. Like I said before, we're all working our way towards improving patterns we were dealt like cards and changing our spirits and genetics for the better. Do no harm to others, make peace with what harm has been done to you. Clear everything out before having a child to the best of your ability.
Notes from My Journal:
-"Prehistory started with art on the walls, then written word, and now TV". In other words, we've evolved the way we convey the truth. It's the shift from black and white photos to HD TV. We've gotten clearer and more discerning and can SEE the truth the world over in an accessible way.
-Dec 28th: "More evil making it's last stand in the world. Hurricane. 26 kids. Stabbing in China. Fireman being shot. Murders. Gang rape in India."
I keep forgetting how we're living in the past and the way for the future is coming through in ways we're still not registering. Because all of that news registers as "old". Like I remember that, but it was from a couple years ago so it's not currently "relevant". And yet it's old historical cycles that are dying out and we;re moving further away from. And the past is still happening currently with all these things we get wounded by and caught up in we'll forget 2 years from now. We all move on in the end.
-"Dad text me, 'Thank you for being my daughter. Love you.' out of the blue. We then saw a movie together. He doesn't usually say things like that."
I'm still not sure if this was a dream I recorded or this actually happened. You think I'd remember something that BIG, given my dad never really says things like that. When I first read it I was like, "What??? This happened??? Even in a dream..."
-Dream: Had a dream that had to do with Django. There were slaves being whipped by men with Bibles. It was an injustice, and then they went after gay people. They were talking about "good souls" and "bad souls" and hunted Jews, Hindus, and other innocent people. Old Testament verses New Messiah.
-Dream about George Orwell. Where there's a will there's a way. Saw two 10 year olds take on a Nazi.
Wheat sacrifice to the lamb. Wheat burned when pulled -wrap in stead. Types of people and how they handle problems.
Cat in cage with mouse; it's caught restless -prefers chaos/action. It hates the solution. I introduce X equation (doing a math problem) to explain. Another person mistakes X for a letter. I'm trying to explain "Serenity Theorem". He leaves. Woman there won;t listen to me, only Orwell.
Cat found with twisted back. Won't take to the hospital. Excuses. I'm willing to take it to the hospital. I wake up.
------Ok, this is why I like to thoroughly write out my dreams. I leave key phrases in hopes of triggering the memory of the dream, but it doesn't work so I've written more descriptively in recent years. No idea what some of this is alluding to, but George Orwell has come up a lot in recent years -finally clarifying that "Yes, the government does f*cked up things we aren't aware of." This dream may have been me or my higher self trying to refocus on Serenity and Peace -that everything will work out in the end -but people in general including my lower self are distracted and more caught up in politics/government/the cat.
-"Zodiac Theory of Spirituality: Spiritual Gifts Given by Earth, Wind, Fire Water"
All people, depending on what element their born into, have a unique spiritual gift to give championed by that element. Earth people = grounding, warm, caring. Fire = Determined, paving the way, change and resilience. Air = Clever, Intellectual Understanding, Leadership, Clarity. Water = Creativity, Emotional/Spiritual Connection, Other-Worldly.
-Things that challenge a zodiac birthdate/pre-prescribed fate: Yin/Yang energy, Interests and Values, The way you were raised/culture, independent thought, whether you choose to change, interactions with other people who influence you
-Are some Zodiac Signs better as female or male? Meaning their tendencies and energy are more suited for one than the other in terms of balance and fulfillment -mostly due to our cultural norms around gender? Example: Leo for women seems to be better because it can have issues with Ego, and in men it tends to lead to abuses of power, where for women it Empowers them and they lead others in a caring way.
-Animals and the Zodiac: Treasure was a Gemini, Owen is a Cancer, and Kitten was a Leo (they had the exact vices and virtues and demeanor)
-Biology and Gender: Man implants seed (Yang external energy), woman takes in seed (Yin internal energy). Has nothing to do with reproduction and physical gender and everything to do with DNA and the influences of culture and generations of reinforced. mentality.
-Instincts differ: Control/Overcome and Survive/Subdue (animal desires and instincts)
-Monogamy = Hire form of social evolution? A Choice - verses following an animal instinct to mate with everything.
