Last night i had a dream I was back in college. I signed up for a class and opted-out of another one. I was curious and decided to sit in for the first day of the class I had opted-out of, hearing the class was challenging and the teacher was rough.
As I sat in my seat and looked around I noticed that a lot of the other students were kids from my old high school. I was starting to reconsider joining the class at that point when the teacher, Chef Ramsey, walked in.
He stood at the front of the class and started calling on kids to answer 2-3 questions like, "What is it that you think you have that's worth sharing?" and "What's your biggest fear?" They were strait forward, intimidating questions meant to see who was bold and brave in the classroom. I hid behind another student praying to God he didn't pick on me.
I got lucky. After 5 students answering his questions he passed out a piece of paper for each student. The started writing the main question posed on the sheet of paper up on the chalk board so everyone could see it. I started to fill out the basic info (name/date) when I got the sheet. I glanced down at the main question and realized it was a wordy math problem. Why do math problems have so many words?...
But at the top of the page, next to name and date, 2 questions were asked. "What do you think you have that's worth offering (immaterial)?" and "What are you most afraid of?" In the Fear box the words "Public Speaking" had already been filled out since the majority of people have the fear. I debated whether to leave the default response as was and claim Public Speaking as my fear.
Then I thought, NO. I'm president of Toastmasters now. I can't claim this as my fear, what kind of example would that set? I don't like public speaking and I get nervous and mess up sometimes, but I've had years of work overcoming my basic fear of public speaking and have conquered it.
But then I wondered what I should out down as my fear. I don't know why Great White sharks didn't occur to me -or having Chef Ramsey as a teacher- but I was suddenly overwhelmed by the thought of being on the edge of a platform 25 stories in the air above a tiny city below. So I put "Heights".
For the question about sharing worth, I was stuck again with pondering. Only this time it was because I thought I had too many different things I could out and couldn't decide on which one. The dream was kind of a humble affirmation that my sense of self worth has become far greater than it used to be and I'm definitely in a better place in my life than I have been in the past.
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