Tear It Down?

 I debated deleting my blog entirely. 

Then I thought, "Maybe I'll just hit 'hide' on all of it and just select a few to make public." 

Then I reflected back to my original stance when I created it: 

I had another blog from age 18ish to my early twenties. That girl had not made peace with the past, was mostly lost, and hadn't discovered herself for herself -she didn't even know she was bi/ace. 

So I made a new blog -this one -and wanted it to help me navigate spiritual understandings. Unfortunately the mess of navigating "spirituality" is that you have to wade through misunderstanding in order to get there. But I wanted it to be honest and shown -that no one rolls out of bed just "knowing" everything. The way this world works you have to unbury it, seek it, listen to it, trust it, lose it, find it, question it, and be founded in it for decades and decades. 

So there are cringe-worthy posts I dislike because they're honest in an unflattering way -especially for a white person navigating spiritual understanding in a multi-cultural planet where white people have suppressed multi-cultural belief. 

For those still wondering, when I asked: "What are souls incarnated in this life as white -who maybe like me have only been white before once or twice and within this culture find it devoid of true spirituality -what do you do as a soul when you find truth in practices outside your culture you can't engage in?" 

And the answer was: Keep it ELEMENTAL. Don't focus on what we call "spirituality" which ultimately doesn't exist as we think it does and only just Exists at all. Breathe. Heal. Connect. BE. Don't "practice" or turn or become dependent on anything external that's physical.

There are physical items and practices that can aide you -particularly if they engage your senses: Frankincense for soul connection and smell, the Labradorite and Amethyst to ease a spiritual mind, Breathing in to the spaces in your body you are healing/clearing, and so on... 

But the more you try to micro-manage and control influence the less you regard the influences over your soul that you are more highly governed by. 

It was a relief to know I never had control -I was just trying to. I could let go and just trust. I could be in pain and know I'd be beyond it at the same time. I could let life unfold as it does anyway. I manifest nothing and controlled nothing. It was all brought about through me, but not by me alone. I worked in tandem like the front wheel of a bike "chooses" to roll as the bike is peddled. 

There was no free will being applied outside of God because we aren't outside at all. God is within and around and is ALL. 

It Was Always Going To Be

You had to start with Millennials kicking things in high gear. Before them was this:

Boomers: "You're either a man or woman or your black or white and always straight".

Gen X: "Well men and women should be equal and obviously racism is a problem and I guess gays are ok if they stay over in their corner. you don't have to fear them." 

Then Millennials took a deeper dive. Men and women ARE equal but aren't treated that way and here are the detailed, longstanding reasons why... Racism was something we labelled a problem, but never defined as white people in terms of what it consisted of -including systemically. And there are interracial people and people experience different kinds of racism and intersectionality exists. Gays are awesome, trans-people aren't new they're just being complained about now, and on a distant shore somewhere are non-binary and ace people waiting to be "discovered". 

Gen Z: Everything Millennials said but with a deeper tone of resentment since they knew this and "did nothing" even though we also scientifically acknowledge Millennials and Gen Z are the poorest generations with the least amount of power in the last century or so. Also, let's take action! Let's do something. Even if marches don't work as well or aren't as effective let's do something. 

Bigger Picture Beyond That: The Government and Corporations and Economy govern everything and their founded in White Supremacy. Individuals and whole generations getting enlightened is great, but what's imposing the greatest forms of oppression aren't people -they're systems. Always think on systems. 

But it was always going to be this way.

Millennials start to acknowledge issues with rape and pedophilia. Dialogues begin online. 

White Millennials start to acknowledge racism and everything that's gone on behind it online. 

Still a whisper, but at least known individually by those who started listening.  

LGBT+ starts being silently celebrated and appreciated and the primordial acknowledgment of racism and issues within the community starts to also be seen online. 

Feminism is called out online for being "too white" and not inclusive. 

Islamophobia is denounced online. 

Non-indigenous people start hearing more about what's happening to native people. 

Americans start to learn more about their own history -the true version -and come to distrust and acknowledge the evil of the US Government. 

And then it followed:

You had to acknowledge Racism for Black People specifically. And the reason it paired with LGBT community -pride with marches -was because both communities hadn't been as inclusive towards the other as it should.  

