Dream
10/11: Had a very vivid, light, direct
dream that was definitely more of a vision. I was with my dad and we were
visiting with this older woman who was supposed to be a spiritual healer. She
came up to me immediately and I could tell #1 that she was profoundly spiritual
and #2 that we had a pretty instant connection. She said, “You have had
abdomen/pelvic issues. As a woman and someone who has had those sorts of issues
before I can always tell it in other women.”
So I explained that I had had a
urinary tract infection and then 6 months later a trip to the hospital because
of urinary retention that then lasted 2 months after. She then felt that part
of my body and pulled out several stones representing my internal organs. She
said, “Your kidneys have had issues and have been burdened. And your liver
looks a little strained. But the main issue is ovarian cancer in your left
ovary in particular. You need to see a doctor and possibly have surgery.” As
she said this I felt calm, protected, and loved –like I didn’t need to worry
because I would be taken care of. I also felt like this issue could NOT be
solved spiritually and needed medical intercession.
I remembered that my family has a
history of ovarian issues –including ovarian cancer and took this as a sign
that this will metastasize if I don’t get it checked out and caught before it
gets too bad. I also saw a table of dead fish, which didn’t make sense to me at
first but I think represented me as a Pisces being dead if I didn’t do
something about this. Again, the whole incident was calm and not alarming, just
honest.
Needless to say I will be looking up
the coverage of my Medicaid plan and trying to track down an ovarian doctor.
***Update 10/14: My step-mom hosted
another women entrepreneurial party and I met some new people. One woman sold
wine for OneHope –which is a foundation that contributes to multiple causes. I
sit down at their table and she asks me, “Which wine do you want to try?”
Normally I don’t drink wine, but the only one I’ve ever tolerated tasting was a
Rose Wine. So she pours me the rose wine and as I take the first sip I ask
myself, “What does this have to do with anything? Why the heck and I drinking
this right now? How does this add to my life” Then the woman looks at me and
says, “All the proceeds from this bottle go to Ovarian Cancer. And her words
hit me and freaked me out.
So that’s when I pretty much decided
it was time to do some research. My first 2 sources:
-A
Colorado Ovarian Cancer info site: http://www.colo-ovariancancer.org/about-ovarian-cancer/symptoms.html
-The
non-profit the Wine is supposed to go towards: http://www.ocrf.org/
And I found out the main symptoms of
ovarian cancer, which runs in my family, are:
Bloating, Pelvic and Abdominal Pain,
Urinary Urgency or Frequency,
Difficulty Eating and Feeling Full Quick
Well sh*t. I guess we know why a 28
year old with no excuse for urinary issues suddenly had to go to the E.R. for
urinary frequency that turned into an infection that turned into retention.
Then I read what the TESTS for this
issue were and it’s blood tests, ultra sound, and pelvic exam –which SUCKS. I
thought it was past medical crap. And then found out the only true way of
knowing is SURGERY. F*CK!!! So not happy right now.
How is it we’ve got the word out on
breast cancer and we can get PAP test for cervical cancer –but the “silent
killer” that ovarian cancer has been so eloquently named has NO real verifiable
test outside of surgery yet?????? Not happy.
Dream
10/12: Had a 2 part dream. The first part
was being back in my childhood room with my toys and my sister was there. She
had a Simba lion king toy and I had Nala. In olden days I had stolen Simba and
not told her. In this dream I gave her Simba back and told her we were meant to
share. She didn’t really seem interested in the toys –like she had moved on
from them.
The next part of the dream was very
important. I dreamt I was among random people and there was going to be a horse
race. My horse did not have a saddle or reins. I tried getting the reins
together because they were dismantled and spent most of my time focusing on
that. Then a sand storm came out of nowhere and I hopped on the horse as was
and rode off to evade getting buried by the sand. When the sand cleared fire
started falling from the sky –like ash from a volcano.
Which leads me to the main
theme/issue I see that’s been coming up a lot. I call it “Heading to Higher
Ground”.
Higher
Ground
I’m not sure when but at some point
in the near future, out of nowhere, there will be strange phenomenon that
occurs. It will be BIG. It will be intense. It will seem out of place. It won’t
be subtle. We’re talking lava flowing down your street or the sky turning
purple. People will be frightened and they won’t know what to do.
This is essential: Go to Higher
Ground. Go to a mountain or some God-made space in nature off of the flat
ground. You will be safe and taken care of on the mountain.
I feel like the gravity of this gets
lost in this present time because it seems so outlandish right now. It also has
echoings of priests and men in streets crying of the end of times centuries
ago. And yet, this is what I continue to perceive. I’m actually going to start
warning the members of my family that will listen. It’s a simple concept. If
weird sh*t starts occurring for no reason and it makes no sense and puts people
in danger –head to the mountains. Call on God and you will be guided.
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