-Priest arrested for giving a person "sanctuary" at a church. He said, "That's the great thing about my job. I can do it anywhere."
-When trying to evolve from past life patterns, you are often forced to choose between paving a new way and adhering to the same social norms that led you to fail before (given how much times hadn't really changed in the past).
-Pattern of having kids under certain Zodiac signs.
1 woman: 2 Leo sons
Dad + mom: 2 Pisces daughters
Laura: All Capricorns in their family, 2 children
Another family: All Leo children except for last daughter
Another families children: All Air signs except for last daughter
-Musicians, Dancers, Actors: Have to emote their personality and use appearances and fashion. Like a blank canvas that paints on itself.
-God is invisible. God's beauty is in the stars and in His creations.
-Islamic Art (Sacred geometry), Jewish Art, Christian Art (depth, golden, Renaissance painters), Buddhist Art (Nature, Calm Demeanor), Hindu Art (Color, Movement, Detail)
-Grow with Truth. Evolve with It. Change Your "Mind"
-Unconscious/ in a coma/ no arm. Conscious/in a bed/arm is there. Enlightened/ Alive-running-moving/ grabbing something with your arm. With enlightenment you can truly Achieve.
-Married Couples: To change or not to change for the person that you're with? On the one hand, you're a soul on a journey and exist independently. On the other, in union and with change in good, fated ways you can be fulfilled in a kind of way. Ultimately people should change for themselves in ways they consent to.
-Gone with the Wind: Scarlet, strong but spoiled. Prostitute: Helpful and Kind. Sick Woman: Forgiving and Gracious. And yet only Scarlet is remembered.
-Disease Kids. Immunization. Healthcare Costs. If we're not putting children first, we're coming in last as a people.
Well, those were my notes.
Wednesday, September 11, 2019
Found a Dream Journal
I don't know why I feel compelled to write all of a sudden, but writing is as much a passion for me as art has been so I'm not going to argue. These things always go in waves: A passion and fixation on dancing, music, movies, fashion, cooking, architecture and interior design, artwork, written works... It's all gold in this new Renaissance we're living in.
And I feel like God was answering me today about a complaint made yesterday about me not having written down things I thought I had in previous blogs. I was looking around and happened to find 3 journals today: A journal I thought was empty but was the beginnings of a dream journal from a couple years ago, a journal of spiritual concepts and notes, and a blank journal meant for me to write about travels.
I was like, "Jackpot!"
But then I was kind of pissed at myself again for apparently giving up on the dream journal only a couple of months in and not carrying it on daily. But last night's dreams kind fo clarified that reason for me.
I dreamt as I have many times about dinosaurs roaming the streets, hundreds of people running around trying to escape, and me cleverly evading death by sneakily peering around corners and bolting. Most people would just call that a run-of-the-mill nightmare, but at this point given how consistent it's been I think there's more to it.
It's not Jurassic Park where I'm at another location/island where they're running around. It's the modern, everyday world on the streets. I think it has to do with my anxiety around crowded places, cityscapes, and just trying to navigate and survive driving through traffic. I get uneasy and overwhelmed in it all, and usually try and avoid places with lots of people.
So Dinosaur = Archaic Survival Instinct that seems large and overwhelming. Modern World = Physical/Social World around me. At least that's my interpretation. Let's hope it's not a literal vision for the future...
I had several other dreams but can't remember them well and just know they were kind of irrelevant. So keeping a dream journal is challenging when dreams either don't happen or aren't that relevant.
And I feel like God was answering me today about a complaint made yesterday about me not having written down things I thought I had in previous blogs. I was looking around and happened to find 3 journals today: A journal I thought was empty but was the beginnings of a dream journal from a couple years ago, a journal of spiritual concepts and notes, and a blank journal meant for me to write about travels.
I was like, "Jackpot!"
But then I was kind of pissed at myself again for apparently giving up on the dream journal only a couple of months in and not carrying it on daily. But last night's dreams kind fo clarified that reason for me.
