I recently went to 2 meetups that were women's groups focused on planning out the new year Intuitively.
#1 The first was my friend Katie's group: Katie was in PHB and moved back from San Jose to Colorado a couple years ago. The meetup met at a Unity church -which featured Native American artwork by an artist named "Ridge" on the wall much to my enjoyment.
Katie walked me and the 2 other women in the group through a writing exercise meant to flesh out a better understanding of our goals and what's holding us back.
-The Struggle: Lately my issues have revolved around procrastination, feeling lethargic, and thoughts of self-doubt.
-The Money: When asked what I would do if I was given a superfluous amount of money right now, I envisioned: Having a place of my own to live, focusing on creating a business off of my artwork, writing a book, and spending time in nature. When i actually envisioned myself outside in the woods sitting in the sun I actually FELT liberated and free. What I realized was I really just want that Freedom. Freedom from FEELING confined.
-The YOU: What makes you unique/are your attributes of self? I listed: Open-minded, Creative, Spiritual, Honest, Visionary, Caring, Reflective, Delving Deeper, Loyal, Calm.
Then being an entrepreneur, Katie tried leading us into our "Heroes Story" which is supposed to help you sell a product/service. Basically you say, "My life is wonderful because blah, blah, blah. But not so long ago I struggled with issues XY and Z. But then I overcame those issues and am here today greater than ever..."
Here we hit conflict. After experiencing Landmark Forum, I came to the understanding that every person has their sob-story life tragedy tale. Some are genuinely intense and inspiring to see and hear others overcome. But ultimately these are issues we are meant to move on from and only discuss openly in the right moments to inspire others. Oprah is a good example of this since she has had success for many years but only recently opened up about her traumatic childhood experiences. She didn't share that for attention or profitability, but because she has moved on from it and wanted others to know how far she's come to inspire them to do the same.
So for someone to take their tragic story and use it to manipulate people into buying a product or service from them... It's something I've seen people do but you see right through and usually come to resent the person for emotionally twisting your mind that way to make a sale.
Then Katie had us break with 2015 and write about what the main issues we had with that year were and then what we learned so we could let them go... Which was kind of ironic given her previous writing exercise...
-Going Forward: What will you do and bring about in the new year? I'm definitely meant to spiritually grow some more. I'm sensing I'm meant to learn the lesson of "Just Do It" since I tend to overthink things.
Then Katie actually mentioned the understanding, "You have to Dive Deep to Rise Up". I thought that was kind of spiritually "coincidental" since I actually wrote the words "Dive Deep" earlier and was kind of thinking about that.
Then I actually had a moment of DejaVu. I remembered seeing Katie in front of me in that space as it was happening. Definitely a "meant to happen" kind of moment.
#2 The second meetup I went to was a group of about 15 business women who had come to hear the psychic Michelle DesPres speak. I was pretty skeptical and was "listening in" to see how spiritual she came off.
She started talking and I could actually tell she was kind of nervous. This to me was an indication that she was introverted -a psychic tendency -and simultaneously might not be in as great a spiritual place as she could be since an enlightened spiritual state would tend to ease uneasiness or "dis ease" as she called it.
At this point I decided to send her support spiritually. I called on the Holy Spirit to guide her with talking -since that's one of the qualities it's known for. I also decided to bless the whole room. I brought God's presence in, asked Jesus to bring Peace to all the people in the room, Mary to give love, and Michael to protect. After the room was "filled" with their light and positive energy I went back to focusing on her.
The first thing she had us do was choose a partner at the table we were sitting at and describe the person as we sensed them by comparing them to a flower. A women who hadn't been at our table came and sat down next to me and became my partner.
I told this woman, Amy, that in all honesty that I couldn't do the flower thing. I was struggling with it. I said, "I'd rather just try to describe you as I sense you to be as is." So I did. Amy reminded me of my Aunt Carol actually. Tall, slender, spiritual, wise in glance, composed, focused on her career, respectful, good at listening, well spoken/carefully spoken, and confident.
Then she described me and was pretty spot on. She definitely had a spiritual thing going on that was surprising. She said, "I got this vision of a flower -a rare, purple iris -before the flower assignment was even given and it was definitely about you." She said I was like the flower and that's why she wanted to sit by me.
Then she tried guessing what I did and was on the right track of sensing I was an artist. Then I got this image in my head of writing, but didn't have the guts to tell her that's what I thought she did. Then she told me she helps people write books and publish them. I told her she reminded me of J.K. Rowling because her personality was kind of similar.
Then Michelle started walking us through the next part of what became a writing exercise.
-The Goal: What do you want to manifest? Again I pretty much listed the things I had at Katie's meetup when asked what would I do if money was no object. I also added that, "Ultimately God provides for us. It just takes time. But when God decides to make something happen -it happens."
-The Struggle: What's holding you back? Again it was the self-doubt and procrastination, but at the same time I also acknowledged and wrote that there was some kind of bigger underlying issue underneath and I wasn't sure what the Source of the problem was.
That's when Michelle said, "Remember, don't just focus on the surface issues but really try to figure out what's holding you back spiritually..."
She said, "Lot's of things can hold a person back like past pains, self -doubt..."
And it was then that I thought and actually listed, "Past life issues, Lack of belief in seeing myself achieve God's plans that seem bigger than me, not receiving unconditional love on Earth..."
And that's when Michelle said, "Past life issues can also be at play or negative relationships we have with people..."
Every time my mind would wonder off on its own she would essentially Speak to what I was thinking and draw my attention back. It was like she was cluing me into the fact she was listening in.
-The Rise: How can you overcome these issues? So I started listing the ways I felt that I could spiritually overcome my listed. I was kind of mopey and focused in on what I was writing. Then I started smiling for no reason and felt kind of happy and I looked up and Michelle was standing up there smiling at me. We had a silent exchange of smile/happiness that lasted 3 seconds for no good reason.
Afterwards I realized she was essentially playing "bounce back". I had brought in positivity to her when she was speaking so she wouldn't feel so nervous and she had sent positivity to me when I was writing so I wouldn't feel so mopey.
Then the last part of the session occurred in which we had to write down the things we wanted/were committed to do. I actually wrote down "Delving Inward" and meditation/relaxation because I feel like that's what I need to be doing right now -like a Hibernation state. Then Michelle said, "There are many forms of meditation one can do -sitting down and going blank-minded is my least favorite and I actually think public speaking is a great form of meditation. I silently agreed to disagree...
I'm basically waiting for God to put all the puzzle pieces in my lap so I can link them together. And apparently meeting Amy was one of those pieces since I've been wanting to create a Coloring Book and a regular book for a long time and she knows the way down that path very well.
God takes care of all things in time.
Right now I need to reflect, relax, focus on strategy, make the right connections with the right people, find spiritual affirmation, and explore more spiritual possibilities and understandings.