You could NOT address the issue of Racism towards any other demographic of Americans if the greatest one that had been inflicted the most, for the longest, the most overtly was ignored. No one would acknowledge AAPI hate and those within the community wouldn't feel as compelled to speak up. Acknowledging one paved the way for the other. Same as white gay men paving the way for white transwomen and white lesbians and then black transpeople and so on. It's sad it can't be all at once but ignorance is slowly chipped away at when it becomes a marble stone wall. 

Racism Against Black People & LGBT ---> AAPI and Native Racism ---> 

Religious Groups/Issues with Appropriation (Israel, Palestine, Jewish People, Muslims, "Witch" Practices, Native Practices, Abuses of Christianity ---> 

WOMEN (ALL women, LGBT+, Racially, Culturally) ---> 

POVERTY which effects everyone (veterans, domestic violence victims, white men) ---->

 AMERICAN (countries founded as they are now in colonialism/imperialism. Everyone who's American will have to reflect on what we stand in as a country in the world, the countries we ignore and inflict harm on, how our governance functions and what it is, and country-based accountability will be called for ---> 

Slavery /Abuses of Children (Because if you don't acknowledge #MeToo, BLM, or Poverty you won't get anywhere close to addressing the kinds of kids being trafficked) --->

GLOBAL position in the universe and with spiritual realms beyond this plane and how we're interconnected and impact our surroundings. 

You can't have one ended without the other preceding it. If you ended abuses against Women it would only be white women unless issues with Racism were addressed first. You can't end Poverty if you turn a blind eye to way it's orchestra to hit certain demographics of people -and it's people you don't see or care about. You can't end human trafficking if you don't acknowledge race, poverty, inequality because of who trafficking tends to target. 

And like a rose it will unfold. 

And the way for the divine will be paved within and around. 

And then we'll move beyond the divine once we've gotten the Hell/Heaven dynamic in harmony and fulfilled. 

Then we'll just BE. 

Transitionary Periods

 After affirming the understanding that we bleed back into God ultimately and are kind of a hologram the reason ghosts are transparent) I participated in a program in April that expanded beyond that and also added that Everything bleeds back into "Nothing". 

I had tapped into that space. It's what Taoism and Buddhism speak of. But I hadn't fully understood or registered it. 

"Nothing" isn't actually nothing or a complete void -it's more like outer space if you took out all of the stars and planets. It's comprised of energy but it's just Space. 

I also discovered life is a Paradox and yet it isn't because it's "nothing". 

Hell exists because of Heaven. Heaven exists because of Hell. Hell disappears Heaven re-emerges into God. God emerges back into the "nothing" space. 

Hell was transmuted. It doesn't exist any technically never did since it was just an illusion. The remnants of it are on Earth, but the place it once consisted of is gone. 

Heaven has changed -if it even can be said to exist anymore. There are higher realms closer to God but Heaven as was is gone. It's all open now. 

Heaven is also much more embedded on Earth. When Heaven is affirmed on Earth, everything will bleed back into God/Source more fully. From there God will bleed back into the Nothing. 

But the end isn't Nothing. The end is Balance. What was Hell and still remains will now be in balance with Heaven. Darkness will be "neutral" and Light will be "neutral". For the best example of this -look to nature. A shark isn't evil -it's just a shark. And a whale isn't divine -it's just a whale. They just exist. And yet they don't. 

So when God bleeds into Nothing the result won't be nothing -it will be the balance between the two. That everything and nothing will co-exist in balance. 

In other news, "Spirituality" is being let go of -at least by those who are ascending more. We're not a soul -we are pure energy and the nothing. So all the practices and items used to help us cling to what we have within us undermines the natural understanding of what is. The more you cling to any of -religion, beliefs, practices, items... the more you convince yourself you're not ultimately comprised of all of the "good" you could ever fund in any of it. If it resonates with you its because YOU resonate with it. 

Evil led people to cling to solace found in objects and worship. Like clinging to a lantern in the dark. Now it's not needed. Evil is being dispersed. So we can move forward and just "Be" and be beyond all of it. 

"Spirituality" was only ever a coping mechanism with being here on this Earth. Contending with Hell. Healing pain. 

Heaven isn't needed if Hell is gone. God is what we derive from. Everything beyond that is nothing.