I dreamt as I have many times about dinosaurs roaming the streets, hundreds of people running around trying to escape, and me cleverly evading death by sneakily peering around corners and bolting. Most people would just call that a run-of-the-mill nightmare, but at this point given how consistent it's been I think there's more to it.
It's not Jurassic Park where I'm at another location/island where they're running around. It's the modern, everyday world on the streets. I think it has to do with my anxiety around crowded places, cityscapes, and just trying to navigate and survive driving through traffic. I get uneasy and overwhelmed in it all, and usually try and avoid places with lots of people.
So Dinosaur = Archaic Survival Instinct that seems large and overwhelming. Modern World = Physical/Social World around me. At least that's my interpretation. Let's hope it's not a literal vision for the future...
I had several other dreams but can't remember them well and just know they were kind of irrelevant. So keeping a dream journal is challenging when dreams either don't happen or aren't that relevant.
Tuesday, September 10, 2019
Balto-Hybrid
I'm not doing myself any favors blog-wise. I thought there were 2 pre-existing blogs that covered these 2 related subjects that I could then build off of with newer understandings. Nope. Turns out I just thought I wrote those.
Going through my old blogs, i regret blog titles, the fact I never created specific categories or lists for them, and that spiritual theories I learned more about and would add to are buried somewhere in the 1,000 blog posts and I can't find them.
When I started this blog it was just to write, document, and keep my thoughts written down somewhere. I decided somewhere down the line that when I'm older I'll go through them and make a book on what I've learned and what's most important to know.
I also understood that as time when on my thoughts Would inevitably change. And I wanted to show the mind on a journey rather than instantly being at the destination. That we can shift and change in mind and in being. That we're fluid -and not just because we're 70% water.
Anyways, here's the 2 thoughts and my expansions on them:
Being a Balto
I'm still surprised I didn't write about this before. I've been defining myself by this term for years now.
"Balto" refers to a dog/wolf hybrid that accomplished some important things. (I had to decide between a copyrighted Disney movie picture and this more historically accurate one...)
A Balto is someone who's a hybrid in a way that involves identity. Maybe you're race is black and Hispanic and you draw from both of those cultures. Maybe you're Transgendered -"born one way on the outside, but defined by another way inside". Maybe you're King of Kings but born in a barn of a peasant, refugee woman caste aside by the world.
Most people are Baltos in some way. I had several:
-Raised in the city and the country.
-Bisexual (always both not one or the other)
-Religious and Spiritual (Drawing from religion for understanding, drawing from soul for knowing)
-Rich & Poor (I've been both)
And as it turns out I recently found another way I'm "Balto".
And that led to the understanding of Hybrids.
I grew up obsessed with the Vampire Chronicles by Anne Rice and deeply interested in vampires. Hopefully I wrote a previous blog explaining all of that and why that was, but who knows.
In recent years I noticed a pervasive trend in vampire storylines involving Hybrids. The understanding went: "Vampires and Werewolves were enemies for centuries on end. Now there can be peace between them and they can unify because Hybrids exist."
Knowing there's more to life than what meets the eye, I came to understand I was being led to observe this new storyline because it spoke to something bigger happening on a spiritual level.
And then the final puzzle piece came into play the other day -like a lightbulb going off because of recent information I'd found out.
We're all inherently hybrids at this point. Maybe even Tri-brids. And because of that life is more complicated, but it will be easier to simplify.
Going through my old blogs, i regret blog titles, the fact I never created specific categories or lists for them, and that spiritual theories I learned more about and would add to are buried somewhere in the 1,000 blog posts and I can't find them.
When I started this blog it was just to write, document, and keep my thoughts written down somewhere. I decided somewhere down the line that when I'm older I'll go through them and make a book on what I've learned and what's most important to know.
I also understood that as time when on my thoughts Would inevitably change. And I wanted to show the mind on a journey rather than instantly being at the destination. That we can shift and change in mind and in being. That we're fluid -and not just because we're 70% water.
Anyways, here's the 2 thoughts and my expansions on them:
Being a Balto
I'm still surprised I didn't write about this before. I've been defining myself by this term for years now.
