It seems so strange
looking back at my life that Jesus was with me before I had even known His
name, and for such a long time I did not know He was there.
As a spiritual person
who is now deeply connected to Jesus, it's hard to fathom it.
But then I'm reminded
of all the times I had an unwavering compulsion to know more about Christianity
and in particular the life of Christ. And in spite of so many people failing to
inform me, I never "gave up" and shut that door entirely. And it left
me open enough to receive the truth about Him when the right person did come
along to help me along.
And then it hurts to
remember what a great chasm of faith it felt like to finally embrace Jesus and
let Him in. There was a huge gap in that direct connection and it felt like a
huge leap. Yet it wasn't, it only appeared that way on my end.
And now I feel stupid
looking back like, "How could I not have known?"
At this point in my
life I'm actually trying to balance the opposite -have a negative, clingy
attachment to Christ. It leads you to feeling like the victim and a lost child
in every situation, rather than being divine and empowered yourself.
Unfortunately this is the number 1 excuse used by some spiritual practitioners to
avoid connecting to external beings on only trying to "be God"
yourself.
In reality, God
empowers you to know yourself as a piece of God's divinity -not God yourself -
and know that you're looked after. You will always be a child in comparison to
Jesus, but you'll also know you can venture out on your own and lead a powerful
life.
As soon as you detach from
that negative attachment and that feeling of "victimhood", you
understand that you're standing beside Jesus and He's more like a shadow of
light behind you: Guiding, Protecting, Bringing Peace, and Loving You. His presence
is like oxygen to the soul.
You can go your life
without that divine connection if you like, but for most people it's an
illusion. He's already there. He knows you. He's there for you in silence. It's
you that isn't taking in and embracing that truth. And it's a saddening chasm
when that happens.
Jesus is a part of
this. I hate how mocked that name has become. With Buddha, even an atheist
would have some level of respect for the name. But not "Jesus". It's
mocked too much. And you may as well be saying the same of the word
"soul".
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