Last night I had a dream that I died. I went to
heaven and was led into a small golden room with three “women” standing before
me. I could not make out their faces, but the one who spoke to me had the voice
of a soft, patient female. She said she would ask me one question (which would
determine if I belonged in heaven and could remain there).
“What was it that you found on earth that instilled
peace in you during your time there?”
The first thing I thought was, Music. But then I thought it was stupid to talk about something so “trivial”.
But with nothing better to say and the risk of seeming like I knew nothing I
used it as a starting point for the conversation anyway.
“Music has helped me connect with my feelings which
can be buried and forgotten when most people are trying to hide them. Music let
me let go of things I was dealing with internally and open up more as a person.
Buddhism also helped me find peace by introducing me
to the concept of “letting go”. Christ of course has also brought me peace –just
in the knowing that He is always there.”
I felt like I had given all I could. But it still
wasn’t enough. I was grasping at straws looking for the answer in my mind. Then it came to me.
“But if I’d never read about Buddha. Or I’d never learned
of Christ. Or I’d never heard a note of music, the one thing that would still
bring me peace throughout it all from the beginning is Faith. I’ve always had faith. I’ve always known things would be
alright. I never had any reason to suspect it, but I’ve always had it. The way
an infant doesn’t know that it will be fed another meal. Or that it will be
placed somewhere warm and safe to sleep at night. But it knows it will. It
knows when it’s taken care of. It doesn’t need to worry. Like the burden of
fear and doubt is removed from off its shoulders. Faith has brought me peace.
It has lifted the burden of worry from my soul.”
I have a friend named Jos. Jos is planning her first
event (2 Day event to promote women entrepreneurs in business). For 6 months I
helped her concrete ideas and stay organized. Initially her doubts and fears
didn’t bother me because I had enough faith to know the event would work out
just fine. That’s the beauty of faith. But this past month my patience has worn
thin. She worries from topic to topic, aspect to aspect with no breathes in
between. I can’t assure her.
So I dragged in my sister. Now she can assure Jos –a
21 year old assuring a 30 something year old that all will be well. You can’t
live faith for someone else. Peace is something you live with –not something
you die with. It’s not a mole that grows on your body and dies when it does –it’s
in your soul. You carry peace within you.
So when the event comes and the 2 days run as
smoothly as they will with only a few hick-ups as they inevitably will and her
goal that she has striven to achieve for the past 8 months is realized –will she
even give herself a moment to enjoy it before she starts worrying about how to
follow-up after the event and make sure everyone stays in touch and starts
planning for the next promotional event and booking the hotel and getting
everyone involved…
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