"Balto" refers to a dog/wolf hybrid that accomplished some important things. (I had to decide between a copyrighted Disney movie picture and this more historically accurate one...)
A Balto is someone who's a hybrid in a way that involves identity. Maybe you're race is black and Hispanic and you draw from both of those cultures. Maybe you're Transgendered -"born one way on the outside, but defined by another way inside". Maybe you're King of Kings but born in a barn of a peasant, refugee woman caste aside by the world.
Most people are Baltos in some way. I had several:
-Raised in the city and the country.
-Bisexual (always both not one or the other)
-Religious and Spiritual (Drawing from religion for understanding, drawing from soul for knowing)
-Rich & Poor (I've been both)
And as it turns out I recently found another way I'm "Balto".
And that led to the understanding of Hybrids.
I grew up obsessed with the Vampire Chronicles by Anne Rice and deeply interested in vampires. Hopefully I wrote a previous blog explaining all of that and why that was, but who knows.
In recent years I noticed a pervasive trend in vampire storylines involving Hybrids. The understanding went: "Vampires and Werewolves were enemies for centuries on end. Now there can be peace between them and they can unify because Hybrids exist."
Knowing there's more to life than what meets the eye, I came to understand I was being led to observe this new storyline because it spoke to something bigger happening on a spiritual level.
And then the final puzzle piece came into play the other day -like a lightbulb going off because of recent information I'd found out.
We're all inherently hybrids at this point. Maybe even Tri-brids. And because of that life is more complicated, but it will be easier to simplify.
Monday, September 9, 2019
Newly Discovered History
Well wanted to use this as an extension of a previous blog written, only to find I either never wrote that blog or can't find it. This is my fault for labeling all my blogs either "Dreams, Revelations, Recent Changes" or something equally vague.
So now I need to write 2 blogs in one.
First off, there are a lot of historical figures I've come across that although I thought I knew the basic understandings of, apparently had more going on than given credit for.
LGBT Historical Figures:
-Abraham Lincoln. I'm not going to list out the details, people can look into these on their own if they don't believe me. Honestly, Abe was either gay or bisexual.
-Rock Hudson. I'd watched him in a lot of Doris Day movies. Wasn't until I saw Dallas Buyer's Club a couple weeks ago I found out he died of Aids and had been with several men.
-Anne Frank. Someone said it's wrong to debate her sexuality given she was young and isn't around to clarify it. But I don't many many straight girls, even when they're "young", who fantasize about the female body and exclaim that they wish they had a girlfriend. I think erasing her history and LGBT history is a greater issue.
-Eleanor Roosevelt. I sort of knew, but also thought it was a rumor based on the nature of she and her husband's relationship. Then I found out there were love letters...
-Juana Ines de la Cruz. I found out a couple things after discovering her story and reading through wikipedia and other articles.
#1 La Cruz = The Cross, which I didn't know in terms of translation and think is an amazing last name.
#2 She was a nun and given everything should have been sainted being clearly blessed by God and on a mission to legitimize the contributions of women of faith in Christianity.
#3 She was screwed by the Catholic Church. Which isn't surprising given the never ending history of Catholic abuses, but was still disheartening and depressing to find out about just the same.
#4 She was a lesbian and one of the first "feminist" authors of her area ---aka a woman who existed and who wrote books and articles and believed women should be able to.
I love finding out about amazing historical people and how life has always been more vivid than it's been painted up to be.
On top of finding out about historical figures, I've also been finding out a ton more on ancient civilizations, lost empires, strange events that have occurred in various parts of the world, and other strange anomalies throughout time.
The more I learn about history the more I realize life has never been normal.
God Working Things Out Through Generations
I'm going to use the Queen of England/Windsor Family as an example of this. All those biopics and history documentaries of The Crown will not go to waste on my watch...
Pattern #1: 2 Siblings = 2 Monarchs Divided
The first was George VI verses Edward VIII. Edward was supposed to be king, but wanted to marry a divorced woman and so denounced the throne and sought fame, family-life instead. This caused a rift and he was sort of disowned by the family and cast out. George VI was disappointed he did not fill his role and was attention-seeking.
The second to follow were two sisters: Queen Elizabeth and Princess Margaret. Margaret had more personality and was an attention loving free thinker like her uncle. Queen Elizabeth was a traditionalist and royal monarch. The two had bad blood on and off for various reasons, including this dynamic.
Last round: Since Queen Elizabeth had so many kids it's hard to know if this dynamic was at play between them. But once again, a set of 2 siblings of the same gender were born by Princess Diana.
Both brothers have balance. They aren't attention-seeking, but they're also not traditionalists. They'e modern and are comfortable somewhere between celebrity and royalty. They also don't "compete" or compare much with one another.
Pattern #2 Celebrity Verses the Crown
The "celebrity" aspect of a monarch's fame didn't really exist until cameras and video came along -although gossip and scandal did. But given the diminished power of the crown due to rising democratic influences and the fact that it virtually has little to no power now -it makes sense for some to be inclined towards Fame over Power.
So you had Edward VIII living a life of photogenic popularity.
Then Margaret.
Then you had Charles veer that way for a little while, then be steered back.
Then Diana.
And the whole time the traditional monarch establishment was yelling at them to get back in line.
But finally life won out and now who are Prince William and Kate Middleton if not celebrities. They have no power. They aren't reigning. They're just famous. And where they're beloved by people it's for their celebrity. And no one cares. The monarchy can't denounce it at this point -it's too extensive and obvious.
#3 Divorce
It was strange watching this portion of history be told fro a modern perspective. I was like, "What??? They seriously have that big of an issue with someone divorced wanting to remarry?"
Divorced in those days = You were a scandalous, promiscuous, immoral, damned, "anti-Christian", nonconformist radical.
And again, I'm watching like, "Where they drunk at the time? How stupid that they were THAT obsessed with it."
-Edward VIII marries a divorced woman. Gets disowned.
-Princess Margaret marries a man and they cheat on each other, but mostly the man sleeps around a lot before he met her, during their relationship, and after they married. She holds out for about 10 years in a failed relationship to spare the monarchy a disgraced divorcee, and then says screw it. By that time most of the UK didn't care about divorce and thought the monarchy had its crown on too tightly. But being the "Head of the Church of England" the queen could not be seen to accept a Catholic/Christian sin like divorce.
-Princess Diana and Charles get divorced after it's publicly clear they aren't working and Charles is in love with Camilla. Again, the divorce is not that big of a deal -only in terms of celebrity gossip.
-Now: It's not likely that William or Harry will divorce, but if they wanted to NO ONE WOULD CARE. People would maybe be sad for them, but that's about it short of just more celebrity gossip. The Amazon is on Fire and we have several world leaders that are sociopathic morons.
Bigger concerns.
And there it is. For generations where there were these "hard-pressing issues", there isn't now. And those issues seem callous and immature looking back. Things are being worked through future generation by generation. The Queen was once anti-LGBT and then half a century later ended up knighting Sir Elton John.
So now I need to write 2 blogs in one.
First off, there are a lot of historical figures I've come across that although I thought I knew the basic understandings of, apparently had more going on than given credit for.
LGBT Historical Figures:
-Abraham Lincoln. I'm not going to list out the details, people can look into these on their own if they don't believe me. Honestly, Abe was either gay or bisexual.
-Rock Hudson. I'd watched him in a lot of Doris Day movies. Wasn't until I saw Dallas Buyer's Club a couple weeks ago I found out he died of Aids and had been with several men.
-Anne Frank. Someone said it's wrong to debate her sexuality given she was young and isn't around to clarify it. But I don't many many straight girls, even when they're "young", who fantasize about the female body and exclaim that they wish they had a girlfriend. I think erasing her history and LGBT history is a greater issue.
-Eleanor Roosevelt. I sort of knew, but also thought it was a rumor based on the nature of she and her husband's relationship. Then I found out there were love letters...
-Juana Ines de la Cruz. I found out a couple things after discovering her story and reading through wikipedia and other articles.
#1 La Cruz = The Cross, which I didn't know in terms of translation and think is an amazing last name.
#2 She was a nun and given everything should have been sainted being clearly blessed by God and on a mission to legitimize the contributions of women of faith in Christianity.
#3 She was screwed by the Catholic Church. Which isn't surprising given the never ending history of Catholic abuses, but was still disheartening and depressing to find out about just the same.
#4 She was a lesbian and one of the first "feminist" authors of her area ---aka a woman who existed and who wrote books and articles and believed women should be able to.
I love finding out about amazing historical people and how life has always been more vivid than it's been painted up to be.
On top of finding out about historical figures, I've also been finding out a ton more on ancient civilizations, lost empires, strange events that have occurred in various parts of the world, and other strange anomalies throughout time.
The more I learn about history the more I realize life has never been normal.
God Working Things Out Through Generations
I'm going to use the Queen of England/Windsor Family as an example of this. All those biopics and history documentaries of The Crown will not go to waste on my watch...
Pattern #1: 2 Siblings = 2 Monarchs Divided
The first was George VI verses Edward VIII. Edward was supposed to be king, but wanted to marry a divorced woman and so denounced the throne and sought fame, family-life instead. This caused a rift and he was sort of disowned by the family and cast out. George VI was disappointed he did not fill his role and was attention-seeking.
The second to follow were two sisters: Queen Elizabeth and Princess Margaret. Margaret had more personality and was an attention loving free thinker like her uncle. Queen Elizabeth was a traditionalist and royal monarch. The two had bad blood on and off for various reasons, including this dynamic.
Last round: Since Queen Elizabeth had so many kids it's hard to know if this dynamic was at play between them. But once again, a set of 2 siblings of the same gender were born by Princess Diana.
Both brothers have balance. They aren't attention-seeking, but they're also not traditionalists. They'e modern and are comfortable somewhere between celebrity and royalty. They also don't "compete" or compare much with one another.
Pattern #2 Celebrity Verses the Crown
The "celebrity" aspect of a monarch's fame didn't really exist until cameras and video came along -although gossip and scandal did. But given the diminished power of the crown due to rising democratic influences and the fact that it virtually has little to no power now -it makes sense for some to be inclined towards Fame over Power.
So you had Edward VIII living a life of photogenic popularity.
Then Margaret.
Then you had Charles veer that way for a little while, then be steered back.
Then Diana.
And the whole time the traditional monarch establishment was yelling at them to get back in line.
But finally life won out and now who are Prince William and Kate Middleton if not celebrities. They have no power. They aren't reigning. They're just famous. And where they're beloved by people it's for their celebrity. And no one cares. The monarchy can't denounce it at this point -it's too extensive and obvious.
#3 Divorce
It was strange watching this portion of history be told fro a modern perspective. I was like, "What??? They seriously have that big of an issue with someone divorced wanting to remarry?"
Divorced in those days = You were a scandalous, promiscuous, immoral, damned, "anti-Christian", nonconformist radical.
And again, I'm watching like, "Where they drunk at the time? How stupid that they were THAT obsessed with it."
-Edward VIII marries a divorced woman. Gets disowned.
-Princess Margaret marries a man and they cheat on each other, but mostly the man sleeps around a lot before he met her, during their relationship, and after they married. She holds out for about 10 years in a failed relationship to spare the monarchy a disgraced divorcee, and then says screw it. By that time most of the UK didn't care about divorce and thought the monarchy had its crown on too tightly. But being the "Head of the Church of England" the queen could not be seen to accept a Catholic/Christian sin like divorce.
-Princess Diana and Charles get divorced after it's publicly clear they aren't working and Charles is in love with Camilla. Again, the divorce is not that big of a deal -only in terms of celebrity gossip.
-Now: It's not likely that William or Harry will divorce, but if they wanted to NO ONE WOULD CARE. People would maybe be sad for them, but that's about it short of just more celebrity gossip. The Amazon is on Fire and we have several world leaders that are sociopathic morons.
Bigger concerns.
And there it is. For generations where there were these "hard-pressing issues", there isn't now. And those issues seem callous and immature looking back. Things are being worked through future generation by generation. The Queen was once anti-LGBT and then half a century later ended up knighting Sir Elton John.
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